God has abandoned me.

[megan_26]

I don't have any faith anymore. Call me what you like, but I have given up. I hear stories of God speaking to people, taking their pain away. Yet I have spent so many nights sobbing alone in my bed, begging for help, pleading for God to take away the pain or at least let me know that he's there. I've spent so many nights reaching up, desperate for him. But I'm just talking to my ceiling. I don't have it in me to try anymore. He has abandoned me or he never loved me in the first place. I'm not sure what to do. I believe he exists still but I don't believe he cares. He wasn't there when I needed him most and I don't know if he ever was.

Not sure what else to say. I just don't think there's a point in calling myself a Christian anymore. I don't know what I believe.

 

[salt-n-light]

Praying for your faith to be strengthen.

What exactly is your expectation with God? What do you mean by " He wasn't there when I needed Him?"

 

[megan_26]

Praying for your faith to be strengthen.

What exactly is your expectation with God? What do you mean by " He wasn't there when I needed Him?"

All I ask of him is to show me that he's there and listening but he never does!! I was in a really, really, really dark place in my life and I needed strength and comfort, or at least one of those. I needed to know that I wasn't alone and he stayed silent. He didn't provide peace or comfort or even a sign that he was there. And that doesn't feel like love to me. What kind of person claims to love someone but stays silent when they're suffering?

 

[Kevin Snow]

But I'm just talking to my ceiling.

And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. ~Hebrews 11:6

 

[megan_26]

And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. ~Hebrews 11:6

I'm aware of that verse, but I've followed God my entire life up until now. it's not for a lack of faith that he didn't answer me because I did truly believe that he would show up when I needed him.

 

[Kevin Snow]

I'm aware of that verse, but I've followed God my entire life up until now. it's not for a lack of faith that he didn't answer me because I did truly believe that he would show up when I needed him.

Thus says the Lord,
the Holy One of Israel, and the one who formed him:
“Ask me of things to come;
will you command me concerning my children and the work of my hands?b
I made the earth
and created man on it;
it was my hands that stretched out the heavens,
and I commanded all their host.
~Isaiah 45:11-12

No wisdom, no understanding, no counsel can avail against Yahweh. ~Proverbs 21:30

Read Job again and see the purposes of God, how he restored him after he let him go through all that misfortune.

 

[Job3315]

I don't have any faith anymore. Call me what you like, but I have given up. I hear stories of God speaking to people, taking their pain away. Yet I have spent so many nights sobbing alone in my bed, begging for help, pleading for God to take away the pain or at least let me know that he's there. I've spent so many nights reaching up, desperate for him. But I'm just talking to my ceiling. I don't have it in me to try anymore. He has abandoned me or he never loved me in the first place. I'm not sure what to do. I believe he exists still but I don't believe he cares. He wasn't there when I needed him most and I don't know if he ever was.

Not sure what else to say. I just don't think there's a point in calling myself a Christian anymore. I don't know what I believe.

Do you dream?

 

[Neogaia777]

All I ask of him is to show me that he's there and listening but he never does!! I was in a really, really, really dark place in my life and I needed strength and comfort, or at least one of those. I needed to know that I wasn't alone and he stayed silent. He didn't provide peace or comfort or even a sign that he was there. And that doesn't feel like love to me. What kind of person claims to love someone but stays silent when they're suffering?

If he did start showing himself to you, what would you think then...?

You do know God "speaks" to us in many, many different ways, and it is not always a through a clear ominous voice either... He uses people and things, many various things to speak to us also... Are you sure you have "ears to hear", or that your even looking, and just maybe not seeing...?

Have you ever experienced very strange "coincidences" at all...?

God Bless!

 

[megan_26]

Do you dream?

...yes. why?

 

[Neogaia777]

All I ask of him is to show me that he's there and listening but he never does!! I was in a really, really, really dark place in my life and I needed strength and comfort, or at least one of those. I needed to know that I wasn't alone and he stayed silent. He didn't provide peace or comfort or even a sign that he was there. And that doesn't feel like love to me. What kind of person claims to love someone but stays silent when they're suffering?

I was hesitating responding, cause I just don't know how good I am at counseling or offering and counsel to anyone right now...?

I think God is speaking to us all the time, were just not tuned into the right "frequency" so to speak...

In fact, their is a very good pastor Robert Morris, you can probably find some of his stuff on YouTube, and in fact he has a book out called "frequency" and he talks a lot about hearing from God and how to hear from God, and it's pretty good, might want to check it out or check into it, or some of his preaching on YouTube maybe...?

God Bless!

 

[megan_26]

If he did start showing himself to you, what would you think then...?

You do know God "speaks" to us in many, many different ways, and it is not always a through a clear ominous voice either... He uses people and things, many various things to speak to us also... Are you sure you have "ears to hear", or that your even looking, and just maybe not seeing...?

Have you ever experienced very strange "coincidences" at all...?

God Bless!

I do know all these things and while I was in a really dark place in my life, I tried to keep myself open to his voice no matter what form it may have taken. I prayed often and kept putting myself in his hands but my situation just kept getting worse. Now it just feels like he isn't there. It feels pointless to try to talk to him anymore. Praying honestly just makes me sick to my stomach. I still want to be open to him if he does speak to me but I don't think he will...

 

[redleghunter]

I don't have any faith anymore. Call me what you like, but I have given up. I hear stories of God speaking to people, taking their pain away. Yet I have spent so many nights sobbing alone in my bed, begging for help, pleading for God to take away the pain or at least let me know that he's there. I've spent so many nights reaching up, desperate for him. But I'm just talking to my ceiling. I don't have it in me to try anymore. He has abandoned me or he never loved me in the first place. I'm not sure what to do. I believe he exists still but I don't believe he cares. He wasn't there when I needed him most and I don't know if he ever was.

Not sure what else to say. I just don't think there's a point in calling myself a Christian anymore. I don't know what I believe.

Hi Megan. I'm praying for you.

Do you remember your day of Salvation? The day where Christ entered your life like a breath of fresh air along with just flooring you (literally for me) and taking the weight of sin off your shoulders? The day you were born again?

Jesus tells the church of Ephesus that they have left Him their first Love.

Megan, return to your first Love our Risen savior Jesus Christ. Go to the Cross, the empty tomb. Gaze up at the Heavens and declare He will come again as He ascended.

God Bless!

 

[redleghunter]

I'm aware of that verse, but I've followed God my entire life up until now. it's not for a lack of faith that he didn't answer me because I did truly believe that he would show up when I needed him.

Megan what happened? What exactly was not answered?

 

[Job3315]

Because God is speaking to you through your dreams, you just don't know it.

Get a pen and a paper, pray for before going to sleep. Say “Jesus, your servant is listening” and wait for a dream.

Job 33:14-15

 

[1 John 4:1]

All I ask of him is to show me that he's there and listening but he never does!! I was in a really, really, really dark place in my life and I needed strength and comfort, or at least one of those. I needed to know that I wasn't alone and he stayed silent. He didn't provide peace or comfort or even a sign that he was there. And that doesn't feel like love to me. What kind of person claims to love someone but stays silent when they're suffering?

Maybe consider the idea that the world is sinful and God's presence cannot dwell fully in it: (the god of this world is not God) 2 Corinthians 4:4
We are to pray that his will is done on earth as it is in heaven. This means his will is not always done on earth . . . So maybe it was his will to comfort you but something prevented it, or maybe he has decided not to comfort you in order to increase your faith, I don't know. Christ wants to make us more like him (totally selfless), so if you are expecting something from God in return for your service maybe you have to let that go:

Luke 17:5
5And the apostles said unto the Lord, Increase our faith. 6And the Lord said, If ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye would say unto this sycamine tree, Be thou rooted up, and be thou planted in the sea; and it would obey you. 7But who is there of you, having a servant plowing or keeping sheep, that will say unto him, when he is come in from the field, Come straightway and sit down to meat; 8and will not rather say unto him, Make ready wherewith I may sup, and gird thyself, and serve me, till I have eaten and drunken; and afterward thou shalt eat and drink? 9Doth he thank the servant because he did the things that were commanded? 10Even so ye also, when ye shall have done all the things that are commanded you, say, We are unprofitable servants; we have done that which it was our duty to do.

Job was not talked to by God after what happened to him until after his friends sat with him in silence for a week and then argued with him for more. I would suggest reading the book of Job

This world is cruel but there is hope after. I just pray that you don't let the struggles of life take away the hope that you have after, that's a double defeat. I hope that helps. I know in some situations words are useless.

 

[Neogaia777]

I do know all these things and while I was in a really dark place in my life, I tried to keep myself open to his voice no matter what form it may have taken. I prayed often and kept putting myself in his hands but my situation just kept getting worse. Now it just feels like he isn't there. It feels pointless to try to talk to him anymore. Praying honestly just makes me sick to my stomach. I still want to be open to him if he does speak to me but I don't think he will...

I'm gonna hand this over to others as I think they can help you better than I can right now, but just know I will be praying for you OK... And for others on here helping and being able to help you as well, K...?

Peace,

God Bless!

 

[Stormy]

You give up on God, even though you actually still believe he exist.

Did that make your pain go away? And what kind of pain, physical or emotional?

I have pain from losing two of my children. The pain is always there so I have learned to live with it. God to me is as real as the pain. So I live with the pain and wait for the time when God will wipe away all the tears.

He never promised us a rose garden here on earth, in fact we were kicked out of the garden.

I hope you have a better tomorrow

 

[megan_26]

You give up on God, even though you actually still believe he exist.

Did that make your pain go away? And what kind of pain, physical or emotional?

I have pain from losing two of my children. The pain is always there so I have learned to live with it. God to me is as real as the pain. So I live with the pain and wait for the time when God will wipe away all the tears.

He never promised us a rose garden here on earth, in fact we were kicked out of the garden.

I hope you have a better tomorrow

I'm sorry to hear about your pain. I'm glad that you're still holding on to your faith. I wish I could have.
But I just don't understand how someone who claims to love us so much can't take away our pain. it seems cruel.

 

[Stormy]

Its not that I am holding on to my faith... its holding on to me.
I suspect the same is true with you?

 

[Invalidusername]

All I ask of him is to show me that he's there and listening but he never does!! I was in a really, really, really dark place in my life and I needed strength and comfort, or at least one of those. I needed to know that I wasn't alone and he stayed silent. He didn't provide peace or comfort or even a sign that he was there. And that doesn't feel like love to me. What kind of person claims to love someone but stays silent when they're suffering?

Do you have any hidden sin in your life? I tend to find that God listens to me better when I turn from my sinful ways.