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I was thinking that maybe a chat room on CF for "older" folks would be another way of knowing people better and making more friends. Just a thought.
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I just wondered if you make friends on CF or just superficial acquaintances. .
I was thinking that maybe a chat room on CF for "older" folks would be another way of knowing people better and making more friends. Just a thought.
Well, there is a difference betweem a chat room and mature chat. But that is where we can chat about any topic. Any topics can be talked about.
Javanwarbler I didn't think you came off sounding desparate. I think you just gave some more insight to you as a person and that's not necessarily a bad thing. Right now I have one friend I see regularly on a weekly basis. She has cancer and we meet for dinner once a week. Don't usually talk otherwise except occasionally. My other friend moved about 1 1/2 hours away and since then I feel lilke she doesn't need me anymore. We are still friends, but she's too busy for me and never lets me know when she's in town (which is usually weekly!). I have a handful of long time friends that I see on FB and rarely talk to otherwise but they are still very dear to my heart. And I talk to my one step daughter on Fridays and sometimes we text during the week. I am closest to her but some things I don't want to share with her either. I go to a bible study on Sunday nights and am building friendship there but its superficial at this point.
So you really aren't all that different in my eyes. Friendships are alot of work and most of the time I feel it's ME doing ALL the work to keep these relationships going. Sometimes I'm OK with it, and other times I wish they cared about me as much as I care about them.
Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I feel like I know some of the people here well enough to call them friends.
I was going to write this morning but got cut off by my computer deciding to 'turn off.' Couldn't get it to start again until my computer savvy roommie (and pretty much my only good friend) came home and did similar to what i did but she kept off the 'on/off' switch for a longer period before turning it on again. I work some nights hence the hour right now.Javan,
Your message was fine. It speaks about who you are and gives me insight into what your living thru. I've enver had a problem with depression so I have no experiences that come close tow hat your going thru.
From your own words it does sound like it would be good to find a medium that works for you. Message boards like here CF aren't designed to direct interaction between people like in a conversation. Its a slow process of posting and then over a few hours people who want to comment, reply. At some time in the future we come back to see who responded and if we want reply back. Chatrooms are for a reply immediately and once the message scrolls off the page its gone for good usually.
So does having a some good friends help with the depression? I'd think it would. But you seem to be saying being alone is what helps and gives you strength to come out and talk again.
Javanwarbler....when we feel lonely, we all feel a bit desperate so you are just feeling normal.
I have made some reasonably good friendships via forums like this one. Some days it is very good. Other days I realize I have nowhere to post thoughts when I feel a bit crazy and want to be invisible...(i.e. one of my other posts).
How do I make friends? I listen to others and try to see life through their eyes so I can really "hear" them. I also think that people warm up to me because I tend to be way too transparent since my husband died...but it makes people feel like they know me and feel a connection. Sometimes my conversations go to PMs (never the others because I don't have the know-how or the technology) over specific topics but that is not the way we mostly interact. I don't have very many friends because I don't have the time or energy to invest in many people right now. I don't believe in having a great numbers of friends so much as having a few very "real" ones. These take time and patience to develop. The best ones are ones where I started out helping them either through volunteering somewhere or just noticing another person who needed a friend and become the friend that they needed.
I went through a period of my life where I really had no friends other than my husband. I remember asking God if there was some reason why I didn't deserve friends. I now know (and I think I suspected at the time) that it was a period of time where God was wanting me to learn to lean completely on him and if I had "friends", I would have turned to them instead of God. This was a period of a couple years...and then suddenly I found myself in a group where I was surrounded by "like" people and had a group of friends. I also found I had learned how to be a more selfless friend. To listen more than I talked.
I also needed that lesson on leaning completely on God instead of people in order to survive my husband's death.
Javan,
I can see the struggle your having. I feel at a loss for words because your experience is quite foriegn to what goes on in my mind. I will say that you are welcome to be yourself here on the board. There is always that dualism, do I be myself or post like I was who I want to be.
Always spend a little time meditating on the fact that Jesus loves you. He understands in a while I never will. God knows what actions will help you get healthier.
Javanwarbler,
I do not think that you have shared yourself in a bad way. I understand about the addictive personality. I have it in the form of food. I think food is my comfort sometimes. In an attempt to answer your question regarding God bringing you thru what you are going thru, here's how I see it. There are alot of people in the Bible that have gone thru terrible things or had bad lives. Job is a good example. He had it all. But when Satan asked God to let him have a stab at Job, God allowed it. Of course Job's end was better than his beginning, but still he had to literally lose everything first and be "tested" by Satan. I don't think all of us get that kind of "testing" but whatever happens to us, in our lives can only happen if God allows it. Of course we have free will and are free to make our stupid choices too. God has so much patience and mercy and grace. Look how many times Israel did not honor Him and turned her back on Him even after all the miracles He did for them! He knows the beginning from the end so He already knows how your life will turn out. He wants to get you to a place where you trust HIM for everything. He wants that personal relationship with you that we all desire in human form. So in that way, maybe some of your trials are to direct you back to Him. Reading His word and meditating on it should bring you comfort and help with your depression. The more you learn of God's great love for you and the more you learn to trust in Him the better off you will be (actually we all will be better off when we learn this).
Another thing that I think helps with your situation is to think of who YOU can help. Can you volunteer somewhere? Can you fix a meal for your sick neighbor? In the end it's all about God's love and people. God wants us to care for each other. If I lived closer I would be your friend. I have another friend that is an artist. She's a really fabulous artist, but unfortunately she doesn't use her talents instead she is content to clean houses for a living and in her own house she is a hoarder. I love her, but she is a difficult friend. So sometimes taking our eyes off of ourselves and seeing what we can do to help someone else helps us feel better about ourselves in the process too.