Fear and the New Year

[sportsfan]

I heard a great message today on fear today and it made me realize that I can get past this Yellow Cross. The yellow flickering light doesn't hold power over my life and I can move on my name is secure in the Book of Life the only way to lose your name from the Book of Life is changing the prophecy of Revelation which I have not done. I realize that this false prophet stuff is just a hallucination. Jesus will come to my rescue and he doesn't want me to fearful of the Yellow Cross and he doesn't want me think that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit people see the Holy Spirit in my life and I need trust them. I need to trust my church, family, and friends and most importantly I need to trust God that I have not blasphemed and that my name is secure in the Book of Life. In Christ Alone no power of hell can ever pluck me from his hand. This blue light in brain and all the stuff that I see on my body is just from Schizoaffective, Pandas, Autism, and OCD Scrupulosity. I can look forward to the new year knowing that I can get forgiven for mixing up Satan and Jesus in the yellow flickering light. I can relax and trust the promises of God and see where he guides me this year and forget about this Mark of the Beast stuff that isn't real from the Yellow Flickering Light. I can enjoy Awana and spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ. I realize that I have mental illness that makes think I am a false prophet but I am not which is why my parents are relaxed about it and they are not worried. I realize that I just need trust my family and friends and the fact they see the Holy Spirit in my life and I just need to put on my full armor and make 2020 a fight back against the Yellow Cross and to not let it define me it was a momentarily weakness mixing up Satan and Jesus in a hallucination of a yellow flickering light it isn't biblical. My pastor told me that and he told me just to put on the full armor on that I didn't do the biblical view of Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit I didn't attribute the Holy Spirit and Satan together or at least on purpose. I realize that it is the hallucination and voices condemning me to hell from an illness that I had no control over I can't control the Yellow Cross Satan found my weakness with my Schizoaffective he knew that I would get mixed up in the hallucination but so did God who created me and he has plans to prosper and to give a future and a hope. I made a minor mistake and I regret it and I asked for forgiveness and I realize that Jesus can forgive me the prodigal son returned home and he was wrapped in the best robes. God is merciful he knows that I did not mean to fall in the Yellow Cross and I know that one day he will come back for me and rapture me to his heavenly kingdom. I am not a false prophet but rather a Child of God. God does not unadopt and he doesn't kick anyone out of heaven he says All the Father gives to me will come to and all who come to me that I will never cast out. For God so Loved the World that he sent his one and only son that whoever believes in him shall have everlasting life. I am adopted by God and he will reign forever. I am not forsaken and what a beautiful name Jesus is it is not a word to curse but to bless. Jesus calmed the storm for the disciples and he will calm the storm for me in my life. I am not the false prophet from Revelation 13 rather a Child of God who Jesus will give a white garment to from Revelation 3. Jesus died on cross and rose again three days later and that is my hope that one day I will see Jesus face to face and this Beast hallucination will be no more. I am working with the Psychiatrist and I think he might be a believer he says that it is just a trick of devil and that Jesus would never allow that. Would Jesus allow a Supernatural Temptation that could change someones fate especially one where it is someone weakness by making it a hallucination. It wasn't something real tangible and real like an Apple that Eve bit into. The temptation was a yellow flickering light that I had no way of preparing for and it has me convinced that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit. I know that I haven't since I still care for the Holy Spirit and I know that is a positive sign that everything will be okay. This blue light in my brain is just a hallucination. Jesus is a Waymaker and I believe that God will do a miracle in my life. Jesus has healed me before and I believe that he will do it again and I get excited thinking about it. I want to see Jesus face to face and have him tell me well done good and faithful servant. I don't want him to tell me depart from me you worker of iniquity my friends tell me I am saved and I just need trust them. Pastor Nathan told me he sees the fruit of The Holy Spirit in my life. I look to the sky and I keep myself focused reading the words of God and praising the Lord awaiting the return of the Lord. My mom said what if he returned with the presidents last name being Trump. My friend that is YWAM doesn't believe the rapture will be in our lifetime. Only God knows and that is where I got mixed up with the Hallucinations but I realize that I need to move on as I can't change the yellow flickering light and what occurred in the Yellow Cross. I just need to cling to the Old Rugged Cross and know that I will exchange it one day for the crown. I really enjoyed the church service today and it was healing most of fears never come true. Where I realized that it is just a hallucination is the fact Christians won't be here when the Mark of Beast is around and the fact I am not a world leader I am just a 24 year old college student who loves the Lord. I realize that Christians won't be around because the rapture occurs first and Christians won't be around to take it. I am just relaxing today listening to praise music. I don't think that I have an evening service although I wish that I did it is hard to believe we will be in 2020 it is surreal. I just plan to help with Awana and trust the lord and await his return realizing that the Mark of the Beast stuff is just a hallucination the blue light, red light, and the thing that said mark of the beast incoming it wasn't real. I don't have the real 666 on me Jesus would never allow it to occur. I need to trust the leading and guiding of the Holy Spirit and trust the people around me that it is just a hallucination and relax in God's presence.

 

[Mari17]

I heard a great message today on fear today and it made me realize that I can get past this Yellow Cross. The yellow flickering light doesn't hold power over my life and I can move on my name is secure in the Book of Life the only way to lose your name from the Book of Life is changing the prophecy of Revelation which I have not done. I realize that this false prophet stuff is just a hallucination. Jesus will come to my rescue and he doesn't want me to fearful of the Yellow Cross and he doesn't want me think that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit people see the Holy Spirit in my life and I need trust them. I need to trust my church, family, and friends and most importantly I need to trust God that I have not blasphemed and that my name is secure in the Book of Life. In Christ Alone no power of hell can ever pluck me from his hand. This blue light in brain and all the stuff that I see on my body is just from Schizoaffective, Pandas, Autism, and OCD Scrupulosity. I can look forward to the new year knowing that I can get forgiven for mixing up Satan and Jesus in the yellow flickering light. I can relax and trust the promises of God and see where he guides me this year and forget about this Mark of the Beast stuff that isn't real from the Yellow Flickering Light. I can enjoy Awana and spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ. I realize that I have mental illness that makes think I am a false prophet but I am not which is why my parents are relaxed about it and they are not worried. I realize that I just need trust my family and friends and the fact they see the Holy Spirit in my life and I just need to put on my full armor and make 2020 a fight back against the Yellow Cross and to not let it define me it was a momentarily weakness mixing up Satan and Jesus in a hallucination of a yellow flickering light it isn't biblical. My pastor told me that and he told me just to put on the full armor on that I didn't do the biblical view of Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit I didn't attribute the Holy Spirit and Satan together or at least on purpose. I realize that it is the hallucination and voices condemning me to hell from an illness that I had no control over I can't control the Yellow Cross Satan found my weakness with my Schizoaffective he knew that I would get mixed up in the hallucination but so did God who created me and he has plans to prosper and to give a future and a hope. I made a minor mistake and I regret it and I asked for forgiveness and I realize that Jesus can forgive me the prodigal son returned home and he was wrapped in the best robes. God is merciful he knows that I did not mean to fall in the Yellow Cross and I know that one day he will come back for me and rapture me to his heavenly kingdom. I am not a false prophet but rather a Child of God. God does not unadopt and he doesn't kick anyone out of heaven he says All the Father gives to me will come to and all who come to me that I will never cast out. For God so Loved the World that he sent his one and only son that whoever believes in him shall have everlasting life. I am adopted by God and he will reign forever. I am not forsaken and what a beautiful name Jesus is it is not a word to curse but to bless. Jesus calmed the storm for the disciples and he will calm the storm for me in my life. I am not the false prophet from Revelation 13 rather a Child of God who Jesus will give a white garment to from Revelation 3. Jesus died on cross and rose again three days later and that is my hope that one day I will see Jesus face to face and this Beast hallucination will be no more. I am working with the Psychiatrist and I think he might be a believer he says that it is just a trick of devil and that Jesus would never allow that. Would Jesus allow a Supernatural Temptation that could change someones fate especially one where it is someone weakness by making it a hallucination. It wasn't something real tangible and real like an Apple that Eve bit into. The temptation was a yellow flickering light that I had no way of preparing for and it has me convinced that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit. I know that I haven't since I still care for the Holy Spirit and I know that is a positive sign that everything will be okay. This blue light in my brain is just a hallucination. Jesus is a Waymaker and I believe that God will do a miracle in my life. Jesus has healed me before and I believe that he will do it again and I get excited thinking about it. I want to see Jesus face to face and have him tell me well done good and faithful servant. I don't want him to tell me depart from me you worker of iniquity my friends tell me I am saved and I just need trust them. Pastor Nathan told me he sees the fruit of The Holy Spirit in my life. I look to the sky and I keep myself focused reading the words of God and praising the Lord awaiting the return of the Lord. My mom said what if he returned with the presidents last name being Trump. My friend that is YWAM doesn't believe the rapture will be in our lifetime. Only God knows and that is where I got mixed up with the Hallucinations but I realize that I need to move on as I can't change the yellow flickering light and what occurred in the Yellow Cross. I just need to cling to the Old Rugged Cross and know that I will exchange it one day for the crown. I really enjoyed the church service today and it was healing most of fears never come true. Where I realized that it is just a hallucination is the fact Christians won't be here when the Mark of Beast is around and the fact I am not a world leader I am just a 24 year old college student who loves the Lord. I realize that Christians won't be around because the rapture occurs first and Christians won't be around to take it. I am just relaxing today listening to praise music. I don't think that I have an evening service although I wish that I did it is hard to believe we will be in 2020 it is surreal. I just plan to help with Awana and trust the lord and await his return realizing that the Mark of the Beast stuff is just a hallucination the blue light, red light, and the thing that said mark of the beast incoming it wasn't real. I don't have the real 666 on me Jesus would never allow it to occur. I need to trust the leading and guiding of the Holy Spirit and trust the people around me that it is just a hallucination and relax in God's presence.

Glad you are feeling better, and choosing not to believe the lies of your mind!

 

[Of the Kingdom]

Thank you for sharing this. I will pray that you continue to be confident that you are a blood-bought new creature in Christ, and that your assurance of salvation is based on sound doctrine.

Do not be disturbed by differing beliefs about the timing of Christ's return. You have clung to and trusted Jesus, and can be confident that He, in return, will never leave you nor forsake you. You have believed in and trusted the one who said, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes unto the father except through me". Your salvation is secured by "The Lamb slain from the foundation of the world".

May God continue to bless you, and may you have confidence and good health.

 

[sportsfan]

Glad you are feeling better, and choosing not to believe the lies of your mind!

Thanks Mari I realize that it is not real which is why I am getting medical treatment. I will keep Reply

Thank you for sharing this. I will pray that you continue to be confident that you are a blood-bought new creature in Christ, and that your assurance of salvation is based on sound doctrine.

Do not be disturbed by differing beliefs about the timing of Christ's return. You have clung to and trusted Jesus, and can be confident that He, in return, will never leave you nor forsake you. You have believed in and trusted the one who said, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes unto the father except through me". Your salvation is secured by "The Lamb slain from the foundation of the world".

May God continue to bless you, and may you have confidence and good health.

praising the Lord realizing he is in control and I await his return. I have decided to move on from the Yellow Cross and lay it at the feet of Jesus. I will choose to focus on Jesus and his words and cross since this false prophet stuff isn't true. I read that there is only one way to get your name erased from the Book of Life and that is changing biblical prophecy of Revelation which I have not done. The Bible doesn't mention anything about a Yellow Cross or flickering light with the Mark of Beast so it is not real. Satan nearly convinced me that it is real but Jesus would not allow a supernatural temptation especially not in form of a hallucination since Jesus knows that I am mentally ill and would fall into that temptation. I realize that Jesus can forgive me of mixing him up with Satan. I just need to forgive myself which is really hard and move on with my life. Before the Yellow Cross incident I had such peace with God I wasn't even worried about the impeachment Romans talks about how God set up the rulers ahead of time and the truth is God is in control and he allowed this Physcosis. I heard this song called Why God by Austin French and it is really touching about why do bad things happen to good people. Why did God allow me to fall in a hallucination of the Yellow Cross I will never understand why that occurred to me. Especially since I love God so much and it breaks my heart which is how know that I haven't truly blasphemed the Holy Spirit and that the Yellow Cross is playing tricks with my mind and how I know that I will raptured despite the Y

I have came to the place where I realize that I need to forgive myself and move on with my life. I can't let the yellow flickering light define my life or my salvation. I need to run Jesus who can make my dry bones come alive like he did for Ezekiel who saw bones come alive. Jesus died on the cross and rose again three days later and he wants no one to perish. I doubt that he would let a supernatural temptation that I had no way of escaping get in my way of my salvation especially since God knows how much I love him and want to so desperately want to be a man after God's own heart why would God erase my name and why would allow mental illness to define my life it was momentarily weakness. I keep praising God and trusting him the Bible says there is only one way to get your name blotted from the Lambs Book of Life and that is to change the prophecy in Revelation God would remove your place from the Tree of life and the Holy City.The Bible says nothing about a yellow flickering light removing your spot from the Book of Life or the Tree of Life. I have spent some time this week researching and now I realize that Satan is lying to me when he tells me those kinds of things it truly is an attack from the devil trying to get me to not trust God. God is faithful and he promised me enteral life when I was four years old and the promise still stands today and one day I will see God and spend time with him forever.