Diagnosed with...

[Angeleyes7715]

My current diagnosis by my psychiatrists office is severe depression, dysthymia ( I'm always depressed), GAD, OCPD, and Social anxiety disorder.

Though I've found some relief I've begun to become frustrated with myself since I've been getting trouble at school and work lately.

I am going to get transferred again at my job and I'm concerned because I have received complaints that I seem like I don't care or that I'm indifferent. They also don't want to work with me anymore since I'm going to be leaving in a year anyway cause I'm in school. I try really hard I think, but in reality I feel like I don't care.

I have a hard time caring and I'm worried that it's going to be hard for me to maintain jobs long term even ones I like and since I'm in the healthcare field it's kinda essential that I'm not indifferent.

I just put in as much effort as I need to to get by and even that's alot. Might sound melodramatic but I feel like corporate America has ruined my entire life and working hard doesn't get me anywhere so I'm tired of trying.

I told my boss the other day I don't even make half as much as u do and we just about do the same job. How do you expect to find anyone committed for $14.80/hr.

Slightly a vent I guess :/.

 

[royal priest]

Paul Gerhardt, 1607-1676

1. Why should cross and trial grieve me?
Christ is near With His cheer;
Never will He leave me.
Who can rob me of the heaven
That God's Son For my own
To my faith hath given?

2. Though a heavy cross I'm bearing
And my heart Feels the smart,
Shall I be despairing?
God, my Helper, who doth send it,
Well doth know All my woe
And how best to end it.

3. God oft gives me days of gladness;
Shall I grieve If He give
Seasons, too, of sadness?
God is good and tempers ever
All my ill, And He will
Wholly leave me never.

4. Hopeful, cheerful, and undaunted
Everywhere They appear
Who in Christ are planted.
Death itself cannot appal them,
They rejoice When the voice
Of their Lord doth call them.

5. Death cannot destroy forever;
From our fears, Cares, and tears
It will us deliver.
It will close life's mournful story,
Make a way That we may
Enter heavenly glory.

6. What is all this life possesses?
But a hand Full of sand
That the heart distresses.
Noble gifts that pall me never
Christ, our Lord, Will accord
To His saints forever.

7. Lord, my Shepherd, take me to Thee.
Thou art mine; I was Thine,
Even e'er I knew Thee.
I am Thine, for Thou hast bought me;
Lost I stood, But Thy blood
Free salvation brought me.

8. Thou art mine; I love and own Thee.
Light of Joy, Ne'er shall I
From my heart dethrone Thee.
Savior, let me soon behold Thee
Face to face, -May Thy grace
Evermore enfold me!

 

[Jeshu]

I told my boss the other day I don't even make half as much as u do and we just about do the same job. How do you expect to find anyone committed for $14.80/hr.

Yes low wages suck. It makes it very hard to be committed to a job that doesn't pay right. The best thing to do to protect you from a negative attitude about work is to follow the biblical rule, to work as if you worked for God. i know a lot of others who have acquired this attitude and ended up getting substantial rises in their wages/recognition over the years and even those who didn't get the expected pay rises at first felt much happier about their job and trusted the future to be bright.

To keep a job while depressed is a hard thing to do. i commend you for that!