Hi there, I've been a poster on and off this forum for about 10 years. I discovered it back in college when I was a militant atheist and looking for a fight. Which I found indeed.
Over the years I have listened and learned and read and thought, and eventually my position changed dramatically. I am now a pro-life conservative, where before I was adamantly pro-choice, for example. I've read many versions of the Bible many times, and been to many different churches. I've become a supporter of Christians, and feel and argue that a return to Christian ethics and beliefs is most likely the way to turn our country around.
I've also become comfortable with the idea that others personal experiences with religion are not up for argument. I cannot tell someone who feels a closeness with God that they're deluded, for who's to say that their experience isn't valid? Only the person having that experience knows.
However, I still don't believe.
I've come to grips with the fact that I can't force myself to believe in something that I don't believe in. And no amount of soul-searching seems to lead me to a place of belief. I can no more believe in the Christian religion than I can the Muslim, or the Hindu.
I'm beginning to think this just may be the bitter irony that God of course would not give a person like me the direct experience that I need to foment belief, because then there would be no need for faith.
However, I seem to lack the spiritual or mental apparatus for accepting anything based on faith, which extends to other matters than religion as well.
So my question is: Is there hope of salvation for someone who attempts to have faith and belief, but possibly is never able to achieve either?
Over the years I have listened and learned and read and thought, and eventually my position changed dramatically. I am now a pro-life conservative, where before I was adamantly pro-choice, for example. I've read many versions of the Bible many times, and been to many different churches. I've become a supporter of Christians, and feel and argue that a return to Christian ethics and beliefs is most likely the way to turn our country around.
I've also become comfortable with the idea that others personal experiences with religion are not up for argument. I cannot tell someone who feels a closeness with God that they're deluded, for who's to say that their experience isn't valid? Only the person having that experience knows.
However, I still don't believe.
I've come to grips with the fact that I can't force myself to believe in something that I don't believe in. And no amount of soul-searching seems to lead me to a place of belief. I can no more believe in the Christian religion than I can the Muslim, or the Hindu.
I'm beginning to think this just may be the bitter irony that God of course would not give a person like me the direct experience that I need to foment belief, because then there would be no need for faith.
However, I seem to lack the spiritual or mental apparatus for accepting anything based on faith, which extends to other matters than religion as well.
So my question is: Is there hope of salvation for someone who attempts to have faith and belief, but possibly is never able to achieve either?