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I’ve done a lot of things in my life. I started smoking pot at 12. Went to meth and other drugs at 18.

Almost died of an OD at 20 and gave my life completely to Christ at 21. I resisted drugs until I saw a psychiatrist at 23.

I was having massive anxiety and benzos lured me in. Then I was introduced to gabapentin. I haven’t had benzos for three months but my main drug is gabapentin. It has almost a speedy high to it and it’s very tempting. I told the doc the last visit that I had been abusing it and she agreed to wean me off. So please pray for me that I resist the drugs luring temptation to abuse it.
 

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I’ve done a lot of things in my life. I started smoking pot at 12. Went to meth and other drugs at 18.

Almost died of an OD at 20 and gave my life completely to Christ at 21. I resisted drugs until I saw a psychiatrist at 23.

I was having massive anxiety and benzos lured me in. Then I was introduced to gabapentin. I haven’t had benzos for three months but my main drug is gabapentin. It has almost a speedy high to it and it’s very tempting. I told the doc the last visit that I had been abusing it and she agreed to wean me off. So please pray for me that I resist the drugs luring temptation to abuse it.

It is not the temptation that you will need to deal with. You need to be delivered from drugs. Jesus can deliver you because he did it for me. First you must repent for abusing it and depending on it and you know deep down every time you take it you are controlled by it, that is bondage. Repent, ask Jesus to deliver you and he will. If it takes a lot of prayer do NOT give up! Continue to press in and remember the story of the man who cried out to the Lord multiple times and the woman who constantly bothered the judge. Sometimes Jesus checks our hearts to see if we are truly sincere and want to truly be delivered. We can not fool the Lord and he knows our heart. So being honest with yourself is the key as well as being honest with the Lord. God Bless, praying for you.
 
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I’ve done a lot of things in my life. I started smoking pot at 12. Went to meth and other drugs at 18.

Almost died of an OD at 20 and gave my life completely to Christ at 21. I resisted drugs until I saw a psychiatrist at 23.

I was having massive anxiety and benzos lured me in. Then I was introduced to gabapentin. I haven’t had benzos for three months but my main drug is gabapentin. It has almost a speedy high to it and it’s very tempting. I told the doc the last visit that I had been abusing it and she agreed to wean me off. So please pray for me that I resist the drugs luring temptation to abuse it.

Lord, Please heal Dabro of any and all addictions. Cover him with Your hedge of protection. I ask for these prayers in the name of your Son, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.
 
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I’m on risperdal.
Remeron
Clonodine
Zyprexa

I just flushed the rest of my gabapentin down the toilet.

I’m tired of it controlling me. I take all these meds because I have a psychotic disorder and free floating anxiety and blood pressure problems.

The gabapentin didn’t serve any real good purpose. Please pray that the Lord will see me and deliver me if withdrawals. I want my Joy back from making Jesus happy. I don’t want to grieve the Spirit within me.
 
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I’m on risperdal.
Remeron
Clonodine
Zyprexa

I just flushed the rest of my gabapentin down the toilet.

I’m tired of it controlling me. I take all these meds because I have a psychotic disorder and free floating anxiety and blood pressure problems.

The gabapentin didn’t serve any real good purpose. Please pray that the Lord will see me and deliver me if withdrawals. I want my Joy back from making Jesus happy. I don’t want to grieve the Spirit within me.

Do you go to therapy of any kind? Might I suggest Cognitive Behavioral Therapy or something similar? While I do believe there are some cases that really need medication, most cases just needed behavioral therapy to help create healthy ways of thinking and problem solving. Medication can make things worse in some cases... We don't need a pill for every little thing.

Get into some meditation. I have anxiety and it really helps because the focus is on controlling your breathing and just experiencing the present moment. It can really help ground you if things get too intense in life.

Again, do you attend any support groups or a Church?
 
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One day I went to church high. My pastor did an alter call and he rarely does alter calls, I'm guessing because our church is so small. I was one of the few that approached the alter. Pastor laid a hand on me and began to pray and I began weeping. After an extended time of me there crying, he finally asked me what was wrong. I said, "Drugs." He said something like, "Oh, so you have some unclean spirits you want to deal with?" I said, "I've never thought of it that way, but it makes sense and I guess I do!" So he began by asking if I could hear anything they were saying and I sat for a moment trying to make sense of it all and listen and see if I could hear anything, and then I uttered, "it says its name is Satan!" He looked at me and said "you're not Satan!" He then told me he needed to close service so he made me go sit while he closed and then brought me into his office and taught me about deliverance and the existence of unclean spirits. I had heard about them in the bible but never actually understood how any of that applies to reality. He set up an appointment to have a deliverance session and then sent me home with material to watch and read to prepare me for the session.

At the session we probably went through every point in my life that made my conscience unclean or any sinful deed I had done. He must have commanded some 20 demons to leave and we wrote down all the names of them and why they were there / what assignment they were on. We spent 9 hours doing this, my pastor wasn't very experienced in this but he was confident in the supreme authority of Jesus Christ so we pressed through this and by the end of it, we had dealt with a myriad of issues I had concerning God, sin, and much unclarity of my conscience.

I got home and had something like a vision when I pulled in my driveway. It looked like I was pulling into a cesspool of darkness, a den of snakes. When I put the car in park it hit me - they have to obey the authority that is in the name of Jesus Christ. They are bound in that name. They cannot lie to this authority. I called my pastor to reaffirm everything he had taught me. I then began commanding all kinds of demons in the property to tell me their names and why they were there and that they could not stay. I finally walked inside and something told me to go outside to the back porch because in the past I had multiple accounts of seeing a vision of something like a vortex, like a demonic force or hex of some sort with 4 corners, and each corner had a spiked bone that curved inward toward the vortex. When I went out there I commanded it to be destroyed in the name of Jesus.

After I had done this I saw something like a wisp, a vapor, something like a spirit in the wind in the corner of my eye, a very feint light that was the color red, I turned my head to look at it and it noticed I could see it. It immediately fled from my sight and what happened next I will never forget.

I began to physically smell garbage and rotting eggs or flesh, like sulphur. I looked around the porch and looked over the porch for a bag of garbage so I could throw it away. The smell was getting worse and I couldn't tell where it was coming from. I began to feel incredibly uncomfortable and then it happened... It manifested before me. It looked like a feint sun with a strange looking face inside the feint image of a sun with a hundred stars floating around it. I knew what it was. It was a demonic "prince" with his army of minions and they caught wiff of what I was doing. I began to become fearful and it began to grit it's teeth with an evil smile. And then moved behind me and stood 12 feet tall breathing down my back with something like a knife in its hand. I had the biggest fear in my gut, I felt like my bowels were about to drop, and I looked down as it stood breathing down my back trying to scare me and I told it to go away in the name of Jesus. It immediately got sucked into the air and floated around in the atmosphere.

It was floating around in the sky for a while, probably a couple of years, i feel like now it had took up a new asignment somewhere else on the earth.

I had roommates in the house I was living in. We were always doing drugs then. Someone told me about a job about a month after I quit drugs because of this major episode in my life. I took it up and passed the drug test. I got in a car wreck the day of my interview. I got the wrecker to drop me off there anyways and they were impressed I had gotten in a wreck and wanted the job that much that I showed up there anyways. I ended up getting the job. My father figure offered to take me in and move in with him after he heard this testimony. I accepted and left that drugged up environment behind me and all the people in it. I cut them out of my life. My father figure bought me a used truck. I had a stable home, a car and a great job now. I was clean from drugs. I since saved up enough money to buy a house and get married.

I can't say life is perfect now but God plucked me from that old life I had because of my confession and desire to change and planted me in a sort of promised land he had in store for me. I feel like there could be an even better promised land for me too if I seize the right opportunities and do what is right :)

I just wanted to share my testimony of how I overcame drugs and what God has done for me. Thanks for reading :D
 
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One day I went to church high. My pastor did an alter call and he rarely does alter calls, I'm guessing because our church is so small. I was one of the few that approached the alter. Pastor laid a hand on me and began to pray and I began weeping. After an extended time of me there crying, he finally asked me what was wrong. I said, "Drugs." He said something like, "Oh, so you have some unclean spirits you want to deal with?" I said, "I've never thought of it that way, but it makes sense and I guess I do!" So he began by asking if I could hear anything they were saying and I sat for a moment trying to make sense of it all and listen and see if I could hear anything, and then I uttered, "it says its name is Satan!" He looked at me and said "you're not Satan!" He then told me he needed to close service so he made me go sit while he closed and then brought me into his office and taught me about deliverance and the existence of unclean spirits. I had heard about them in the bible but never actually understood how any of that applies to reality. He set up an appointment to have a deliverance session and then sent me home with material to watch and read to prepare me for the session.

At the session we probably went through every point in my life that made my conscience unclean or any sinful deed I had done. He must have commanded some 20 demons to leave and we wrote down all the names of them and why they were there / what assignment they were on. We spent 9 hours doing this, my pastor wasn't very experienced in this but he was confident in the supreme authority of Jesus Christ so we pressed through this and by the end of it, we had dealt with a myriad of issues I had concerning God, sin, and much unclarity of my conscience.

I got home and had something like a vision when I pulled in my driveway. It looked like I was pulling into a cesspool of darkness, a den of snakes. When I put the car in park it hit me - they have to obey the authority that is in the name of Jesus Christ. They are bound in that name. They cannot lie to this authority. I called my pastor to reaffirm everything he had taught me. I then began commanding all kinds of demons in the property to tell me their names and why they were there and that they could not stay. I finally walked inside and something told me to go outside to the back porch because in the past I had multiple accounts of seeing a vision of something like a vortex, like a demonic force or hex of some sort with 4 corners, and each corner had a spiked bone that curved inward toward the vortex. When I went out there I commanded it to be destroyed in the name of Jesus.

After I had done this I saw something like a wisp, a vapor, something like a spirit in the wind in the corner of my eye, a very feint light that was the color red, I turned my head to look at it and it noticed I could see it. It immediately fled from my sight and what happened next I will never forget.

I began to physically smell garbage and rotting eggs or flesh, like sulphur. I looked around the porch and looked over the porch for a bag of garbage so I could throw it away. The smell was getting worse and I couldn't tell where it was coming from. I began to feel incredibly uncomfortable and then it happened... It manifested before me. It looked like a feint sun with a strange looking face inside the feint image of a sun with a hundred stars floating around it. I knew what it was. It was a demonic "prince" with his army of minions and they caught wiff of what I was doing. I began to become fearful and it began to grit it's teeth with an evil smile. And then moved behind me and stood 12 feet tall breathing down my back with something like a knife in its hand. I had the biggest fear in my gut, I felt like my bowels were about to drop, and I looked down as it stood breathing down my back trying to scare me and I told it to go away in the name of Jesus. It immediately got sucked into the air and floated around in the atmosphere.

It was floating around in the sky for a while, probably a couple of years, i feel like now it had took up a new asignment somewhere else on the earth.

I had roommates in the house I was living in. We were always doing drugs then. Someone told me about a job about a month after I quit drugs because of this major episode in my life. I took it up and passed the drug test. I got in a car wreck the day of my interview. I got the wrecker to drop me off there anyways and they were impressed I had gotten in a wreck and wanted the job that much that I showed up there anyways. I ended up getting the job. My father figure offered to take me in and move in with him after he heard this testimony. I accepted and left that drugged up environment behind me and all the people in it. I cut them out of my life. My father figure bought me a used truck. I had a stable home, a car and a great job now. I was clean from drugs. I since saved up enough money to buy a house and get married.

I can't say life is perfect now but God plucked me from that old life I had because of my confession and desire to change and planted me in a sort of promised land he had in store for me. I feel like there could be an even better promised land for me too if I seize the right opportunities and do what is right :)

I just wanted to share my testimony of how I overcame drugs and what God has done for me. Thanks for reading :D

Wow, that was absolutely beautiful. I actually got a little teary eyed, thank you for sharing!
 
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Thanks for the testimony.

No I can’t get to the Church I feel comfortable at because I don’t have a vehicle.

I’m on SSDI. And I’m so tired of just floating around in life.
 
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Thanks for the testimony.

No I can’t get to the Church I feel comfortable at because I don’t have a vehicle.

I’m on SSDI. And I’m so tired of just floating around in life.

Are you able to contact them? A lot of Churches have a bus/carpool ministry to help people that want to go to Church make it there. Maybe they can set you up with someone that can bring you :) It never hurts to ask. Try to look into support groups also, the one thing I learned in my experience is you can't do it alone. You need people to help, support and keep you accountable of your addictions.
 
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Thanks for the testimony.

No I can’t get to the Church I feel comfortable at because I don’t have a vehicle.

I’m on SSDI. And I’m so tired of just floating around in life.

If there is one thing I have learned from all this it's that every issue in life has to be dealt with to deal with it. It takes work to deal with it. It takes effort. I'm not saying you aren't putting in any effort, maybe you need to pray God will send someone along to help you? Maybe get on a bike for transportation? Idk what you are dealing with. If you are living with parents, if you go to school or if you even can go to school. You could try getting a secured credit card and build your credit for a year and get a small loan on a cheap used car?

These are mere suggestions. I don't wish to offend you by them as I do not know where you are in life. All I know is that to get anywhere in life it takes working yourself out of the situation you are in.. some people are lucky enough to not have to try that hard. Others have humble beginnings..
 
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I’ve already tried to set up a ride. The door seems closed.

I’m disabled but I was my most happiest when I was working.

Unfortunately I have been dealt trial after trial over the last ten years. I’ve lost faith that I’m even capable of handling a job.

Plus If I get a job and lose my disability I may lose my doc and I may get sick all over again and have to start from scratch.

But I won’t know unless I try.
 
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I’ve already tried to set up a ride. The door seems closed.

I’m disabled but I was my most happiest when I was working.

Unfortunately I have been dealt trial after trial over the last ten years. I’ve lost faith that I’m even capable of handling a job.

Plus If I get a job and lose my disability I may lose my doc and I may get sick all over again and have to start from scratch.

But I won’t know unless I try.

I don't know much about disability :/ but I will ask one of my coworkers. I work for a law firm and SS is one thing we work with. I will ask her if you will lose your benefits if you work and get back to you.
 
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I’ve already tried to set up a ride. The door seems closed.

I’m disabled but I was my most happiest when I was working.

Unfortunately I have been dealt trial after trial over the last ten years. I’ve lost faith that I’m even capable of handling a job.

Plus If I get a job and lose my disability I may lose my doc and I may get sick all over again and have to start from scratch.

But I won’t know unless I try.

Okay! So she said that it shouldn't effect your disability as long as you work under a certain number of hours. It depends on the SS laws where you live what that number of hours is, but she said you should be okay to work if you feel you are able to do so :)

She said part-time jobs are usually okay.
 
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Dear Lord, I lift up Dabro to you, deliver him from any addiction, give him the strength and mindset to get through this, guide him in what he needs to do, give him peace and comfort him, assuring him that You are right there with him, if it be Your will, Father, in Jesus Holy name I pray, Amen.
 
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I want to mention that I’m on both SSI, and SSDI. I get a little check from social security and and bigger one from disibility.

If I go back to work it will effect my insurance and first check. They made it to where I’m trapped in this bubble.
 
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I want to mention that I’m on both SSI, and SSDI. I get a little check from social security and and bigger one from disibility.

If I go back to work it will effect my insurance and first check. They made it to where I’m trapped in this bubble.

I think you should try to contact a lawyer need you. Some offer free advice and they may be able to better answer your questions. I think you are still able to work, as long as it is under a certain number of house. Even if it's just 10-20 hours a week, it's better than nothing.
 
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Drugs, drugs, drugs! I long for a drug-free world, where there will be no "legitimate" need for them, no abuse of them, no dependence upon them, no "injury" from them, and no thought of them (Isaiah 65:16-18). In the meantime Lord, work in the life of dabro, and bring him delivery and rescue, Daniel 6:27. Amen.
 
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