Depression Support

[AnointedPoetess]

Guys, today is my 23rd birthday and i should be so happy and excited but im not! im sad and depressed! I dont feel like today is anything spec but just another day.. whats wrong with me??

 

[youthwalk]

Just a reminder that you are WONDERFULLY and FEARFULLY made!
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[AnointedPoetess]

Thanks again, i really needed to hear that!!!

 

[newyorknewyork]

I hope you had a lovely birthday Anointed POetess!

How are you feeling Judy? I hope you are ok.

sorry i haven't been on much lately peeps.. have just got a job...

 

[newyorknewyork]

Godschild, thanks 4 sharing about yourself. how are you doing?

 

[newyorknewyork]

Hmm.

I'm not okay.


I wanted to clarify that.


I might look strong and all. But I really don't have everything together. In fact, I don't have anything together. I don't know how I'm still alive to be honest ... is the pain ever going to end? What if there isn't recovery for me? What if?? I don't want to be like this all my life, I know that ... but at the same time, I don't want to recover. I don't know what I want, I don't know what's going to happen. I'm overdosed on apathy right now. I don't care about anything concerning myself.

Is this life?
Is this the way it's always going to be?

my shrink has told me not to focus on "what if"s they make you feel worse

focus on the awesome things in your life now!

 

[Restoredsoul]

it will get better no matter how bad it feels right now - sometimes we have to go through the valleys and no one enjoys it - but God is bigger than we can ever know or imagine and he is working in our lives even when we cannot see it.

'We are more than conquerors through him who loved us.' Romans 8:37

'and though i walk through the valley i won't be afraid for jesus you are with me holding me close, you can give a peace that passes understanding, Lord you are with me holding me close'

RS xxx

 

[Judy02]

Hi everyone. Hope everyone's ok today. I've been having good and bad days...today's a bit of a bad day, just feeling fed up. do u think things ever get better? life just seems to be something i have to bear, rather than enjoy. i was hoping i cud cope without, but maybe its time to see counselling again

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

So far, I am having a bad day. I normally try to see the beauty in everyone and in the world, but today all I've seen is other people who only see the "ugly" in people. I came to CF to get away from those types of people; I thought Christians would see other people the way Christ sees them, but it turns out that many apparently do not.

 

[Judy02]

So far, I am having a bad day. I normally try to see the beauty in everyone and in the world, but today all I've seen is other people who only see the "ugly" in people. I came to CF to get away from those types of people; I thought Christians would see other people the way Christ sees them, but it turns out that many apparently do not.

I am sorry to hear of your bad day. I learnt the lesson that not all christians are lovely, last year. People sometimes let us down, but God will never do that. I hope u feel better soon Judy xx

 

[Godschild]

Godschild, thanks 4 sharing about yourself. how are you doing?

I'm doing alright, thanks for asking. A little bit better as days go on and I try to do things that keep my mind from focusing on the thoughts and the past. Although, I'm in need of a hug. I just....that's what I'm craving right now. Just a good hug. One where I feel like I don't want to let go. It's been a LONG time since I've had a hug like that. Enough about me, how are you?

How is everyone else here doing??

 

[Soulwings]

Maycontainnuts I think that's something that every Christian needs to focus on more; like Judy said, we are only people and will let you down. But I will keep my thoughts on that, so your post helped me, as I hope this one is a little. It's nearly impossible for us to look at people the way Christ does, and takes an awful lot of effort ... but is worth it (note to self). If you want someone to talk to, I'm always here.

 

[Judy02]

same here hun (and to anyone) who needs to vent, needs any support or whatever. hopefully we can all help each other xx

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

I am sorry to hear of your bad day. I learnt the lesson that not all christians are lovely, last year. People sometimes let us down, but God will never do that. I hope u feel better soon Judy xx

Thank you. I do feel better now. I can't focus on stuff like that; I need to just focus on the big picture and on God. Today I was just appalled by some of the harsh words I saw people saying on here, but you know what.. that's their problem.

 

[Judy02]

Thank you. I do feel better now. I can't focus on stuff like that; I need to just focus on the big picture and on God. Today I was just appalled by some of the harsh words I saw people saying on here, but you know what.. that's their problem.

Yeah I know what you mean. Sometimes people, even without realising can upset us/be insensitive. People are people, we're not always perfect, but if someone's advice u dont feel is helpful, encouraging u or building u up then, just try and forget about it and dont dwell on what they said too much. We're here to encourage one another, not tear each other down at the end of the day eh

Talking to people who are either depressed, or have come through the other side I often find are most helpful in most cases, but others can be too. xxx

 

[AnointedPoetess]

I hope you had a lovely birthday Anointed POetess!

How are you feeling Judy? I hope you are ok.

sorry i haven't been on much lately peeps.. have just got a job...

Thanks tsur, it was ok but i found myself very unsatified, upset, and ungrateful.. wish i could redo it but oh well..

 

[Soulwings]

Does cutting automatically say that "I've got a bad relationship with God"?

 

[newyorknewyork]

it will get better no matter how bad it feels right now - sometimes we have to go through the valleys and no one enjoys it - but God is bigger than we can ever know or imagine and he is working in our lives even when we cannot see it.

'We are more than conquerors through him who loved us.' Romans 8:37

'and though i walk through the valley i won't be afraid for jesus you are with me holding me close, you can give a peace that passes understanding, Lord you are with me holding me close'

RS xxx

thanks RS, you're a great encourager!

God bless you for your willingness to encourage others. Know that your pain is not in vain because you are now able to relate to others.

 

[newyorknewyork]

Hi everyone. Hope everyone's ok today. I've been having good and bad days...today's a bit of a bad day, just feeling fed up. do u think things ever get better? life just seems to be something i have to bear, rather than enjoy. i was hoping i cud cope without, but maybe its time to see counselling again

Hello Judy, how are you feeling today? I know what you mean.. i also have good and bad days! I can't help but wish there were more good days than bad days!
Counselling is a wonderful idea. I got to a point about a month ago where I just really wasn't coping and I wasn't suicidal - just massively overwhelmed and depressed and feeling out of control. So I knew that I had to make a phone call and see a counsellor again. Part of me didn't want to either. So I can relate to you.

But I am now seeing a psychologist and a counsellor.

The psychologist is helping me heaps!! She is doing "CBT" (cognitive behavioural therapy) with me - it is the best thing ever! It gives me so much hope for the future - hope that I am not going to feel and be like this forever but I can change and these horrible emotions that torment me WILL indeed go away with hard work!!

YAY!!

anyway.. just wanted to say hi to you Judy and let you know that seeing a counsellor is a great idea! Don't let anyone stop you if thats what you know would be helpful

 

[newyorknewyork]

Guys, today is my 23rd birthday and i should be so happy and excited but im not! im sad and depressed! I dont feel like today is anything spec but just another day.. whats wrong with me??

aww lots of love and hugs to you!! sometimes when big events come along (like birthdays, anniversaries ... etc.) i can feel overwhelmed.. at the time i just feel so crap and i don;t know what's wrong with me??? but later i think that maybe it was because i am stil healing and recovering from depression and yet life doesn't stop and wait for us. Birthdays and parties and weddings and celebrations still happen regardless of how we feel and we then feel we should be happy and excited and celebrating.. i know its a horrible feeling!