Oh Jesus my dear Brother and Saviour I'm high and my heart is full of your glory. How can I express Joy. You take me to such incredible places. Heaven for all those who love you, and I'm just one in a trillion billion who adore Your Name. Nothing and no one comes near You, who I adore You with praising Heart!
Please Dear Jesus may I come and be with You for awhile? Praising The Father with my all?
I know, I cannot express your Beauty, who is like You, who dares to scorn the Son of God, who dares to deny Him the right to love us? Who dares to hold me back from being with You?
Lord I confess! I fall, my thoughts and feelings so far removed from who and what life is really about! Dear Father I have been so depressed. I've hurt so much! and You, and You? Oh dear Father, You went along with me, right through it all, oh how hurt You must be, me feeling You didn't care, I knew it wasn't true but so it seems when I'm so low as You know only to well.
Why? Why do You dip me into that Lake of Fire time and again Lord? Why must You do that?
Oh I rent my heart in wailing, dragging You into there once more, my dear Father and Brother You still love me even when I'm like that?
What unworthy vessel am I?
(Jesus how I need You to be able to exist like this!)
Oh dear Brother, You are so confusing sometimes. I can see You your face, so beautiful, cursed are all those likenesses of You down here -You are unbelievable - Your eyes, oh Your eyes, how much I love Your eyes. You looking at me with so much love, I melt on my feet.
Oh Lord You set me on FIRE!!! Fire for Your love and truth to rule this planet. Oh how I hate Satan pulling me from behind. Slay that monster of the seas, Lord cast him dead where he stands. My heart rages in fury at the lying prince of darkness looking on.
How he hates You Lord! And WHY? all because You love us and Creation once even him as well! The Judas of Creation! Doomed to burn in Hell! Taking evil out of the Abyss while he knew this wasn't allowed! And look what he has not all done with his beloved evil - our daily hell - how few of Your glory do tell? Millions are dying in a world that is over grossly over fed elsewhere.
Yet how I love You for repaying him. How I adore Your Holy Name for sending the wicked to Hell. Those cruel mean ones wrecking our lives down here. They are right through us, Lord - everywhere - even now attacking me and trying to sever my contact with You. Accursed brood will burn, burn ,burn.
When will humanity see the folly of lying unlovingness and repent of having life in all that?
Oh the fury, my Lord, my dear Father, I love Your fury, please shape mine - so I never have to rage like that devil there. Oh I confess I once loved him and hated You, or so I thought! What Hell has been my reward for loving that wicked prostitute riding that horrific Dragon of a Beast? Thank You for burning me clean, form my unlovingness Father, for look what did I create in me but a sin stained heart?
Hating You!
Oh dear Father, I can never tell how much I love You for sending Jesus after me. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER shall I stop praising YOU!!!! NEVER, so PLEASE make You Yourself sure of that, for I will always know I can't trust me without You to be with me - loving truth ruling my ever choice and decision!!!
Such delight to be with You and I'm aloud to be with You forever more, oh how great You are, once I was not, but now I'm also in Life everlasting praising You!
and DO You deserve!!!
Cursed are those liars telling us You are NOT as You ARE!
PERFECT LOVING TRUTH your I AM!
My Heart cannot contain Your goodness Lord. I'm bursting, blowing Up, my voice a song, I'm seeing....
I'm with unapproachable Light! (
How I burn!)
My Father, my Father, Jesus has really made me pure in my love for You. I thank You, even in my deepest Hell, I thank You for getting me out of that bottomless pit right there below us the place You have taken me from.
Great to know Satan fears! Hear him roar his hate! Oh Lord, I'm crying those beloved down there, he wont relent, he still thinks he can thwart You, I have warned him and told him to leave God's own alone.
Please Lord hear me snorting now, I don't know why I'm doing that. My feet go like hooves on the ground as I lower my head at my adversary. How I hate him for taking God's own for a ride and hurting also them as he has me so often and worse!
Please Lord it scares me when I'm off like this, the fury I can hardly contain it. Lord He has so much evil awaiting us. He wants to destroy Your Kingdom from coming about on this planet.
I ABSOLUTELY HATE HIM FOR BEING SO WICKED!
SATAN HOPES DARKNESS MAY STILL CONQUER THE LIGHT!
The very agreement that You have with us, that You will rule with us and that the WHOLE world will bow down at Your feet, he plans to blow up - he is bombarding particles at near light-speed against on another, he has nuclear arms everywhere, he is melting the poles to put us all under, he has polluted the very air and is squandering Your Creation at a speed that I cannot keep up with - though I know you can.
The very social order is a Beast that serves numbers and has us all numbered. Oh please Lord are we all going to remain in this Hell? What a crap Lord, this world order Satan has devised to control, exploit and destroy us all.
I hate him Lord. I hate him for putting us in classrooms and tie us to meaningless jobs. I hate him for conquering all nations in his grasp, I hate him for squashing people like sardines on top of each other, so wickedness can spread even quicker. I hate him for institutionalising wicked control, I hate him for making us work (for crap) most of our lives. I hate him for enriching his mates. I hate him for blinding otherwise brilliant minds to what is going on - the folly of the intellectual? - arrogance and unbelief!
I hate him most of all for making so many Christians Churches, especially Bible believing ones, into legalistic minded judgementalness, where Your beloved struggle to survive and have often little time left growing loving truth with You.
Please Lord forgive us all for heeding wrong.
Please send Your Loving Truth Down. Jesus Christ to rule our hearts and minds, wonderful FREEDOM, for You are the Hero of Creation! Please let me repeat this
You are The Lamb of God.
Despised and rejected even now in the hearts of even all those who seek to find life - yet the very essence of Your Holy Being, Thou art!
Lord I want to finish my communion with you as other things are awaiting me to do. Yet Lord I know in my heart You will stay. (Oh I love the book of Ezekiel, especially the latter parts! Please teach me to worship nothing and no one but You.)
Thank You Heavenly Father, with loving gratitude!
