Chit Chat (8)

[birdie29]

good morning all.
nice to meet you:
soyunagile7980 and Serenity of Nature
I'm relatively new here
soyunagile7980, painting is something I would love to be good at... my mother painted on occasion.. Impressionist style.. She normally took a picture and reprinted it on campus or anything else she wanted to... I have two paintings of her favorite place to camp. One of the peer where she fished and one of the road in the fall. she was very good with color... the leaves in the fall picture are absolutely gorgeous... She painted it for her mother so there is so much love in it . they are both precious to me.
I have one other that she painted in high school. No-one remembers that I have it and I'm keeping it. I don't think anyone else has her artwork... they went for the jewelry and things of obvious value.

my aunt, her sister was good at ceramics... I have some of her work as well. and my best friend does photography... I have him working on a mardi gras project for me. I've promised him a spot on my wall. That would be an excellent tribute to him I think since he's originally from New Orleans.

 

[soyunagile7980]

Welcome Birdie !!!! So glad to have you in our group. You've told us alot about your family but what about you? How do you spend your days/evenings? Do you have any hobbies or interests that you can tell us about? I'm actually a musician first (going on 41 years now). I only took up painting in the spring of last year. It's a nice "quiet" release, lol
Do you have any prayer requests? My hubby just got back from the hospital. He had a heart attack. Oh, he's all better now...I think that half the globe was praying for him....Don't want to sound selfish at a time like this but I suffered a breakdown as a result. I was driving home from the hospital one night last week and just started sobbing so hard I had to stop the car. Then I got home and painted all night long. I'm just recovering (I think) from all the stress. Listen to me ramble.... tell us about yourself!
P.S. You can call me Yvie. It's alot easier than soyunagile7980, lol!

 

[birdie29]

Welcome Birdie !!!! So glad to have you in our group. You've told us alot about your family but what about you? How do you spend your days/evenings? Do you have any hobbies or interests that you can tell us about? I'm actually a musician first (going on 41 years now). I only took up painting in the spring of last year. It's a nice "quiet" release, lol
Do you have any prayer requests? My hubby just got back from the hospital. He had a heart attack. Oh, he's all better now...I think that half the globe was praying for him....Don't want to sound selfish at a time like this but I suffered a breakdown as a result. I was driving home from the hospital one night last week and just started sobbing so hard I had to stop the car. Then I got home and painted all night long. I'm just recovering (I think) from all the stress. Listen to me ramble.... tell us about yourself!
P.S. You can call me Yvie. It's alot easier than soyunagile7980, lol!

yvie, you really don't want to know all that much about me. trust me. I have too many issues to mention... it is totally better if I talk about others, (or the past) because then I can be more positive. What's going on now (in my life) feels like a slow death.
edit.
that's seems a bit graphic to me... lol. sorry about that.. what i was attempting to say is that my current life seems to be reeling out of control... I dropped in here to have someone to talk to because I really don't have anyone on the outside.. I have no family to speak of... I mean people in my family are still alive and I do know approximately where they live (what town) but I have no contact with most of them and have been dubbed "black sheep" by those who used to be closest.... sister, father, son... the black sheep doesn't come from a depraved lifestyle. (although my closest friend is not "white" like me and that seems to cause some embarrassment to them all) it comes from my lack of income... I do not measure up and I refuse to prey on others... therefore I am unworthy of fellowship.. I get talked about and judged but not loved by them... My only son has decided not to talk to me at all... He rejected me on christmas day (for about the 4th or 5th time)... I am in the process of letting him go from my heart... that is hard but it is what I need to do in order to go on with my life and attempt happiness. I honestly don't want a reconciliation at this point.. I just want to forget... it's not the first, second or third time, ... it's ongoing and I want to be released from it. My mother commited suicide three years ago and I am a little unrested about that as well. (see told you... I'm not the thing to talk about these days. ) I am trying to figure it all out... I'm looking to God for answers... My heart is on my sleeve... Sooo what well meaning people try to say to me when they are trying to help will most likely only insult or tear deeper into a wound that doesn't seem to be healing properly. therefore, I don't really like to talk about me that much... it goes better if i talk about something else.

 

[soyunagile7980]

I will respect your wishes and talk about something else but i thank you for sharing. Now I can pray more specifically. Whether you realize it at the moment or not...God really and truly answers prayer. Not always the way we expect Him too, but He really listens and He gives us His peace in return. When we cast our burdens upon Him, we are relieved. If you can't do that yet, it's okay...you are not alone anymore. We will surround you with love, plain ol' fun stuff and most importantly our prayers. When I joined this forum I was having chest pains from all the stress I was going through. After a few days, I already started to feel better. You have come to the right place Birdie. I send you my warmest wishes, hugs and friendship.

 

[birdie29]

I will respect your wishes and talk about something else but i thank you for sharing. Now I can pray more specifically. Whether you realize it at the moment or not...God really and truly answers prayer. Not always the way we expect Him too, but He really listens and He gives us His peace in return. When we cast our burdens upon Him, we are relieved. If you can't do that yet, it's okay...you are not alone anymore. We will surround you with love, plain ol' fun stuff and most importantly our prayers. When I joined this forum I was having chest pains from all the stress I was going through. After a few days, I already started to feel better. You have come to the right place Birdie. I send you my warmest wishes, hugs and friendship.

I know all the right words... been "churched" and ministered to most of my adult life. I come from non-christian parents... went to church with the neighbors as a child grew up went to church with my son... Had a few christian friends.... I was always the weakest link I think... I spent 15 years or so being a baby (weak) christian and then kind of gave up. Haven't turned from God, but I will probably never be accepted by those who call themselves his. .They will always need evidence of my salvation and I'm quite frankly tired of proving myself. (attitude there).. I know about casting your burdens... lol... not my first rodeo so to speak... it's just a tad overwhelming because I think I may be cursed somehow. My entire life has been either a series of mistakes or just plain ol bad luck. I'm fairly intelligent but can't seem to make a good living... I pored my heart and soul into child-rearing and seemed to have done that wrong too. I'm getting tired and I really don't want to try anymore. Not ready to die but can't really see the point in my existence either... it's a bit perplexing. I've wondered from time to time if I was suicidal because both my mother and my aunt committed suicide but I think I'm probably too much of a coward for that. lol--- At 50, when I'm supposed to be coasting into retirement I feel like I never really got off to a good start.... soooo, yea I know all the church phrases and I know all the good words that christians say to each other... I know I'm probably NOT DOING IT RIGHT. but, it is what it is and I am what I am.... I talk to God at night and I ask questions...I pray for release... I'm just tired is all... I'm fed and warm and in relatively good health.. for that I can be thankful....I have suffered what some of my ancestors have suffered. (family wise) I think there are curses that run in families and I think it may have attached itself to me.... I'm not sure how to free myself, but I'm hopeful and haven't given up completely yet.

at church I was always the guilty one... the one the preacher could look at and cause guilt. I was totally convinced that I could not be saved even though I gave my heart to christ a number of times... lol, I think I spent almost every end of sermon up at the alter seeking salvation because obviously God didn't like the way I did it the time before...lol... that followed me into adulthood... I think I suffer from some sort of guilt complex... in my 20's I spent years suffering from "I think I've committed the unforgivable sin syndrome) ... Now, I stere away from those who might inflict guilt on me... that gets mistaken for depravity at times by christians but it's just me feeling unlovable I think and trying not to waller in my own guilt... Now, with the death of my mother, the rejection of my son and the rejection of the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with shortly after my mother died, I just seem to be spiraling. (I think after he got a good look at my family he decided it was too much of a risk).. I'm sure God's will will ultimately be done because he doesn't have accidents... but for now I'm just tired of trying... If people don't accept me, I'll just move on... If no-one is left to move on to, I'll deal...

 

[birdie29]

I am gonna shut up now... i am definitely not having my best day. sorry you guys...

 

[angelwind]

Been reading your posts birdie...try to hang in there girl...50 is not that old...some of my best times in the Lord have come to me in my 60's...He is a faithful Saviour, if He began a good work in you, "HE" will finish it...and He and He alone can see our hearts, He knows each sheep by name and it is not the Father's will that He lose one of His own sheep. We are not in Christ of our own strength in the first place...salvation is of the Lord. ((((((((hugs))))))).

 

[angelwind]

I know all the right words... been "churched" and ministered to most of my adult life. I come from non-christian parents... went to church with the neighbors as a child grew up went to church with my son... Had a few christian friends.... I was always the weakest link I think... I spent 15 years or so being a baby (weak) christian and then kind of gave up. Haven't turned from God, but I will probably never be accepted by those who call themselves his. .They will always need evidence of my salvation and I'm quite frankly tired of proving myself. (attitude there).. I know about casting your burdens... lol... not my first rodeo so to speak... it's just a tad overwhelming because I think I may be cursed somehow. My entire life has been either a series of mistakes or just plain ol bad luck. I'm fairly intelligent but can't seem to make a good living... I pored my heart and soul into child-rearing and seemed to have done that wrong too. I'm getting tired and I really don't want to try anymore. Not ready to die but can't really see the point in my existence either... it's a bit perplexing. I've wondered from time to time if I was suicidal because both my mother and my aunt committed suicide but I think I'm probably too much of a coward for that. lol--- At 50, when I'm supposed to be coasting into retirement I feel like I never really got off to a good start.... soooo, yea I know all the church phrases and I know all the good words that christians say to each other... I know I'm probably NOT DOING IT RIGHT. but, it is what it is and I am what I am.... I talk to God at night and I ask questions...I pray for release... I'm just tired is all... I'm fed and warm and in relatively good health.. for that I can be thankful....I have suffered what some of my ancestors have suffered. (family wise) I think there are curses that run in families and I think it may have attached itself to me.... I'm not sure how to free myself, but I'm hopeful and haven't given up completely yet.

at church I was always the guilty one... the one the preacher could look at and cause guilt. I was totally convinced that I could not be saved even though I gave my heart to christ a number of times... lol, I think I spent almost every end of sermon up at the alter seeking salvation because obviously God didn't like the way I did it the time before...lol... that followed me into adulthood... I think I suffer from some sort of guilt complex... in my 20's I spent years suffering from "I think I've committed the unforgivable sin syndrome) ... Now, I stere away from those who might inflict guilt on me... that gets mistaken for depravity at times by christians but it's just me feeling unlovable I think and trying not to waller in my own guilt... Now, with the death of my mother, the rejection of my son and the rejection of the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with shortly after my mother died, I just seem to be spiraling. (I think after he got a good look at my family he decided it was too much of a risk).. I'm sure God's will will ultimately be done because he doesn't have accidents... but for now I'm just tired of trying... If people don't accept me, I'll just move on... If no-one is left to move on to, I'll deal...

I am gonna shut up now... i am definitely not having my best day. sorry you guys...

Been reading your posts birdie...try to hang in there girl...50 is not that old...some of my best times in the Lord have come to me in my 60's...He is a faithful Saviour, if He began a good work in you, "HE" will finish it...and He and He alone can see our hearts, He knows each sheep by name and it is not the Father's will that He lose one of His own sheep. We are not in Christ of our own strength in the first place...salvation is of the Lord. ((((((((hugs))))))).

As far as being cursed, we all have been born under a curse since Adam fell in the garden...you are not unique...but it pays to think about this, whether we "feel" it or not, Christ became a curse for us...Ga 3:13-14. He took the wrath of God for us, you have peace with God now birdie...even tho sin still gets away with murder in this present age. The best Christian still does things that are sinful...yet we are redeemed by Christ's blood. Try to see the positive side of the truth in God's word.

 

[davedajobauk]

@ Birdie

Don't give up!!!

Walk where your heart leads you to feel most comfortable, and keep walking
even, with one step at a time

Redvers [Reds'] was also of mixed race.... British/African
A closer brother to me than my own siblings were

He died of Liver and Kidney failure... aged 34 years
and I was 'turned-away'.... from a lifestyle of, 'drink' raise:

I have had a really poor day today [physically]

But am feeling more 'able' tonight
and, just had to pop in and play catch-up [before bed]

I had a bowl of Heinz Cream of Chicken Soup, earlier that Mary heated-up for me
and since that 'meal' I have had a hot blackcurrant drink [with soluble meds]
because I had a slight temperature

I would urge you Sis' .... not-to look backwards, but to look forward, to 'better times'


God forgives those who seek Him with all their heart
He will 'teach' you to TRUST in Him and will guide your steps
whether or not, you realize what He is doing [as He does so]
Just leave it all to Him and above all else 'keep walking'


That you SEE, that the 'ways of men' are not God's ways
That you also REALIZE, that you ARE ...able to change direction
~given CHOICE to turn and make that change in direction
and choose, to walk in the light

amen

your Bro'

dave

If, it be at-all important to you, that you arrive at the BEST DESTINATION
Prayerfully make a good-decision at each and every crossroads​

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

Birdie....sending you my love and prayers
Hang in there...better days ARE coming.
Your faith and strength are inspiring...feel free to vent any time you have the need.
There will be no judging here.
May God bless your dear heart with His Presence and peace

 

[angelwind]

@ Birdie

Don't give up!!!

Walk where your heart leads you to feel most comfortable, and keep walking
even, with one step at a time

Redvers [Reds'] was also of mixed race.... British/African
A closer brother to me than my own siblings were

He died of Liver and Kidney failure... aged 34 years
and I was 'turned-away'.... from a lifestyle of, 'drink' raise:

I have had a really poor day today [physically]

But am feeling more 'able' tonight
and, just had to pop in and play catch-up [before bed]

I had a bowl of Heinz Cream of Chicken Soup, earlier that Mary heated-up for me
and since that 'meal' I have had a hot blackcurrant drink [with soluble meds]
because I had a slight temperature

I would urge you Sis' .... not-to look backwards, but to look forward, to 'better times'


God forgives those who seek Him with all their heart
He will 'teach' you to TRUST in Him and will guide your steps
whether or not, you realize what He is doing [as He does so]
Just leave it all to Him and above all else 'keep walking'


That you SEE, that the 'ways of men' are not God's ways
That you also REALIZE, that you ARE ...able to change direction
~given CHOICE to turn and make that change in direction
and choose, to walk in the light

amen

your Bro'

dave

If, it be at-all important to you, that you arrive at the BEST DESTINATION

Prayerfully make a good-decision at each and every crossroads​

I am glad Mary is there Dave, be sure to get some extra rest....((((((((hugs)))))))).

 

[davedajobauk]

I am glad Mary is there Dave, be sure to get some extra rest....((((((((hugs)))))))).

Me too

I am sure that He brought our paths together
It is wonderful ~the walk we now 'share'

A marvelous blessing....

Have a good night Sis' Shirley

your Bro'

dave

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

Rest and get well Dave

 

[birdie29]

Sorry I lost my cool today all... really really sorry.... I didn't plan all that, I just dumped it out... been a tad angry today... feeling sorry for myself I guess. I cried a little, work was hard tonight but I was among friends (I think)...all in all we are good to each other at the new job. some of them I already knew and had worked with before, some of them were nice surprises... I kept them too late though... I feel bad about that... MY boss gave us way to much to get done today.. some of it still did not get done. (three pages worth of this and that... ) We all pulled together and worked as a team. MOST of it was finished when we left. I don't really like being a boss for that very reason.. I have a boss who gives me too much to do and therefore I work my staff too hard. That is not what I want to do.. I understand that hard work happens sometimes, but those who are willing to work always get the shaft with my company while those who are not just slide by... good crew tonight though.. love them guys

HOPE DAVE GETS BETTER!!!!

 

[birdie29]

Me too

I am sure that He brought our paths together
It is wonderful ~the walk we now 'share'

A marvelous blessing....

Have a good night Sis' Shirley

your Bro'

dave

SMILES

 

[birdie29]

Welcome Birdie !!!! So glad to have you in our group. You've told us alot about your family but what about you? How do you spend your days/evenings? Do you have any hobbies or interests that you can tell us about? I'm actually a musician first (going on 41 years now). I only took up painting in the spring of last year. It's a nice "quiet" release, lol
Do you have any prayer requests? My hubby just got back from the hospital. He had a heart attack. Oh, he's all better now...I think that half the globe was praying for him....Don't want to sound selfish at a time like this but I suffered a breakdown as a result. I was driving home from the hospital one night last week and just started sobbing so hard I had to stop the car. Then I got home and painted all night long. I'm just recovering (I think) from all the stress. Listen to me ramble.... tell us about yourself!
P.S. You can call me Yvie. It's alot easier than soyunagile7980, lol!

sorry Yvie

 

[davedajobauk]

Rest and get well Dave

Thank you Gail Sis'

Sorry I lost my cool today all... really really sorry....
I didn't plan all that, I just dumped it out...
been a tad angry today... feeling sorry for myself I guess.
I cried a little, work was hard tonight but I was among friends (I think)...
all in all we are good to each other at the new job.
some of them I already knew and had worked with before,
some of them were nice surprises...
I kept them too late though... I feel bad about that...
MY boss gave us way to much to get done today..
some of it still did not get done.
(three pages worth of this and that... )
We all pulled together and worked as a team.
MOST of it was finished when we left.
I don't really like being a boss for that very reason..
I have a boss who gives me too much to do
and therefore I work my staff too hard.
That is not what I want to do..
I understand that hard work happens sometimes,
but those who are willing to work always get the shaft with my company
while those who are not just slide by... good crew tonight though..
love them guys

HOPE DAVE GETS BETTER!!!!

Thank you Birdie Sis'
I WILL 'be'... where our Lord wants me to be [no worries]


I found this elsewhere in Forums and 'repped it'

I would like to share it here too!
I have seen it before, in an email, some years ago....
entitled : A Letter From God


Dear Daughter & Son,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but I am the complete expression of love. 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things. Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child? John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad.

Almighty God




Thank you for your health wishes
You 'wear' your hearts, on your sleeves

your Bro'

dave

 

[angelwind]

Me too

I am sure that He brought our paths together
It is wonderful ~the walk we now 'share'

A marvelous blessing....

Have a good night Sis' Shirley

your Bro'

dave

I love these sort of hugs.

 

[davedajobauk]

I love these sort of hugs.

Thank you and good morning to you Shirley Sis'

dave

 

[angelwind]

I got up at 3am...have a sore throat again...I got cold in the house yesterday. Boy, I would have a hard time in a colder climate...LOL.