Deliverance from reprobation

[annonymus]

I have committed some sins that are truly depraved and detestable, and I have been unrepentant and sinful in my entire teen age days. Now I have been turned over to reprobate mind, my soul is under oppression of spirits of lust.

I can't function.

I can't think straight.

I can't grasp the sense of reality.

I spend my entire day telling 'shut up' to demonic, bizzare, evil thoughts that come to my mind.


I can't feel emotions that make a human a human, such as love, remorse, compassion.

My heart is filled with uncontrollable hatred for God and his people, sexual immorality, preference for evil and it's out of my control.

I can't even pray because I know they are in vain and fake, and scared that it will damn me even more.

When I try to repent, I feel more fake than Esau.

I believe in God but like how demons do.

There is not even a sliver lining within me.

It would be only by God himself to get me out of this. That is how bad my situation is.

 

[LoricaLady]

Well, it is only by the Lord alone that any of us get out of all of our temptations. You sure don’t seem like a lost cause. You see the sin and you don’t want it anymore. You’ve seen the deception and you want light and help.

I will be praying for you, and in the meantime, here are some clues on how to get your mind full of light instead of darkness. It’s very simple. Sing and speak the Word as much as you can around the clock.

Demons absolutely hate hearing scriptures.

You are in a battle and so far you are losing. Joshua in the Bible was a military leader. What was he told to do in order to get success in his battles? To mutter on scriptures day and night. Day and night. That is not an exaggeration. And it takes practice to get in the habit, but even while you are learning, you will be helped.

Of course, if you are in social situations, you’re probably not going to want to be muttering scriptures. At least not so that they could hear. But you can always just be mentally reviewing scriptures as much as it is possible and practical.

And you don’t have to struggle trying to remember this verse and that verse. There are many YouTube videos featuring Bible promises, sometimes presented straight from scriptures and song. You can just speak and sing along with them. Don’t strain your voice in singing, though. That can cause something called vocal modules. A soft voice is just fine. Joshua was told to mutter not shout.

Some scripture- only songs, which I personally think are the best, are on channels like Sons of Korah and Integrity Music.

When Christ was tempted in the desert by the devil, what did he do about it? He quoted scriptures. That was it.

Paul and Silas got out of prison when they were singing praise songs, miraculously.

When overwhelming numbers of foreign countries’ armies
came to attack Israel what was King Jehoshaphat led to do? He sent out the priests with the ark
to simply sing praises before the Lord and before the armies.

The armies turned on one another, and every one of them was killed.

You have a sword. The Bible tells us what that sword is. The word of the Lord.

Your situation is drastic, though it is not at all uncommon. You need drastic measures to get free. And muttering the word ongoing is a drastic measure. That can certainly help you to get free.

 

[Richard T]

I have committed some sins that are truly depraved and detestable, and I have been unrepentant and sinful in my entire teen age days. Now I have been turned over to reprobate mind, my soul is under oppression of spirits of lust.

I can't function.

I can't think straight.

I can't grasp the sense of reality.

I spend my entire day telling 'shut up' to demonic, bizzare, evil thoughts that come to my mind.


I can't feel emotions that make a human a human, such as love, remorse, compassion.

My heart is filled with uncontrollable hatred for God and his people, sexual immorality, preference for evil and it's out of my control.

I can't even pray because I know they are in vain and fake, and scared that it will damn me even more.

When I try to repent, I feel more fake than Esau.

I believe in God but like how demons do.

There is not even a sliver lining within me.

It would be only by God himself to get me out of this. That is how bad my situation is.

You are under a major spiritual attack but do not lose hope in God. All the word of God is still true to you. The condemnation you have is from the devil. You have no sins that cannot be forgiven. If the thoughts and attitude persist you should seek out deliverance. Usually the devil moves on. To help him on the way out just keep trying to do what you can. Be humble, tell God you seek deliverance and help. Avoid giving into the devil as much as possible.
I John 1:9 applies to you. God is faithful (he will forgive your sins) and he is just (Jesus paid the penalty), and it will not be able to be used against you. It is ok to seek out a medical dr. too.
Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God. Somehow you have got to hear from God. I pray that some some scripture can light up your heart and encourage you to believe and know that God loves you and desires you to be free from oppression. That you can still have victory and even abundant life. We rebuke the devil in Jesus over your entire being and ask that God has mercy and longsuffering on your behavior and sins. You really can make things right with God. Whether it is overnight or gradual as you call on the Lord, He is mighty to save and deliver. God bless.

 

[NBB]

If you could find a church where they do deliverance, and Gods presence if there.... Just going and nothing else to a church where God is can be beneficial, just going there, 'where the spirit of God is there is freedom'.

- God has lots of patience, and doesn't want anyone to perish.
- God is not waiting with a stick, to judge you when you fail.
- God wants to help, so avoid having sentiments of condemnation.
- God understand that sometimes sins are hard to quit, he just needs us to be willing to do the right thing with his help.

 

[Leaf473]

No one is beyond God's reach † May God reveal his power in your life through Jesus Christ

Bible Gateway passage: Luke 19:10 - New American Standard Bible

For the Son of Man has come to seek and to save that which was lost.”

www.biblegateway.com

 

[Matt Yeomans]

Your post sounds like repentance.

 

[William J]

I pray that God would bless you and help you to become a new person in Christ. I pray that God would deliver you from any sin that is in your heart. In Jesus' name, amen.

 

[Love Fountain]

I have committed some sins that are truly depraved and detestable, and I have been unrepentant and sinful in my entire teen age days. Now I have been turned over to reprobate mind, my soul is under oppression of spirits of lust.

I can't function.

I can't think straight.

I can't grasp the sense of reality.

I spend my entire day telling 'shut up' to demonic, bizzare, evil thoughts that come to my mind.


I can't feel emotions that make a human a human, such as love, remorse, compassion.

My heart is filled with uncontrollable hatred for God and his people, sexual immorality, preference for evil and it's out of my control.

I can't even pray because I know they are in vain and fake, and scared that it will damn me even more.

When I try to repent, I feel more fake than Esau.

I believe in God but like how demons do.

There is not even a sliver lining within me.

It would be only by God himself to get me out of this. That is how bad my situation is.

Hello,

Yes you are thinking straight because you know what you're doing is bad for you and not healthy. You do have remorse because you know you need to stop doing what your doing and you do have compassion because you feel guilty and that is what is fueling your hatred for God and things that remind you what you're doing is bad for you. You have love for yourself too or you wouldn't be saying anything about the pain and poisoning your doing to yourself by making bad choices.

Not being able to function because of lust addiction could be needing professional help, there are support groups and non-judgmental people who specialize in support and treatment for people who have lust addictions like porn, etc....it's ok to seek and ask for help when you need it, they are there to help you but you have to ask and take the steps necessary to talk with them. Seek them out, they will help you!

As for God, you have to ask Him to help you and invite Him into your life, your post shows forth the struggle you are having within yourself with your lust addiction and really asking God in.

You know what you have to do, stop drinking the poison of those things that feed your lust addiction! Turn off the faucet of lust addiction poisons and turn away from it! Start filling yourself with the word of God instead, learn about God and what gifts He has for you and what He intends for your life to be.

Regarding your question about Cain and the mark upon him, yes it was so that he could hopefully repent of his wickedness and not continue to be a child of the wicked one. Matthew 13 speaks about the tares among the wheat, the children of the wicked one amongst the children of the Kingdom and God says leave them alone for God to deal with, hence the mark upon Cain(a tare which is poisonous and bitter, known at harvest time by their marks/blemishes, bitter and which will kill you even if you eat of them today).

Feel free to private message me for conversation, questions, or if I can be of help.

Recognizing you have an issue is a great first step, take another step and get help from support groups and then another step putting the lust addiction poison away from you and another step asking God to help you and get into His word every day and every single time you feel like you're slipping backwards. Most importantly don't beat yourself up when you mess up, start over and do better!

Hope this helps!

Blessings,
Love Fountain

 

[RileyG]

His grace and peace to you