Come on in, the coffee's hot

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Judy - Even though you can't go back and change how you dealt with things last year at least you may have learnt something from the whole experiment? As April said, can't you just redo that subject? We've had warmer weather here but the temperatures are still low enough for jackets so for now the hoody stays. I keep forgetting what nice clothes my character has so I forget to change her outfit once in a while. I hope she doesn't mind!

Lynne - thanks for the avatar sites, I'll definitely take a look. Your avatar rocks! Pity it takes so many blessings to change it. I wish there was a bank on CF that we could deposit our blessings into and earn interest (ie. more blessings) on them. That would be very cool.

Jo - I hope you're doing better now. Why does thinking about church make you feel low?

April - how did the graduation party go? I don't enjoy being around a large group of people either especially if there's lots of people I don't know. Did you get round to organising your avatars? I did find a nice Lord of the Rings one which I was going to use but then it was bigger then 100kb which is the maximum size allowed. Have you got your grades for the last semester? How did you do?

Mask - I'm glad to hear the party went well. I'm sorry that you didn't get recognition for all your hard work. Some people know how hard you worked and maybe the couple will be told. The great thing is that you were happy to do it, very few people give of themselves like that.

Dnihila - its good to hear from you, I hope you're doing well. I'm never thought of waitresses actually, we generally just help ourselves to whatever we want. But you're welcome to waitress if you want although the pay's not very good.

So its Monday again tomorrow, I hope everybody had a good weekend. This week I'm planning on reading up as much on web development as I can. Google is amazing. I've been thrown into the deep end and I'm very ignorant on the languages and how everything fits together. I want to get the overall picture so I have a better understanding.

I think this is a long enough post.

 

[lmarie23]

hi everyone.

nice to hear from you, dnihila. here's a smile i hope you are well.

Mask, i'm glad the party went well, sorry you weren't recognised for it....

April, good luck with the challenge! i hope the graduation party went ok. i went to a few graduation parties this weekend myself.

TLB, Judy, Jo, and Bigtoe, hope you all are doing well and have a nice week!

I'm leaving for Texas tomorrow and will be gone for a week, so you won't see me around here. i spend so much time online, i'm sure i'll really miss it lol. but it'll be good, i'll get some reading done in my free time, and do a lot of fun stuff down there. hopefully my family gets along ok, i'm a bit nervous about that because no one seems to get along with my sister and we end up getting in these fights. we're visiting my aunt and uncle and cousin, that will be nice too. and we're going to Houston and the Corpus Christi area.

yesterday was nice because i went to my friend's sister's graduation party and got to spend some quality time with my friend. she's been in jail and is now in rehab for alcohol and drug use. i've worried a lot about her, and it was just so good to see her and see that she's ok, and talk to her. we were best friends in high school but she's changed so much since then, she's made some bad choices. i still care about her so much, it's hurt me to see how much she has hurt herself through her choices. well anyways, the whole time we were talking i wanted to tell her how much i cared about her, i just thought she might need to hear it, but i didn't know how to say it, there were a lot of people around, and we weren't talking that deeply or anything. but then when she had to leave and i said goodbye she said simply, I love you. and then i could say, I love you, back. it was just great to hear that and be able to say it back to her. man, i care about that girl so much! i really hope that she completes rehab and finds a good job so she can really turn her life around.

ok, i think that is all my news. i will talk to you all in a week!

love,
Lynne

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Lynne - that's great that your friend's doing so well! I hope your trip goes really well.

I've found stacks of avatars, I've changed mine now.

 

[Soulwings]

Dnihila, am glad to see you back! And here is some coffee for you...

TLB, I agree with you... Google is amazing... and so are you, for understanding web design and everything! I am so helpless with things like that. ;-) Oh, and I have a question for you regarding that... if I want to center a sentence or an image using HTML, what is the code? I know that to space lines you use <div> </div>, but that's about the extent of my knowledge. *sheepish* And how are you doing otherwise? Is your depression alright at the moment?

Lynne, I hope that you have a good time in Texas. Maybe people will get on better with your sister this time - I hope so, anyway!! And the time spent with your friend sounds really nice... sad because she has made bad choices, but I've learnt that bad choices don't necessarily mean bad people... or else I think that we all would be considered bad people, at one time or another in our lives! (Okay, so that was tangential...) Anyway, I bet that she's glad that she has you around, and that she feels close enough to you to tell you that she cares about you (and vise versa). It's also wonderful to know that she's getting the help that she needs, and is hopefully taking advantage of it while she can.


The graduation party was okay. Nothing really exciting - I only got to see my friend three times, and the rest of the hour that I spent there, I spent talking with her aunt (who is my only violin student's mom, and who I also know through my years in 4-H, so we know each other quite well and are comfortable with each other). But really... it felt like a waste of my time, in a way, except I don't know if I would be doing anything useful with that time anyway, so it wasn't truly a waste of time. If that makes sense?

My grades for the past semester were really good, a 4.0 overall, which amazed me, but apparently everyone else was expecting it. I was hoping and aiming for it, though, since I'd worked my butt off all semester!!

Yep, I organised my avatars... what a headache!! But it's all done, so now I know which ones I can use here and which ones I can't/shouldn't. I've gotten warned before for having too graphic ones... oopsies... but that was when I was doing much worse. Won't have that problem again, methinks.

The greatest drama of the past day and a half was that my hamster got away, due to my carelessness (stupid stupid stupid April...) .... and I was scared that she had gotten hurt or stuck somewhere... but she came back last night, so all is well now in April's little world. Hehe.

How are you all doing today? Have any plans for the week?

*hugs to all*

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

I seem to be posting on here the most but maybe just because I've got more opportunity. I'm online all the time when I'm at work.

April - thanks for the vote of confidence, I don't feel so amazing. the more I learn, the more I see how much more there is to learn. I think the syntax to center something is <center></center>.
I'm doing really well. My depression has gone for now, as long as I take my meds. I need to go to the doctor soon for another prescription. The doctor I had gone to has now upped and left so I have to tell a new doctor all over again what my problem is. Yesterday I was quite anxious for a bit for what seems like no reason but it went away and today I'm feeling fine despite forgetting to take my meds this morning.
Congratulations on getting such good grades . We all knew you would do it too. You deserve it, you have been working so hard. Now if only I could get myself to work just as hard!
I'm glad to hear your hamster came back!

Hi everybody! I hope you are all having a great day!

 

[Mask]

Hello everyone !

Everyone seems to be doing o.k...that's good! I'm fine as usual lately..no ups or downs. I don't really know what changed, why I'm feeling quite good (even) lately??? What ever it is, I'm very glad !

I don't have anything of much interest to tell you all about so I guess I won't bother to try .

Congrats April on the awesome grades !!! You rock!
Oh, I love the little guy drinking the coffee...to cute!

 

[Soulwings]

Tracey, I feel like I post a lot in here too. Definitely long posts, anyway. :o Maybe I should try to trim them down a bit. Oh well.

And you are amazing! at least to me, because I could never do the kind of stuff that you're doing. So kudos to you for understanding it and enjoying it!!

Mask, I'm glad to hear that things are going well for you! That's always encouraging, for both you and also for us. How is your family doing? Have any plans for Father's Day?


I'm doing alright, nothing really spectacular going on. I've been walking/hiking a ton on the land surrounding our house. We live on top of a hill on a dead-end dirt road, and there is land in all directions that I can walk on - most of it has Posted signs, but we (my sis and I) have got permission from the owners of the land to walk there. So it's all good. Today while walking, I discovered a GIGUNDOUS patch of wild strawberries... so I am planning on picking those tonight. They're so much better than store-bought strawberries (except for the rare excellent one)... although they are tiny. The biggest one is the size of my thumbnail. Packed with flavor though.

We went in to town for errands today; I deposited more money in my savings account, which is good, since I will be withdrawing $400 to buy a viola (yey!). I also got a camo tshirt that has the Superman logo in the middle, which I thought was extremely fitting as I am a hick (unashamedly, haha) and am also known as a superhero among my close friends. So that will give them a laugh.

Other than that, not much else is rocking my world. I might not be able to work this summer due to a strike on campus, so that will mean I lose $228.28 (haha, yes, I did calculate it). Not a ton of money, but enough to matter. Oh well. Things like this happen. Heh.

Take care, everyone! (And btw, yesterday was National Hug Day )

 

[gracechick]

May I join for a cup of coffee & some support?

I have panic disorder with anxiety & I don't get out much to say the least. I feel guilty bcause we don't go to church(dh won't go & take our baby alone..eventhough I have bcause he was working). I'm concerned about my little girl.
How does a mom deal with this when it comes to their kids socializing when she is so bad at it. If I had my choice I'd probably just say forget it & enjoy all the pets I could afford Seriously though what's a mommy to do in this case? sigh.

 

[Judy02]

Good morning, everyone!

Jude, first off - *crash tackle hugs* I've missed seeing you around! And secondly, I'm sorry that things aren't going so well. Uni is so stressful... I totally get that, and I remember all the stuff that you've had to go through with it. I hope that you did much better than you think on the harder exam Try not to think about the grade right now, since they won't be posted for a few weeks anyway. (Easier said than done... when grades were supposed to be posted for me this end-of-term, I was checking them about 4 times a day... haha ) It would drive me to distraction too... *hugs* And also, can't you retake that module if you did fail it? (And don't look at the 4 years spent in college as a black or a white thing... even if you don't pass that hard module this term, you have learnt much in the past four years that you can use wherever you end up in life.) Hang in there, beautiful.

Hey again all!

Thanks for the encouragement april, TLB and Lynne


I'm not sure whether I can resit a module if I fail again or not, the uni can be quite strict as well. But also this year was a resit (I failed it last year), I'm not sure of my chances of passing next time if I've failed 2 times in a row. But I'm honest, I'm running out of steam now too A degree that was supposed to take only 3 years, has now taken 4, I don't know if I could face doing it all over again (especially as this module I was worried about is so hard and boring). I just feel like I want to be done with it, and move on and do something different now.
I'm a bit more relaxed than I was though, and I don't think I technically have to pass it to graduate, as long as I passed the other one.

I'm just trying to trust God has a good plan for my life, whether I pass or not. I've had to trust and lean on God a lot more, since I've been depressed which I guess is a good thing

Hows everyone else's week going? I'm starting job hunting now ack! I only have a weekend job at the moment, but now I've finished uni, I need to find something that gives me more hours. Not really looking for grad jobs yet until I see how I do. So mainly loking at admin jobs, but they seem so boring lol It's hard to sound enthusiastic, when they sound a little dull to begin with lol.

But yeah thats my week, the tedious task of job hunting. How is everyone else? xx

 

[dnihila]

Everyone is invited and it is help yourself thing lol and share the plates ,too:

 

[Soulwings]

Mmm yum, thank you Dnihila!!! How are you doing?

Jude. Job hunting can be a little crazy - I hope you have luck and find something that's not terribly boring for you! And I do think that a lot of people with depression grow stronger relationships with God, because they have to in order to make it through the rough times. I'm working on that right now... I know that He's always been there for me, but I haven't always been there for Him, you know? Not given Him thanks enough, not worshipped Him enough, not praised His name enough even when times are bad. But I'm working on it.


I'm doing okay, I guess. It's been a long and rather frustrating day. My nutritionist basically told me to exercise more, when I'm exercising during the day more than I'm doing anything else. Literally. I'm spending about three hours a day walking, doing athletic yoga, or biking (I do them all on every day except Sunday, when I just walk, unless I feel like exercising more). So.... ARGH.

Other than that "little upset"... ;-) life is good. My tshirts from c28.com came today, so that was exciting! I love receiving parcels in the mail, even if they are expected. I've also been planning Christmas gifts... looking at Life is Good merchandise, and it's all a bit expensive! (Well, the tshirts aren't terribly - $20 - but the travel mugs cost the same, and that's a bit ridiculous...) Oh well. I can get them for a few people, I guess. Hmph.

I hope y'all are doing well. Have any plans for tomorrow? the weekend?

 

[dnihila]

SoulWings
Mmm yum, thank you Dnihila!!! How are you doing?

I am doing fine but I was trying to find something for all of us to share away from Depression Opression Hawkus bawkus thing
I woke up early today , had my breakfast and directly to the internet.
These days I am reading some books for a change.
And what about you Soul?

 

[Soulwings]

Dnihila, I agree, it is good to get away some from the whole depression thing, even though this is the depression forum. Sometimes focusing too much on it can make it worse rather than better... have had experience in that area.

What've you been reading?

I'm doing okay. I've been reading a lot as well - I've just finished up Picture Perfect by Jodi Picoult (am getting to be a fan of her books), and am currently reading stuff from The Pilgrim's Progress by John Bunyan to The Testament by John Grisham. I guess my taste is pretty eclectically wide. But I love to read; my whole room is a library (one and a half walls are bookshelves). Used bookstores are my downfall!! ;-)

Today my mum and I and our dogs are going to go for a hike at a state park near us. That should be a bit of fun; I love walking and so does she, and it's always/usually nice to have someone to talk with when you're walking.

How's everyone else doing?? *hugs*

 

[Judy02]

hey again.

Haven't spoken to you properly yet dnihila, but think you joined here at a similar time as me so thought it'd be good to say hi!

I know what you both mean, about how dwelling on problems doesn't always help. It's hard though to find the balance I guess. Sometimes its good to find things to take your mind off things, but sometimes people can need help, support, and understanding.

I think when there's a positive attitude, and people are encouraging and praying for one another, that is always a good thing. Looking forwards, with positivity, rather than bleak, self pity attitudes. Hope some of that made sense?

I am applying for jobs right now...very boring, but also doing some reading. I love reading, especially fiction, and now I'm no longer studying, I get to choose my books haha!

I am currently reading harry potter (2nd one)...reading them all over again, before this last one comes out maybe. But will probably start reading more widely soon too.

How about you guys? xx

 

[Judy02]

Today my mum and I and our dogs are going to go for a hike at a state park near us. That should be a bit of fun; I love walking and so does she, and it's always/usually nice to have someone to talk with when you're walking.

Aww that sounds really fun april! Countryisde, flowers and general prettiness can often lift my spirits as well, especially when its sunny.

Haha you're going with your 'mum'? We've got you spelling the british way!!! (well non american way anyway)

 

[Mask]

Hi everyone!

Hi gracechick welcome to the group!!! It's nice to have new people join us. I'm sorry to hear about your anxiety attacks. Are you on any medication for that or get any counceling to help you deal with it? That must be really hard for you and your family. I've had a few panick attacks but mine were at home. Sometimes it is scary facing the world but you can do it. It would be good for you to try to go to church sometime. To sit under the preaching of the Word and to be with like minded people. If your church believes in healing....prayer for your disorders would be great for you too! The bible says that God has not given us a spirit of fear...but a spirit of power, a spirit of love, and a sound mind!!!! I have had to use this scripture many times in my life to help me to push through my fears and to live my life. Trust that God is with you and take baby steps to freedom. Even if you go to church and sit in the back row and only make it through the singing....that is a big step for you. Only you can break the cycle. Be strong! Hope you join us again soon!

dnihila...that dessert looks sooooooo yummy....wish I really had some !! Yah, I know what you mean too...sometimes we just need to shut up about our problems! Harping on it all the time does no one any good but sometimes we (especially girls..I think) just need to voice what's in our heads and hearts....just to get it out!

Soulwings...what does that nutritionist want from you anyway ?? Does he know how much exercise you are already doing? Why does he want you to exercise so much anyway? Man...I'd do good to exercise once a month , let alone three hours a day!

I don't have any special plans for Father's Day. We might just go out for lunch after church. The only Father in my life is the father of my children...hubby. My foster Dad died a few years ago and I don't know my real father so we focus our attention on my hubby on Father's Day. It's all o.k

My family is doing good. The kids are get very anxious to be done of school for the year though. My daughter (grade 10) is writing exams this week and will be done of school on the 19th (I think). My son will only be done on the 26th. He's not to happy that she gets out a week before him! He will be going to an amusement park (a small one) for their school outing this year. He's gone there quite a few times already....it's not that exciting. He is scared of alot of the rides so he won't be going on to many but his friends want him to go anyways.

I love my kids and don't mind having them home but I'm gonna miss the quiet time I have now, plus daughter will be hogging the computer!!!!!

 

[gracechick]

Thanks M. It's been rather a long,rainy day here. Dh left with the SUV that has the carseat in to go to a meeting hours from here. He overslept which made things chaotic this a.m so I was stuck here with the baby.

I do take meds. Infact the doc recently prescribed Cymbalta(replacing Celexa) & I like it. But my OBGYN office didn't like how my bp had spiked so I'm praying my GP appointment will find it more steady in number.sigh.
I know I should attend & family is trying to encourage me without pressuring me too much. My parents want to take dd, but they are older & I'm afraid she is too much of a live wire for them to keep up with in the nursery & during the service.
I have been prayed for & prayed over & about everything in between I think...I suppose one could simply say I'm quite stuck. Anyways

Absolutely. Don't the pics look like a lovely way to spend a rainy, unseasonably chilly evening. Mmmm can it all arrive air mail & we'll each set down at the same moment & partake

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Gracechick - welcome! Its always nice to see a new face here. I hope your anxiety gets better. I also battle with anxiety and its really not nice.

Judy - I hope you do pass. Its horrible not knowing what your marks will be like. There's one subject that I'm battling with and I think I have to pass it this year, I've redone it too many times and I don't think I can redo it next year if I fail. Let us know how you do, when will your marks be out?

Dnihila - thanks for dessert, it was very good! The coffee was good too. How are you doing?

April - your nutritionist is crazy for wanting you to do more exercise. Can you exercise harder but still keep to the same length of time that you exercise for so you'll getting a better workout but not spending any more time on it? I love getting stuff in the post too. I think you had links to what you bought in your blog, I'll go check it out. I saw on your blog that you're reading Blink, that is an excellent book, I love Ted Dekker. Have you read Three? That was a mind blowing book. What's going on with the strike over there? I honestly thought strikes only happened in SA! There's a strike going on at the moment with the teachers, nurses and paramedics. Some children haven't been able to go to school for two weeks now.

Mask - hi, how are you doing? Does your daughter know what she wants to do when she leaves school?

I know I haven't been here for a while, I got a new computer at work and have been trying to get everything installed and set up. There's still a few things I need to do before I can start work and its becoming a very frustrating task to get it working properly. I hope everybody is doing well. I'm going to a wedding in a beautiful part of my province. Its about 1 1/2 to 2 hours drive away and its near the mountains. Its going to be very cold there. We're staying over on Saturday night then coming back on Sunday.

 

[Soulwings]

Gracechick, welcome to the group! and my apologies for not welcoming you sooner. Panic attacks are really no fun, I've had them tons and finally got put on Klonopin (clonazepam) and Lyrica. They've helped me a lot, but now if I don't get my meds on time I get panic attacks, so it's all sort of a catch-22. But it's not fun at all.... *hugs* I hope things get better for you!

Jude, yeh, I go with 'Mum'. That's how I pronounce it anyway, I've not called her 'Mom' in years. I love the whole anti-American dealie that goes with that too. Hehe. *hug* And the walk was pleasant. Sunny and cool and the river smelt like Maine. &#9829;

Mask, I can never believe how late some schools get out! Here the public schools get out in early June, except for the ones in New York. I hope that you manage to find some peace with your kids being home! When will you be going camping??

Tracey, I hope the wedding goes well! Let me know what kind of music they do there (as I'm planning my own wedding right now, and also do wedding gigs). That always interests me. And how many provinces are there in South Africa? I wish I could go there sometime, sounds like a tres nice place!


Things with me are going okay. I already have been exercising really hard when I do exercise - hiking around our area involves many hills/rough terrain, and when I use our stationary bike, I have it set on a pretty resistant level. And yoga... oof! Yoga is quite tough. It's focused on strength/balance and not relaxation. 'Nuff said. ;-)

I'm talking with my fiance right now, which is lovely. Only three months left til I see him! This is indeed a good thing. Hehe.

My life's really pretty quiet. I've a psych appointment tomorrow, but I'm not really worried about it. We'll be celebrating Father's Day then, since I'm hosting my poetry group at my house. Going out to eat at Olive Garden (I think) and then afterwards going to the mall. I've got a 20% off one list price book for the bookstore there (yey!) so I'll probably spend that. Which is exciting. So that'll be my tomorrow.

How about the rest of y'all? doing anything exciting today or tomorrow or Sunday? or next week, come to think of it?

 

[warrrior4him007]

hello every body how is every one today