Feeling Paralyzed

[TheDeepblue]

Haven't felt this bad for a while. Read something that really made to start to worry and have bad anxiety/depression. Also struggling with the thought that God has left me. It's causing me to be physically ill as well. My heart feels fluttery and my appetite is effected as well. I just really need God to show me that I am still loved by Him, cause I don't know how to move on.

 

[god4ever]

oh dear one, god has not left you he said HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU OR FORSAKE YOU NEVER NEVER NEVER God does not lie. i know it's hard to believe that when you have ocd because your always looking for thta reassurance please believe me he has not left you he loves you so much and so do we all
god bless you i know how you feel

 

[Jayangel81]

God4ever is right He wont leave you. Its easy to feel that He doesnt love us or He is with us. We look for a feeling that He is there, or we want that feeling of Love.


Youll find Gods reassurance of His love through His Word. And you will find it in your heart. that is where God is

"This is my comfort in my affliction, for Your word has given me life."
Psalm 119:50​

He does love you​

"In this the love of God was manifested toward us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another." 1 John 4:9-11

"Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. " Romans 5:5-8

"To Him who loved us and washed us from our sins in His own blood, and has made us kings and priests to His God and Father, to Him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen." Revelation 1:5-6​

Hes Here with you!​

John 14:18 - I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.​

We can't see Him, but we can be sure He is always there. “...for He hath said, 'I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” Hebrews 13:5. This text refers to three other places in the Bible where God made that promise. Those texts are Deuteronomy 31:6, Joshua 1:5, and 1Chronicles 28:20.​

"For all the promises of God in him are yea, and in him Amen, unto the glory of God by us."
2Corinthians 1:20​

Rest assured that God loves you and will never leave you reguardless on how you feel. The enemy and your sickness want you to believe this. Dont give in, fight the good fight of Faith.

Story time- this really happened

I remember one night I was having these horrid attacks, I mean horrid attacks. I was going through heavy spiritual warfare and I believe I was obsessing over stuff at the time, it was quite a while. This thing told me God abandoned me, literly left me because of all the horrible things in my head and that God wanted no part of me. At that time I didnt know what was happening, I thought everything that we experiance was just me or worse, that everything I was experiancing just meant God condemned me.

I fell asleep and I asked God never to leave me, when I woke up I was laying on top of a cruxification, funny thing is I never owned one! where did it come from??? At that moment I knew God was showing me something. I can tell you I have had thoughts and seen images that you will never forget..It literly traumatized me, where was God? despite what I was feeling He was right there beside me.

That goes for you and everyone else. Its times like this where we need to muster up all the faith that we have in ourselves and just scream out "God is with me!".

We may be sick and feel like we need reasurrances, but nonetheless we still have that fight to win. The fight for our Faith which is more precious that you could ever imagine. If you put your confidence in God instead of our feelings and our need of assurances you will persevere I promise you, and God will make you stronger than you can imagine.

You have the willingness, thats more than half the battle The other half is through trust and Faith.
So the question is, will you finish this fight that was already won for you, by Christ on Calvary?
You have the power of the Holy Spirit. You can conquer this, I know because when I thought everything was hopeless in what we experiance, God got me through it and He has the power to see you fight as well

 

[kaykay9.0]

Deep Blue,
If you haven't, I would suggest you check out this website I post often on here. I think the testimonies part is expecially strong.

www.net-burst.net/guilty/scrupulosity.htm

 

[TheDeepblue]

Well guys, I'm so glad to say that I am now over the dreadful anxiety and depression that was triggered by this one event. Don't ya know what it's like to have something come up on you out of no where and cause you to have extreme anxiety, then suddenly it attaches itself to other things, and next thing you know you are having anxiety over many many things. Thank God He has once again pulled me through another tough bout of anxiety. I really wouldn't know what to do without Him. I couldn't imagine how miserable I would be if I didn't have God to look too. Thank you guys for your posts and prayers as well.

Thanks god4ever, and Jay for posting that scripture. And yes Kaykay, I actually have seen that site and its testimonies. I remember when I first starting having anxiety over bad thoughts against God, I would sit in front of my computer monitor for hours, hours, and hours looking up stuff like "Can you lose salvation?", "Have I committed the unpardonable sin"?, etc etc etc. Also spent hours upon hours upon hours chatting with online admins on other Christian sites. One admin finally told me that she was physically ill and didn't want to hear it anymore. Bless her heart, she had given me all the reassurance and advice she could possibly give, and it still didn't convince me. Although I haven't been able to afford to see a psychologist yet, I do take 40mg Celexa daily, and I felt like I was led here to this site for a reason. And I am glad that you guys don't diagnose on here, cause that is what a professional is for. But whether what I go through is a spiritual attack, mental illness, or combo of both, I know I can count on you guys for help. God bless.

 

[picassoui]

Well guys, I'm so glad to say that I am now over the dreadful anxiety and depression that was triggered by this one event. Don't ya know what it's like to have something come up on you out of no where and cause you to have extreme anxiety, then suddenly it attaches itself to other things, and next thing you know you are having anxiety over many many things. Thank God He has once again pulled me through another tough bout of anxiety. I really wouldn't know what to do without Him. I couldn't imagine how miserable I would be if I didn't have God to look too. Thank you guys for your posts and prayers as well.

Thanks god4ever, and Jay for posting that scripture. And yes Kaykay, I actually have seen that site and its testimonies. I remember when I first starting having anxiety over bad thoughts against God, I would sit in front of my computer monitor for hours, hours, and hours looking up stuff like "Can you lose salvation?", "Have I committed the unpardonable sin"?, etc etc etc. Also spent hours upon hours upon hours chatting with online admins on other Christian sites. One admin finally told me that she was physically ill and didn't want to hear it anymore. Bless her heart, she had given me all the reassurance and advice she could possibly give, and it still didn't convince me. Although I haven't been able to afford to see a psychologist yet, I do take 40mg Celexa daily, and I felt like I was led here to this site for a reason. And I am glad that you guys don't diagnose on here, cause that is what a professional is for. But whether what I go through is a spiritual attack, mental illness, or combo of both, I know I can count on you guys for help. God bless.

im glad you are doing better ...

i think that was a very unkind thing to say to you ..if you cant help someone its best to refer them to someone else rather than tell them that they are getting on youre nerves ..sometimes honesty is not the best policy ,,

 

[TheDeepblue]

im glad you are doing better ...

i think that was a very unkind thing to say to you ..if you cant help someone its best to refer them to someone else rather than tell them that they are getting on youre nerves ..sometimes honesty is not the best policy ,,

Well pic, I had been going on there day after day after day with the same thing for hours and hours. The admin urged me to talk to doctor, conselor, and pastor. And she had talked to me for hours on there giving me advice. I am nowhere near that bad now. I am very welcomed at the site, and she is one of my favorite members there. It's no big deal.