I'm 19, and believe in God and Jesus. I'm seriously afraid of dying. It's so bad that it's affecting my everyday life and health. Like being in bed all day, not eating, anxiety, and hysterically crying. I never had this problem until I thought I had colon cancer, witch turned out to be procitis. I want my life back, but not the one I was living before. Looking back, I wasn't the person I want to be. I was horrible... I started down a really wrong path when I was 15. I started to smoke, drink, have sex, and endulge in all kinda of sinful ways. I lied, disobeyed my parents, stole, made fun of people/judged them, when I was no better. I can't even imagine what God had thought of me. Sometimes I find myself questioning my own faith and think things I know I shouldn't. I really want to believe that there is an afterlife, because all of this just don't happen for nothing, there has to be a reason we are here. This isn't just some great comic mistake of some sort, it just dosen't make any sense. Still, I catch myself saying "what if"? I've been praying constantly for forgiveness, guidance, and peace of mind. How can I become closer to God, so that not for one moment I have to question my faith In Him? I'm going to start to go to Church
this Sunday, and I also quit smoking two days ago. I'm going to try to talk to a Paster, and am considering going to get therapy. Is this God's way of telling me to start living right, a wake up call perhaps? Help?
this Sunday, and I also quit smoking two days ago. I'm going to try to talk to a Paster, and am considering going to get therapy. Is this God's way of telling me to start living right, a wake up call perhaps? Help?