*failed*

[Cutie_girl]

i had gone 3 months without cutting then all of a sudden i started again i didnt want to but i could not stop my self i was to upset my family were been really mean to me so i went into my bedroom and cut my wrist i didnt want to do it but i could not stop i feel really stupied now cos i no that some people will get angry at me cos i started again. i just cant cope someone please help me to no what to do.

 

[trying2survive09]

i had gone 3 months without cutting then all of a sudden i started again i didnt want to but i could not stop my self i was to upset my family were been really mean to me so i went into my bedroom and cut my wrist i didnt want to do it but i could not stop i feel really stupied now cos i no that some people will get angry at me cos i started again. i just cant cope someone please help me to no what to do.

Cutie_girl,
I can relate to what you have just said. I went 3 months without cutting and then all of the sudden it happened. It's hard to deal with turning back to it and even harder when people who love you find out that you've turned back to it. I don't know what to say to you. I could offer other methods of coping, but I'm not sure what would even work for you. I tried writing, singing, going for long walks, and calling people to just talk. I think finding someone older than you to hold you accountable is a great idea. I know a couple people (myself included) that have made progress with this in mind. When you feel like cutting yourself, turn to God. He will always provide a way out, you just have to look for it. It took me a long time to realize that. I would love to talk more with you. Feel free to PM me anytime. I will be praying for you.

 

[Soulwings]

*hugs*

That is only once. It's a slip up. Slip ups happen. Try not to let it get you down - as long as you still want to stop, you will be able to. You've just got to keep holding on to that dream of being free from cutting. And as long as people know that you are still trying to stop, then they shouldn't be angry with you. I hope that makes some sense.

In the meantime, take care of your owies. And try to substitute cutting with something else. For me it's writing.

Take care, and feel free to PM me if you need/want to talk.

 

[berry2000]

Dear Cutie Girl,

I'm new here but I'm not new to cutting. YOu have to focus on the 3 months that you achieved instead of the 1 day you failed. I know this is really hard to do.

I am working on getting some coping skills to substitute when I feel so upset or so stressed that the urge to cut seems overwhelming. I know the list is different and unique to each person. Do you have anythings you can do when you are triggered instead of cutting? The other thing I sometimes forget is that I can never quit on my own strength I have to turn it over to God each and every time I am tempted.

Thinking of you...and do please tend to those cuts so they don't get infected.

 

[inHisgripkim]

Hey to you Earth Angel:

Because I battle a mental health condition, I know the frustrations that follow a relapse. All of us here will tell you that relapses are to be expected when we are moving towards recovery. There was a time that a relapse would send me spiraling down, until I came to understand the recovery process.

Expect relapses and know that it is only one day. When we learn to ride a horse, we fall off from time to time until we become skilled. Takes time to become a skillful rider. What is important is to get right back on that horse when we fall.

I have been blogging my recovery process and all revelations that have come from my recovery work. Obtaining an understanding of why I relapse has been of primary importance in my path to healing. Years of hard work and riding a rollercoaster has allowed me to understand me and how I relate to people and things around me. How I related to my environment was one of my major obastacles to recovery. We break the chains of bondage, by learning about ourselves and how we relate to people and things. We tend to relate the wrong way. We tend to internalize how people respond to us.

Keep on taking baby steps. Take your recovery one day at a time. Fight, fight, fight. Don't give up. Tell yourself that I just relapsed and relapses are part of the recovery process. Be aware of negative self-talk. Be kind to yourself. Love yourself. You are created by God and you are His masterpiece. You are perfect in His eyes. Never feel bad about yourself or who you are. God made you, and you are His masterpiece. Remember that.

Gentleness and peace to you,
Kim

 

[goldenviolet]

You relapsed. You didn't fail.

 

[mamalonglegs]

we all struggle with something. this is something you need to take to God and confess and ask Him to forgive and restore you to fellowship and to His strength to carry on as you were, free from cutting. Please do not worry what others think or say; especially if they get upset or mad at you. They don't understand and they can't understand what it is like. They just don't want to see you hurt like that and are afraid of it. The behavior scares them and not you.

Just let their misunderstood words wash over you and accept their ignorance to your problem, just like you would want to for their difficulties. Remember we are all sinners and there is no one who can cast that first stone. "so go and sin no more for your accusers are not here."

mamalonglegs Eph. 6:18

 

[gememily]

I know how that feels too. But try and think of it as a slip up not a slip back to the way it used to be. Think about how long you have gone without it! Thats a major achievement. You can do it! You can pick yourself back up and decide that its going to be a slip up and thats it.
I know this isn't much of a reply but just wanted you to know that I completely understand how you feel.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

3 months?
That's not failure.
That's awesome.