- Jul 1, 2006
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Hi all,
I’m 24, F, from London. Long story short, I feel like I’m in denial with my mental health. I’ve always had this heavy feeling, which ’comes and goes’, since I was about 14/15 years, however, it seems to have intensified over the last couple years. I’ve always looked up my symptoms or took online “tests”, which matches with depression, but I tend to shrug it off either way. I feel like since I’ve “coped” with it this long it’s fine etc, but deny the fact that I could actually be struggling with it.
I always want the help others, but not keen on talking about mental health with family and friends, mainly because I don’t want to become a burden. The family situation isn’t great either, most of my siblings seem to have mental health issues, so I do not want become another worry. Even the idea of talking to the doctors about it doesn’t seem like an option. I just feel so mentally and physically drained, but my current situation seems okay and have a future to look forward to, where I will be moving to Canada for a two year work visa. My weight has been fluctuating for a while too, and even some friends have noticed a weight loss (I’m already a slim build person). I always wanted to have a healthier lifestyle, and do compare myself to other people, but when it comes to it, I just have no motivation.
I don’t know what to do really. I haven’t really told anyone about it, maybe hinted or ”joked“ about it here and there, but never explicitly said that I might be depressed. I guess telling someone would help me a bit, that’s why I wanted to post this.
Any advice and prayers will be appreciated. Thanks
I’m 24, F, from London. Long story short, I feel like I’m in denial with my mental health. I’ve always had this heavy feeling, which ’comes and goes’, since I was about 14/15 years, however, it seems to have intensified over the last couple years. I’ve always looked up my symptoms or took online “tests”, which matches with depression, but I tend to shrug it off either way. I feel like since I’ve “coped” with it this long it’s fine etc, but deny the fact that I could actually be struggling with it.
I always want the help others, but not keen on talking about mental health with family and friends, mainly because I don’t want to become a burden. The family situation isn’t great either, most of my siblings seem to have mental health issues, so I do not want become another worry. Even the idea of talking to the doctors about it doesn’t seem like an option. I just feel so mentally and physically drained, but my current situation seems okay and have a future to look forward to, where I will be moving to Canada for a two year work visa. My weight has been fluctuating for a while too, and even some friends have noticed a weight loss (I’m already a slim build person). I always wanted to have a healthier lifestyle, and do compare myself to other people, but when it comes to it, I just have no motivation.
I don’t know what to do really. I haven’t really told anyone about it, maybe hinted or ”joked“ about it here and there, but never explicitly said that I might be depressed. I guess telling someone would help me a bit, that’s why I wanted to post this.
Any advice and prayers will be appreciated. Thanks