Confused!!

[shoegirl]

Well I prayed and asked God to be a part of my life whe I was 8 . Then when I was 15 I was at a youth rally and felt the need to go sown front again. At this time My sunday school teacher at the time made it seem like I was beign saved then. I thought I just needed more and knew I was not living right. Then as I got oolder, I drifted away from the Lord and derfinitly was not obiedient. I did things I knew where not right. I would pray and talk with the Lord then fall away again . I would let the world pull me in to them. After I got married and had children, I got back in a church and tried to get back on track. I had a prayer time and fellwoshipped with the Lord. At times I felt like he was just sitting there with me. But recently I feel like my heart is hard and my Love just has not been there. Even when I pray, I feel like God is not hearing me.I know the usual , you put something between you and God or you just have unrepented sin and you just need to humble yourself. I have done this and it just does not seem any better. I want the relationship back. Wehave been talking at my Church about how some people are decieved by believing they are saved when it is not jesus they have but just good morals or bible knowledge instead of heart knowledge. I just wonder sometimes if I have decieved myself. I want to just know that Jesus knows who Iam and have no questions. I know I can pray and do it all again but then you take away everything in my life that I attribute to Jesus so far. Is this my security or is this my pride stepping in. I am sorry this is so long and I hope I have got my questions across without confussing anyone else. Please repond with some thoughts.

 

[Lilly of the Valley]

Well, what you did for the Lord in the past won't mean much if your motives weren't right or you are off track with the Lord. It's best to be sure you are right with the Lord. You also should evaluate why your love for God has grown cold. That is probably why the Lord seems so distant from you. Also, ask the Lord to soften your heart. Salvation is a process. But you do need to be sure to stay tight with God.

 

[ShetlandRose]

The Bible does not teach that if you sin after you have accepted Jesus, you must be saved again. But to avoid all the ups and downs in your Christian life you must develop a personal relationship with God. Any successful relationship takes time and work. Just as you feed your body good food to maintain your health, you have to feed your soul to nourish your spirit. What that means is we can't expect to grow and mature spiritually if we only get a little bit of Bible reading here and a dab of prayer there. Every day we should spend time alone with God, read and meditate on His Word, talk to Him, and take time to listen. The Lord greatly desires us to grow and to fellowship with Him. Continual fellowship requires confession and forgiveness, determination, and a heart willing to be obedient. It is a wonderful journey.

Once we do have a solid relationship with God, we can be used of Him to reach out to others and encourage them.

ShetlandRose

 

[sawdust]

Well I prayed and asked God to be a part of my life whe I was 8 . Then when I was 15 I was at a youth rally and felt the need to go sown front again. At this time My sunday school teacher at the time made it seem like I was beign saved then. I thought I just needed more and knew I was not living right. Then as I got oolder, I drifted away from the Lord and derfinitly was not obiedient. I did things I knew where not right. I would pray and talk with the Lord then fall away again . I would let the world pull me in to them. After I got married and had children, I got back in a church and tried to get back on track. I had a prayer time and fellwoshipped with the Lord. At times I felt like he was just sitting there with me. But recently I feel like my heart is hard and my Love just has not been there. Even when I pray, I feel like God is not hearing me.I know the usual , you put something between you and God or you just have unrepented sin and you just need to humble yourself. I have done this and it just does not seem any better. I want the relationship back. Wehave been talking at my Church about how some people are decieved by believing they are saved when it is not jesus they have but just good morals or bible knowledge instead of heart knowledge. I just wonder sometimes if I have decieved myself. I want to just know that Jesus knows who Iam and have no questions. I know I can pray and do it all again but then you take away everything in my life that I attribute to Jesus so far. Is this my security or is this my pride stepping in. I am sorry this is so long and I hope I have got my questions across without confussing anyone else. Please repond with some thoughts.

"..and these things were written that you may believe" not written to make you feel warm & fuzzy. Sometimes the Lord leads us to a dry place so we can learn to depend on Him more rather than our feelings. Trust His Word and you will move through the "desert".

 

[thereselittleflower]

First, let me say that Salvation is a process - look at my sig line to see this and the scriptures that support this

But you can have many conversion experiences along the way . . . . these are when you make your life right with God and they can be very profound . .

Then comes the times of dryness . . even of darkness . . when God seems to be far off, when He seems to turn a deaf ear, when He is no here to be found and because portion of our walk with the Lord is not much talked of, when we enter it, we naturally think we have done something wrong, something we have done has made God angry with us . .

But God withdraws the sense of His presence, suddenly, and for no apparent reason, to draw us closer to Himself . .

If you have repented of sin in your life, and you are doing all you know to be in relationship with God . . then trust Him to lead you through this time . ..

This book may be of great help . . . The Imitation of Christ by Thomas A Kempis


Peace in Him!