Hey everyone! I'm so incredibly fed up beyond belief! I appreciate all the prayers that has came my way thus far. I have a follow up appointment with the doctor tomorrow to go over my blood work and see if anything's wrong. I have been praying for healing and strength. This has caused me great anxiety and depression. I can't even work anymore. My mother God bless her, has been taking care of me with everything. And it makes me feel like a big fat loser because she's suffering herself with bad diabetes. I should be the one taking care of her! I'm a big failure and probably deserve this illness whatever it is. God doesn't want to heal me because I don't deserve it. I made horrible and I mean horrible choices in the past so why on earth should I be healed and happy? I love God and pray everyday. But I'm so fed up with feeling this way. I feel like I'm dying! Pleas pray for me. Even tho I don't deserve it. Sorry for ranting I'm just at my breaking point!!!