But if you know God exists then you cannot have an unbelieving heart. Your faith defeats doubt.
2 Timothy 2:13
In another thread,
On the verge of giving up posters mentioned that we should not extend how we are feeling at a given time to how God perceives us in fullness.
Romans 9:35-39
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
36 As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,
39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I know you're having trouble with this. Please try to let go of fear and anxiety. GOD is the opposite of such emotions and He loves you.