Come on in, the coffee's hot

[Soulwings]

Of course there's pumpkin bread. We always keep some available. And pumpkin muffins too... *snuggles back*
/me shows BigToe where the bread and muffins are and tells her to help herself.

Mask, I'm not sure why nights are so bad. I'm technically diagnosed as bipolar, but I'm mainly in the depressive mode, and am on an antidepressant as well a mood stabilizer. However, neither of those have really helped nights be any better. There really isn't much else that can be done to make them better, so I've really stopped talking about them with my family, because it seems - no, it is rather pointless. And I'm feeling kind of hopeless about that. I usually either come online, or seclude myself in my room (I still live with my parents), or shower and go to bed - or just go to bed. I'm so tired of the cycle, but there isn't anything that I can really do about it.

Today is going to be an interesting day. I've got tutoring from 9-11 this morning (I'm the campus' Spanish tutor, I can't remember if I've said that or not already), then at 11:30 I have to see my advisor about planning my next few semesters (and if I should take summer courses or not, and if so, which one). I'm also planning on asking him if it would be at all possible to start an ED/SI support group on campus. It's a slightly scary thought, but I think it would be a good thing. Any thoughts on that idea??

And then this afternoon, I have my nutritionist appointment, and I'm pretty sure that it's going to go poorly as I barely followed his instructions for this week. I don't drink enough, so he wants me to drink more ... I'm not allowed caffeine anymore, really, since I don't/can't drink enough ... and I haven't stuck to my meal plan on all of the days. So.... April is going to be "upsetted at." Ick.......... but it is all my fault.

How are all of you guys doing this morning?? How'd your dentist appointment go, Mask? I don't like the dentist's either. I don't know why. Hmm.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hey April,

A ED/SI support group sounds like a really good idea!
You could really help a lot of people. You should definitely go for it.

I'm having a really bad, frustrating day so I'll tiptoe out quietly before I start ranting.

 

[BigToe]

*snuggles*

 

[Mask]

Welcome, Jon. Pop in any time you like.

Hey Mask, I hope your dentist appointment went okay, I don't like the dentist much either.

My studies didn't go well last year mainly because of depression but this year I'm on an anti-depressant and don't really battle with depression at all. I study through correspondence so its still not that easy to find the time.

Thanks TLB...my appointment went great...no cavities!!

So your meds work that great? No depression at all? Any nasty side affects that I keep hearing about? I've never been on any meds for depression so I don't know what to expect. Seems like I mostly hear horror stories about them!

 

[Mask]

Good morning everyone.

I know why I don't like the dentist...I HATE PAIN !! No cavities...woo hoo. Man my teeth were sore for the whole day though (very tightly spaced teeth)!

I know what you mean Soulwings about it feeling pointless to keep talking to your family about how you feel ! I get so tired of saying the same things over and over again! What is the point sometimes to continue talking about it, when it doesn't seem to do any good! You just feel like you are playing a recording on a tapeplayer, over and over!!! It seems to change nothing so why bother. On the other hand, who wants to just give up and do nothing! We need people to understand us! It good to be able to come here and just talk! It's good knowing people do understand you!

I think the ED/SI group would be great too (even though I don't know what the ED stands for )! I'm sure there are lots of people who need some support to get through their stuff.

How'd the chat with the nutritionist go??? It's sure is hard to eat right! I need to lose weight again but I'm so sick of that!! I'm not huge by any means but I'm still fat! I've lost 25 pounds about three times in my life, just to gain it all back on! I have to lose at least 10-15 pounds by June so I really need to smarten up. I knew there wasn't any point in trying to behave lately, the rotten way I was feeling, I just didn't want to. I wanted junk food...comfort food! I'm feeling better so I need to get cracking. I'm just tired of losing and gaining it all back on. I need to exercise but I hate it!! I don't like doing things alone! I wish I had a walking buddy or something. Gym are so expensive. Physical exercise would probably help me all around, my mood, my weight, my back etc. Lord help me !

Have a awesome day everyone!

 

[BlessedMommy05]

Hi all,

I'll take iced coffee cant stand hot drinks! Doing ok here, been a rough couple days.. I've had major headaches and sinuses and taken over the counter (OTC) meds for them but it seems to help a lil but takes forever to kick in. Today I am feeling good but mood swings are bad, seems Ive been crashing lately and just cant figure out why.. I guess it stemmed from Sunday morning dreaming of my brother and its been rough since..

Well hope y'all are good its Thursday here near 2pm so gotta try and get stuff done b4 the weekend.. God bless y'all..

BlessedMommy05

 

[Soulwings]

/me snugglehugs everyone, and tells her pet panda, Arnold, to give everyone squishisnugglehugs too.

Not having the best day either.

(And by the way, Mask, ED = eating disorder )

I don't know. I'm tired of caring.

And I am so unbelievably tired of the cycles ...... I'm crappy in the mornings until I get to uni, okay most of the day, and then get so freaking depressed starting around 5pm. Usually the only thing I can do to make it better is go to bed. Which means putting up with feeling like I would rather die than live like this for about five hours. I'm already going up to the highest dose of a mood stabilizer that my psych will prescribe.

It just doesn't make sense.

 

[Bay]

I gave up coffee! Maybe that's my problem!

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hey everybody, sounds like everybody's not doing so great.
Can I be Little Miss Sunshine then? I'm doing pretty well, I'm still really enjoying my job, I like being challenged although it can be very frustrating at times too. I'm going to a funeral tomorrow so that's not great then a craft workshop for the whole day which will be lots of fun so for the most part I'm actually doing great.
Hey Mask, the medication I'm on is for anxiety and depression. It is helping the anxiety although I still feel a bit anxious at times. I think it is helping the depression, my depression comes and goes so its hard to tell but if I miss a dose I notice a difference so I guess it is helping.
I had strange side effects the first couple of weeks of taking it, I think just while my body got used to it but now its basically no side effects, I am on a mild dose though so maybe that's why.
to everybody.

 

[BigToe]

*snuggles*
Man am I glad the week is over. The past two weeks have been quite yucky but I let myself sit with the gunk because I obviously needed to feel it else I wouldn't have been feeling it to begin with. It was an emotional experiment on my part and it wore me out, but it's all good now.

Nothing a good pedicure can't fix hehe.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hey BigToe, glad it seemed to work for you,
Its amazing how tired our emotions can make us.

I hope everybody has a good weekend.

 

[Soulwings]

I second that, TLB! Emotions can really wear you out ...... I know that swinging from slightly depressed to majorly depressed and then back is one of the most wearying things that I have known. I guess good thing that it happens at night, so I can go to bed??

/me puts the coffee on to brew, turns the teakettle on for anyone who wants tea, and settles back in a comfy chair with a sweet chai.

How are you all doing today?

 

[BigToe]

It's raining outside. I love the rain. I know a lot of people get gloomy in this weather, but nothing cheers me up like a good storm!

 

[Mask]

Hi everyone! I'm glad some people are doing good...that's encouraging, but I'm sorry some others are not doing so good! I'm doing pretty good. Surprisingly well considering it's that time of the month ! Well I guess I was kinda feeling a bit low a few days ago but I'm o.k now. Kinda tired and achey (spelling?) though. Even hubby noticed that my eyes looked better. That's were he can see if I'm doing better or not, by my eyes.

Hubby's gone away for the evening so kids and I are gonna watch some movies and eat chips! Not that that's anything new...we usually do every weekend.

I still wish I could get rid of that constaint, little (sometimes very big) heaviness that always sits inside my chest! It would be great to feel light and airy!!

Yah, emotions! They are great things but they can be your worst enemy sometimes! If they would be on a level range it would be good but the yo-yo things is very draining.

 

[BigToe]

Movies and snacking sounds like a lovely time!

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hey everybody

Just dropping in quickly to see how everybody's doing. Hope you're all enjoying your weekend.

 

[Mask]

Hi ! All is well here with me. Hope everyone else is doing o.k. this weekend. Did anyone do anything exciting? Not I .


Have a good one!

 

[BlessedMommy05]

Hey Y'all..
Thought I'd jump in to see how y'all are doing, seems everyone is doing ok.. I am doing good so far, last night was hard to motivate myself to get up and do stuff around here,and my son couldnt sleep last night so I was up w/him for a lil while and then crashed.. I did do 3 loads of laundry and more tonight so at least some thing got done! I hope for a better week, tonight not much new, my husband will be off at 9pm so I cant wait, we have 2 days together to hang out and such b4 next weeks Easter.. Good to see y'all.. God bless

BlessedMommy05

 

[jon1]

Good morning all, just popped in again for a bit of quiet time. Thats what I like about this place, nice people and not to much noise, it can get very noisy in some of the other threads. if you know what i mean.
Anyway, I'm still doing ok with the depression. I think having a little sunshine helps, don't you?
So I'll just have a drink, then it's time to take the dog for a walk before church.
Have a good day friends.
A prayer. Lord Jesus, I pray for those people who suffer from depression and who are having a difficult time at the moment. I ask that you send your healing upon them and bring a ray of sunshine into thier lives also.
In Jesus name I ask, Amen.

God bless
John.

 

[notcfmodobviously]

I just want to offer my condolences to all of you who live, everyone suffers in some way, big or small, but it's for a good reason we will all see the fruition eventually.