All I wanted to do was please God, but I still messed my life up and missed His plans. Now they're gone forever and I know that my life will never be as good as it could have been. I am like one of the Israelites who missed the chance to enter Caanan and now like them, I'm going to die without seeing it. Yes, God has said to me that He longs to be gracious to me, but I know it will always be less.