Depression Support

[DarkLegend28]

Eh... I wish I could say what I wanted to say.. but I think I'll pass......again...

 

[newyorknewyork]

Not feeling too well right now...

aww Lily! you are a princess of the king of kings... do you want to talk?

 

[newyorknewyork]

Aww Lily What's up, sweetie?

Thanks Crystal, I needed to hear that now too. Things aren't going too great, but ... maybe someday. I'm just so tired of fighting everything; I know that sounds all melodramatic and stuff, but honestly - is there really any point in not cutting and not starving? I'm trying to justify recovery (or rather, not recovery, but relapse) ... I'm having such a hard time committing to recovery and I'm not really sure if I want to fight anymore. I just want to give up ... but I can't do that, and as a friend pointed out, sometimes giving up is harder than going onward.

How are you all doing tonight? Praying for you guys. I'm here if you need me.

soulwings, i hope you feel better soon! i can relate!! i feel like that too sometimes!! each day feels like a battle! and i just want to give up sometimes! hang in there!

 

[newyorknewyork]

s and prayers for all here.

I'm probably doing better than my mom at the moment, mentally at least; her friend's sister just died yesterday. It seems rather ironic considering that I lost my brother 3 1/2 years ago, but I really don't know what to do or say. Not that I have a lot of opportunities to do or say anything; my worthless school is overworking her as usual.

wow laurelin.. i hope it all works out ok. that must be tough! losing someone is always hard..

i wish i knew what to say! take care... x0x0x

 

[newyorknewyork]

Eh... I wish I could say what I wanted to say.. but I think I'll pass......again...

aww hugs 4 u darklegend! i hope you take care of yourself and feel free to PM me or share on here soon...

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey guys,
Big hugs to you all
Just wanted you to know that i am thinking of you all and praying that you would see some gllimpes of God today.

I know what it's like to get to the lowest ebb - i have been there and God has brought me back. I can't belive how much God has done in my life over the last two years - make sure you recognise the positive steps you make.

Big hugs
RS xx

 

[Soulwings]

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement, RS. I believe that your prayers reached me ... today I put my foot down and (I'm really scared to say this) decided that I want to put cutting in my past.

I think I do.
I'm just so tired of it. I've SIed for going on a year and a half, and it feels like ... forever. I've got so many permanent scars, it was getting pretty serious ... still is I guess. I refuse to give away my blades. But ... still I want to get better.

It's such a fight. But I will make it. And I will win. Someday.

s for all of you. I'm sorry for the rough things that you are going through, I'm here if anyone needs to talk (that offer is ALWAYS open). God is out there though, and He's even more accessible than I am.

 

[Eponine]

wow laurelin.. i hope it all works out ok. that must be tough! losing someone is always hard..

i wish i knew what to say! take care... x0x0x

Don't worry about it. I didn't really know her, just her sister, so while of course I'm sad for her sister and the other people that did know her I can't honestly say it's a loss for me.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement, RS. I believe that your prayers reached me ... today I put my foot down and (I'm really scared to say this) decided that I want to put cutting in my past.

I think I do.
I'm just so tired of it. I've SIed for going on a year and a half, and it feels like ... forever. I've got so many permanent scars, it was getting pretty serious ... still is I guess. I refuse to give away my blades. But ... still I want to get better.

It's such a fight. But I will make it. And I will win. Someday.

s for all of you. I'm sorry for the rough things that you are going through, I'm here if anyone needs to talk (that offer is ALWAYS open). God is out there though, and He's even more accessible than I am.

Soulwings - i am so pleased that you feel you want to take some steps towards moving on. i know what it's like - i have been healed from self harming by God - if you want to chat about it PM me.

remember that you are a precious child of God and he loves you, you are fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of God .

Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Thank you

I went to see my psych on Thursday; she increased my ADs (lexapro), so maybe that'll do something good, maybe not. I'm not sure.

And now I'm sitting here with a coffee from Dunkin Donuts, and planning on catching up on my homework.

How are you all doing?

 

[Judy02]

Thank you

I went to see my psych on Thursday; she increased my ADs (lexapro), so maybe that'll do something good, maybe not. I'm not sure.

And now I'm sitting here with a coffee from Dunkin Donuts, and planning on catching up on my homework.

How are you all doing?

praying that you'll be ok on the new meds soulwings.

hope everyone is doing ok at the moment. I'm here for anyone who needs to talk whenever.

 

[Restoredsoul]

hey guys,
love to you all... i am praying that you feel the peace of God in your lives and that you feel him holding you during the hard times.

RS xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Thanks for the prayers, Judy.

Remember that you all in here are Princesses of the King ... wonderful and lovely the way you are already. Keeping you all in my thoughts. Hope things this evening are going well for everyone.

 

[Eponine]

*Speaks in a whisper because that's all she can manage with her voice lost* Good morning everyone! Praying you would feel God's presence today.

 

[Soulwings]

Some of my friends are having ED problems, and ... it sounds awful to admit it, but I want to be back in a place where it was ME that had those problems. Not because I want to take away their pain and struggles - even though that's true too - but because I WANT it. I want the hunger pains, I want the weakness and shakiness and fractured vision back. But I can't. Because so much depends on my recovery.

 

[Eponine]

*Sighs* Church was depressing. As a singer, losing my voice is even more frustrating than normal, and I wanted so badly to join in and praise God but my voice just couldn't... wouldn't...

 

[Soulwings]

Laurelin, I've been wondering, and I hope I don't offend you, but if you're Christian, why do you have the "other religion" icon up? Just curious

I understand how losing your voice would be frustrating, ESPECIALLY for singing. That's rough, hopefully it will come back soon.

 

[newyorknewyork]

Hey guys,
Big hugs to you all
Just wanted you to know that i am thinking of you all and praying that you would see some gllimpes of God today.

I know what it's like to get to the lowest ebb - i have been there and God has brought me back. I can't belive how much God has done in my life over the last two years - make sure you recognise the positive steps you make.

Big hugs
RS xx

you are a great encourager RS! bless you!!

 

[newyorknewyork]

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement, RS. I believe that your prayers reached me ... today I put my foot down and (I'm really scared to say this) decided that I want to put cutting in my past.

I think I do.
I'm just so tired of it. I've SIed for going on a year and a half, and it feels like ... forever. I've got so many permanent scars, it was getting pretty serious ... still is I guess. I refuse to give away my blades. But ... still I want to get better.

It's such a fight. But I will make it. And I will win. Someday.

s for all of you. I'm sorry for the rough things that you are going through, I'm here if anyone needs to talk (that offer is ALWAYS open). God is out there though, and He's even more accessible than I am.

I am so proud of you Soulwings! Making the decision to put SI in your past is a HUGE step forward in your healing and recovery.

 

[Soulwings]

I am so proud of you Soulwings! Making the decision to put SI in your past is a HUGE step forward in your healing and recovery.

I'm still wavering on that step. STILL. Even after I said that ... I'm still scared and I don't know why.

Today is day 4 and just saying that makes me want to cut and ruin it.

But maybe someday I will actually best this. Get over it and be healthy and maybe even happy.

How are you doing?