I was worrying if the thoughts without my will about a compulsion in a church in neos komos that I cant remember were really without my will.
ocd: maybe they were semi-intentional and maybe the popped up while you were doing the cross sign as a compulsion and it may looked like as if you were validating the thoughts without your will about a promise to God not to ever return to that church. you were doing the cross sign as part of the compulsion but in the past you said to God that due to ocd you would validate a promise only if you do the cross sign 3 times. since the compulsion was to do the cross sign, what if the thoughts without your will popped up during that moment and they were semi-intentional due to frustration? what if God accepted the promise? there is a chance you passed from that church in neos kosmos on taxi. maybe you broke a promise to God.
I do not remember. I never made a promise but I had some random thoughts without my will due to ocd. the only thing I remember was telling myself stuff like " I should never return to that church in neos kosmos due to the thoughts without my will"
but what were the thoughts without my will exactly?
I have been thinking about it and analyzing and I was calming myself down. there is a chance in my thoughts, I thought the word "curse" as a thought without my will that was maybe popped up that day in the church of neos kosmos. I am not sure if I thought that word or a similar one. anyway, some seconds later, I walked into a room with a tv on.
The woman on tv was saying a story, do not know if it was fictional or not, about a woman who cursed something. I started worrying. because I may have thought some seconds ago, the same or similar word. the woman continued the story that the woman who cursed, asked from God to be turned on stone and God did it. I freaked more. it reminded me so much of my ocd fear.
I was writing about it on an other reddit topic and I was thinking to write stuff like "was that a coincidence or a sign?" at that moment, I hear my grandma saying to my father stuff like "they are signs. they cant be cleaned"
I freaked more.
ocd: maybe since you were worrying and overanalyzing if the thoughts without your will about a promise to God about the church in neos kosmos are valid or not, maybe a God send you signs to tell you that your thoughts without your will were valid. maybe there is a God or the universe who do not care if you have ocd or not.
ocd: maybe they were semi-intentional and maybe the popped up while you were doing the cross sign as a compulsion and it may looked like as if you were validating the thoughts without your will about a promise to God not to ever return to that church. you were doing the cross sign as part of the compulsion but in the past you said to God that due to ocd you would validate a promise only if you do the cross sign 3 times. since the compulsion was to do the cross sign, what if the thoughts without your will popped up during that moment and they were semi-intentional due to frustration? what if God accepted the promise? there is a chance you passed from that church in neos kosmos on taxi. maybe you broke a promise to God.
I do not remember. I never made a promise but I had some random thoughts without my will due to ocd. the only thing I remember was telling myself stuff like " I should never return to that church in neos kosmos due to the thoughts without my will"
but what were the thoughts without my will exactly?
I have been thinking about it and analyzing and I was calming myself down. there is a chance in my thoughts, I thought the word "curse" as a thought without my will that was maybe popped up that day in the church of neos kosmos. I am not sure if I thought that word or a similar one. anyway, some seconds later, I walked into a room with a tv on.
The woman on tv was saying a story, do not know if it was fictional or not, about a woman who cursed something. I started worrying. because I may have thought some seconds ago, the same or similar word. the woman continued the story that the woman who cursed, asked from God to be turned on stone and God did it. I freaked more. it reminded me so much of my ocd fear.
I was writing about it on an other reddit topic and I was thinking to write stuff like "was that a coincidence or a sign?" at that moment, I hear my grandma saying to my father stuff like "they are signs. they cant be cleaned"
I freaked more.
ocd: maybe since you were worrying and overanalyzing if the thoughts without your will about a promise to God about the church in neos kosmos are valid or not, maybe a God send you signs to tell you that your thoughts without your will were valid. maybe there is a God or the universe who do not care if you have ocd or not.
