God through action (being the direct cause) or inaction (not intervening to prevent) destroys almost everything I care about having.
God does nothing ( again action/inaction) to help me while I beg for help.
God continues to pile spiritual things on me despite the fact that I don’t care.
And somehow this is supposed to make me love and trust him.
can anyone explain how this is supposed to work?
I went through horrendous trials for 20+ years wondering what was going on with no comprehension of what was happening. Questions arose why he wasnt answering, why he was letting me go through such pain, yet I knew what the Word said about who He was. I wasnt experiencing knowing his faithfulness, seeing his deliverance, and his love for me.
It reminded me of the parable of the seed, the part where trial and persecution came, and since it didnt have root, no fruit came. I kept on even though I didnt understand. It wasnt until I came to the end of my rope and I stopped trying to manipulate the situations of my life, is when I began to see him move in power. It was the most valuable lesson of my walk. He began to teach me and reveal to me He IS all those things you are longing to experience....his care, his love, his deliverance, answers to prayer, his faithfulness.
I was just like you, i didnt understand,,,,until he revealed it to me. Now I understand I can trust him, that he is completely faithful, a mighty deliverer and how much he does care.
He IS all of those things no matter what you are experiencing. He is not a liar. He is mighty and powerful and loving, caring and kind. He will reveal his character and you will once and for all understand. And when you get it, you will KNOW he is who he says he is.
The BEST place to be with God, is when ur back is up against the wall, you have NO strength left, and help is not to be found within 10000 miles. Because THATS when he moves, when we take our hand of flesh completely off the situation once and for all. When the flesh is out of the way striving, trying to manipulate and make things work out,,,,,its as if he stands back saying, When are you going to take your hand OFF of it? I see his power when i come to my complete end.
Paul the apostle said when i am weak, then i am strong, that the POWER OF CHRIST MAY REST ON ME.
P.S. Word of warning......Being angry at Him and saying he is not who he says he is, only brings swift judgment. One time i was so angry and blurted out something. The moment i said it, my car engine started on fire. Trust me,,,i have been there. His anger was kindled and he showed me the things he has had his hand on in my life, that i took for granted, can be pulled right out from under me. I knew it was the Lord and I repented immediately. The question is will we still serve him when our life doesnt go the way we want it to?
He WILL show you, and its a gigantic lesson you will NEVER ever ever forget.