Hello everyone! Well I'm with you guys. My story. Started smoking at around 15-16 but didn't smoke much then. Always kept it on average about 10 a day. Quit twice during pg and nursing period but went back (stupid I know!). It was easier to quit when pg though, you HAD to kwim? My kids are now 6 and 7 1/2 and I'm 32, so this is over 15yrs of smoking.
This time I made up my mind to quit and the Dr gave me wellbutrin, so I've been on it about 1 1/2months but still hadn't been able to quit. My company signed us up w'a smoking cessation program so I was ready for my quit date in Jan (which of course didn't happen lol). By this point though w/the wellbutrin my cravings were dramatically decreasing so I had gone back down to 2-4 a day and it wasn't that hard.
Came tuesday, I started feeling really sick so I didn't smoke, by Wed realized I have the flu, sick/bed/call work, no smoking, Thursday, a bit better but still sick and now i have laryngitis really bad, so the virus is making it's rounds, next it'll be bronchitis (as it usually does several times a year). So, this is day 4. Remember that even when sick before it didn't stop me from at least one or 1/2 one a day, this was a first. SO I decided to make my quit day tuesday. Today, my throat is a mess, can't speak even but I was craving big time. I cleaned the house, organized, cleaned out my closet, dusted, vacuumed, laundry, and much more lol. Trying to stay busy.
At one point, I went out, said heck w/it, lit one up, the first puff felt like you did the first time you smoked, but then, my mom drove up so I immediately put it out. She knows I smoke, I haven't told her I'm quitting (just in case lol) but she knows I'm sick and I didn't want the lecture. I think God sent her back just in time to stop me. SO I don't think I'm starting to recount over a puff. I'm keeping my quit day as Tuesday, sounds more encouraging. It's hard, but I better do this now that it's winter time and I had already gone down to 2-4 a day. I can ask for patches but I think w/the wellbutrin it should be ok based on my smoking habits.
Problem...tomorrow is my brothers 30'th bday, of course I can't NOT go, I want to go, it's a big deal. I know there will be smokers (but outside) and drinking. We all know how they go hand in hand. I'm afraid if I have ONE drink I'll go out to smoke. Maybe not, either way, pray I can stay strong w/the no smoking. Maybe I'll drink, but pray it's 32 deg and I won't want to go outside to smoke. I will probably do my best to stay away from other smokers the first month, maybe should even stop drinking for that first month. I don't intend or want to stop drinking per se, but to quit smoking I'll have to most likely stop all for a while. Once I feel "over" my smoking then I can bring back my glass of wine
. Even that I decreased to where a bottle of wine lasts more a week or more now!
I'm thinking exercise, finally w/out feeling out of breath, I'm thinking, great I'm going to get fatter then I already am (I've gained 30lbs in the last year or so). Put on about another 5 when I cut down on the smoking so what will it be now? I'm so depressed about that, but hey, it's not like I have been skinny this last year and I was smoking. I really need to concentrate all my efforts on exercising, instead of going to smoke break, take a few flights of stairs for 5-10min, couple times a day. Take that combined evening time of smokes and exercise in the evening 30mins even.
Turn into a diet/exercise freak, why not? I'll look better , smell better and be healthier.
Oh, I'm getting our puppy in another 4 wks, so I wanted to quit before she came as to not tackle puppy potty training and the stress of quitting combined. YIKES that would have been ugly.
This is hard though, I never realized the "mental" part. It's like you know it's bad for you, you have and want to quit, but feel like being rebellious w/yourself and your good decision lol. The dependency!!! To calm down, or just to socialize. It's the mental thing for me, more then physical (though it is a little). I'm having a raging war in my head right now saying stick w/it....to heck, start smoking again tomorrow....stick w/it....to heck....stick w/it GRRRRRR
Prayers or good thoughts please for ALL of us out here in quitting land.