Feeling so down

[Starting again]

I don't really know whats wrong with me, I know I suffer from depression and anxiety... but that's about it.
But sometimes I'm fine, then i get times like this, when there is nothing at all wrong I just feel so down, I just want to stop doing anything and cry. but if I get the chance to cry I can't!

I'm working with a boy with down syndrome, and he is very full on, at the moment he is just playing racing car games on the computer, but at times he is so full on and today i just have no motivation and feel bad because i don't feel up to running around with, or after him.
Then I just feel worse because even if i do run around with him I'm not feeling happy and feel like I'm not doing my job well. which doesn't help when I get home and finally have a time to rest, because then I want to just cry AND feel hopeless at my job.


I have been to counseling, a few different ones, but the problem is, it doesn't matter how bad I feel, as soon as I walk in the room to the counselor I feel FINE and can't explain what's wrong... I just don't get it!

 

[Criada]

It sounds as though you are depressed and stressed, sweetie.
If you can't tell anyone what is wrong, could you write it down when you are feeling bad, and then take it with you to see the counselor?
It might be worth seeing a doctor, anti-depressants could help you to see things in a more positive light.

 

[RuthD]

The same thing happens to me when I see my therapist. But I tell myself to not act happy if I am not. Just to be myself. I realized I did smiling but underneath i was suffering. So I am just going to keep trying to stay with the problem to my therapist so we can work on it. Best of luck to you!

 

[Starting again]

It sounds as though you are depressed and stressed, sweetie.
If you can't tell anyone what is wrong, could you write it down when you are feeling bad, and then take it with you to see the counselor?
It might be worth seeing a doctor, anti-depressants could help you to see things in a more positive light.

I am already on anti-depressants, which helps because now I can actually tell when I'm depressed and stressed where as when I'm not on them I just go crazy and don't know anything is wrong till someone tells me.

Thanks for replying I am feeling a lot better today I got to spend the day with a good friend.

 

[Lighthouse76]

Hi, I am glad you're feeling better!