Hey everyone, it's Sqiz again.
I had a really bad relapse for about 3 weeks, then I didn't cut for a whole week, then I had the worse relapse I've ever had...to the point where I almost needed stitches...and I was almost hospitalized again...
BUT, after all that, I finally decided I WANT to stop cutting, not just stopping because my parents want me to, or because if I don't, I'll be hospitalized, NO, I WANT TO STOP CUTTING FOR ME.
I've never done this before, and the one major reason why I decided to stop was, I made my Grandmother cry...
You see, since I was born I had the most beautiful skin, even now I have the prettiest skin in the whole family, but, since I've been cutting again scars are bad, especially on my stomach and left arm. My Grandmother saw the cuts one day and she cried, which really broke my heart...
So, I don't want to make my Grandmother cry, and I don't want to scar up the body God gave me, either, so, I've decided to stop cutting.
I know, I'm going to have relapses, but, I just have to pick myself up and start over, like my good friend said, "Never quit quitting".
It's going to be a rough road to recovery, but, with God on my side and my family and friends backing me up, I can do it, I just know I can.
So, prayers would be appreciated greatly, thank you for listening.

I had a really bad relapse for about 3 weeks, then I didn't cut for a whole week, then I had the worse relapse I've ever had...to the point where I almost needed stitches...and I was almost hospitalized again...
BUT, after all that, I finally decided I WANT to stop cutting, not just stopping because my parents want me to, or because if I don't, I'll be hospitalized, NO, I WANT TO STOP CUTTING FOR ME.
I've never done this before, and the one major reason why I decided to stop was, I made my Grandmother cry...
You see, since I was born I had the most beautiful skin, even now I have the prettiest skin in the whole family, but, since I've been cutting again scars are bad, especially on my stomach and left arm. My Grandmother saw the cuts one day and she cried, which really broke my heart...
So, I don't want to make my Grandmother cry, and I don't want to scar up the body God gave me, either, so, I've decided to stop cutting.
I know, I'm going to have relapses, but, I just have to pick myself up and start over, like my good friend said, "Never quit quitting".
It's going to be a rough road to recovery, but, with God on my side and my family and friends backing me up, I can do it, I just know I can.
So, prayers would be appreciated greatly, thank you for listening.
