I want to get into shape but the true motivation is not there.
It's been too long since I've been completely in shape, the living room is too small and has too much furniture in it for exercise equipment and barely big enough for me to do anything I want to do, the family room is too nasty, I sprained my back (at least I think it was a sprain), I have what seems like permanent
restrictions with my neck (can't do sit-ups, curl-ups etc.), don't have enough money for the gym, have a daughter (who I am afraid of getting hurt if she does not do it right with me), husband, and 1st new house to take care of, I don't have the home gym equipment I want (want especially the one with the bars or pulleys you pull down to stretch your shoulders and can watch tv while doing, a treadmill, and maybe a few others), I have other things I enjoy doing and by the time I think about exercise I don't have time, and so on and on the stalling goes. I see people on tv looking thin, healthy, younger than they look, and muscular (like the Victoria Secret women etc.) and want to be healthy like that, so my husband tells me I need to exercise and eat right. Well switching my diet around is going to take more than just motivation. I can stop eating for a little while but to stop eating junk food to switch completely over to health food is not something I want to do right now (unless I have a bunch of pictures of those women I want to be like but I will still probably want to eat junk food mostly and healthy food some times). When I think about how how well my Bible teacher (probably the healthiest elderly lady I know) and some of my former classmates get around in their age, I want to be able to be like that when I hit my senior years and know that the best way to do it is now and to keep up with it all my life, but then the excuses come in and I convince myself I'll do it later (and I don't necessarily mean tomorrow). When I do exercise, it's a little bit of stretching once in a while. I don't want to go exercising in public, unless it's at a gym, because I think I'd feel like a fool just walking/jogging/stretching around in the park, on the sidewalk, or at my house with the neighbors watching and anybody driving by (
How do I get over that?). I even have problems doing my physical therapy exercises--lack of motivation, and one would think that migraines and tension headaches and shoulder aches would be enough to motivate me, but I start doing it it seems when the pain reliever Biofreeze and taking pills don't work. I even have a deep muscle massager I get my husband and daughter to use on me, and I get my daughter to walk on my back every so often when the area between my shoulders ache.
As someone said before it's about the determination. I used to be determined to live a very long life and be healthy. I used to eat fairly healthy, exercise daily no matter what, and called myself a health nut, but that was when I was a teen. I even exercised on a consistent basis while I was pregnant with my first dautghter until I went back to school while pregnant and had no time, then started exercising again when my c-section scar healed up enough, and depending on how busy I was with school, job and daughter, and how much room/space I had, and whatever other events were going on in my life, I exercised off and on over the years. I was even able to do side splits and back bends up into some point in my 20s, but it will take a lot of practice to get back into doing that.
I even started going to karate classes at a church (free month and I even bought the uniforms for me and my daughter) before I moved from in-laws to my first house.
At my mother's house I could exercise more (a whole lot more private land-about 46 +/- acres and much more house space) than at my mother-in-laws and here in my first house.
I even keep making plans to do things and just don't do them.
I loved to dance, do martial arts, wrestle in the karate studio, walking, practicing gymnastics, and so on....
What happened to me....:o
I want to but I don't...

Does anybody else ever feel like this?
I think once I made it a
habit that I
have to do daily, then I'll be able to keep on doing it, but I think the problem is I made a habit out of not exercising.