Hi all.
I'll be 28 in a few weeks. Because of health reasons, I still live with my Mom, although living on my own with support is a goal I am working towards. I've only had one boyfriend whom I broke up with a few years ago. He was a good guy, but after a while, it became clear we weren't right for each other.
I am a Christian, having accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior listening to my audio Bible, and am making a point to deepen my relationship with Him and give my concerns to Him. I also have hobbies-archery, coloring, writing,etc. But I would like a long term relationship with someone eventually. I am no where near ready to get married. I am not completely off the idea, although I keep thinking about my parents' train wreck of a marriage and their divorce. They can't stand each other now.
I want an intimate relationship with someone-sex- but I want to do that in the context of marriage, because I don't need the guilt that comes with sin. But what if marriage isn't what God has in mind for me? Does He even care that, should I marry, I want to make my marriage work? That I don't want to repeat my parents' mistakes? That, if I marry, I want it to be to the person He chose for me? I do believe God showed me that He has someone for me during a really difficult time in my life. I don't feel comfortable going into details.
Does He care about how much this means to me? Is praying for these things stupid?
I feel old even though to most I am still young.
I'll be 28 in a few weeks. Because of health reasons, I still live with my Mom, although living on my own with support is a goal I am working towards. I've only had one boyfriend whom I broke up with a few years ago. He was a good guy, but after a while, it became clear we weren't right for each other.
I am a Christian, having accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior listening to my audio Bible, and am making a point to deepen my relationship with Him and give my concerns to Him. I also have hobbies-archery, coloring, writing,etc. But I would like a long term relationship with someone eventually. I am no where near ready to get married. I am not completely off the idea, although I keep thinking about my parents' train wreck of a marriage and their divorce. They can't stand each other now.
I want an intimate relationship with someone-sex- but I want to do that in the context of marriage, because I don't need the guilt that comes with sin. But what if marriage isn't what God has in mind for me? Does He even care that, should I marry, I want to make my marriage work? That I don't want to repeat my parents' mistakes? That, if I marry, I want it to be to the person He chose for me? I do believe God showed me that He has someone for me during a really difficult time in my life. I don't feel comfortable going into details.
Does He care about how much this means to me? Is praying for these things stupid?
I feel old even though to most I am still young.