I hope this is the right forum for this. If it's not, I'm sorry for wasting everyone's time. I know this is going to sound strange, but here goes...
For years, I've had recurring bouts of deja vu. Not that I believe in it, but there's so many times when something would happen and right away I could recall the memory of it as if it were a familiar, often recalled memory. This happens to me at least once a week, and I've never really thought enought about it to research it.
Well, tonight, it's been happening a lot. And I'm having (for lack of a better term) memories of a trip I'm going to take this weekend. And I have the sense that I'm going to die on the trip.
I'm not scared by this, but I don't believe it's meant for us to know the future. This isn't the first time I've had a feeling of impending death, but it is the most persistant, the most real to me.
If it is my time to go, I gladly accept it. I'm scrambling now to finish a novel I've spent 5 years writing and maybe the completion of a project that has consumed so much of my life is what's sparking these feelings. Maybe my mind feels that by closing this chapter of my life, I'm putting an end to something that has made me feel alive. I have to have the book finished by Wednesday and in the mail on Thursday. My trip is on Friday.
Now, before anybody asks, I'm not involved in any way with the occult, with new age, with drugs, or anything of the sort. I did suffer from disthymia but psychiatrist cleared me of treatment almost seven years ago. I'm just wondering if what I'm going through right now is a common psychological thing, or if I should call my shrink and make another apointment.
I guess more than anything I just needed to share this with somebody, and at 3 am, the Internet is as close as I can come to finding someone to talk to.
Anyway, please pray for me, and God bless.
For years, I've had recurring bouts of deja vu. Not that I believe in it, but there's so many times when something would happen and right away I could recall the memory of it as if it were a familiar, often recalled memory. This happens to me at least once a week, and I've never really thought enought about it to research it.
Well, tonight, it's been happening a lot. And I'm having (for lack of a better term) memories of a trip I'm going to take this weekend. And I have the sense that I'm going to die on the trip.
I'm not scared by this, but I don't believe it's meant for us to know the future. This isn't the first time I've had a feeling of impending death, but it is the most persistant, the most real to me.
If it is my time to go, I gladly accept it. I'm scrambling now to finish a novel I've spent 5 years writing and maybe the completion of a project that has consumed so much of my life is what's sparking these feelings. Maybe my mind feels that by closing this chapter of my life, I'm putting an end to something that has made me feel alive. I have to have the book finished by Wednesday and in the mail on Thursday. My trip is on Friday.
Now, before anybody asks, I'm not involved in any way with the occult, with new age, with drugs, or anything of the sort. I did suffer from disthymia but psychiatrist cleared me of treatment almost seven years ago. I'm just wondering if what I'm going through right now is a common psychological thing, or if I should call my shrink and make another apointment.
I guess more than anything I just needed to share this with somebody, and at 3 am, the Internet is as close as I can come to finding someone to talk to.
Anyway, please pray for me, and God bless.