Thanks wordgazer. I'm Donna by the way.
Well.... where do I start ?
I have been a Christian for almost 9 years. I still remember what it felt like when I first accepted Christ into my life and how on fire I felt. I wanted to take on the world and introduce them to the best friend that they would ever have... Jesus. But now, I have backslidden and don't know how to get back. God has taken a backseat in my life and I always find more impotant things to do, rather than spend time with him. I sin everyday and feel like such a hypocite for it. I want to be someone my children can look up to and can learn from, but I lack discipline and Satan always seems to be one step ahead of me. I have been Married for 3 years and desperately want Hubby to grow with me. I encourage him and know that when he was getting his life on track with God, I was growing too. He encouraged and inspired me to grow and be the best I could. But like me he has let God take a backseat too. I have always dreamt of marrying a spiritual leader and my Hubby would encourage and take the initiative to lead us spiritually. I seem to have taken on that role and it is really getting me down as it is not how I saw my marriage panning out. During our early days of marriage, he was great. He was exactly what I wanted in a spiritual leader. But somewhere, somehow things changed. I want the Hubby back who was on fire for God and lead us. The Hubby who had the same desire to lead our children to know and love our lord. I feel like I am walking thir road alone and it saddens me that I have had to take on the spiritual role. I guess I feel a little lost and a lot drained.
Thanyou for listening. It helps to get it out. Am I expecting too much ?
Blessings, Donna