Bipolar Disorder...

[Rosa Mystica]

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[Laurel Crowned]

Thanks Rosa,

With all this prayer support... I know that tomorrow will be survivable. Lord willing, it will even be enjoyable. I know that atleast 4 of my students are going to hug me and tell me they missed me. I will think of something to tell my co-workers. And when I get right down to it: It's Wednesday... which is a short day. School lets out at 2:30. My students go to Art for 1 hour. That just leaves Thursday and Friday.

LC

 

[Rosa Mystica]

...when I get right down to it: It's Wednesday... which is a short day. School lets out at 2:30. My students go to Art for 1 hour. That just leaves Thursday and Friday.

Yeah, I guess that's one way you could think about it. If I have a breakdown tomorrow, and if it's severe enough that I end up in the ER, I'll just tell my co-workers that I'm "severely sick" (they don't need to know about this). I don't work Friday, and my shifts aren't lengthy to begin w/, so maybe I'll survive.

Hope the transition back to work is an easy one for you (or as easy as it can possibly be).

& ers,
Rosa

 

[Laurel Crowned]

Hey Rosa...

You know... at some point... I think we just need to LAUGH! We are two women passionately loved by God fearing what tomorrow will bring. You ever watch action movies where the heroes go in to a dangerous situation in battle fatigues standing back to back??? Makes for good television. We need to do that... minus the cheesy backgrounb music and fake guns. If the sword of the Spirit... which is the word of God... is given to us as a sword... we should go all Highlander and kick some butt.

My choice weapon for tomorrow? GOD HAS NOT GIVEN YOU A SPIRIT OF TIMIDITY OR FEAR. What's your scripture of choice??? If you get my back in prayer I'll get yours. As often as I feel tense and stressed tomorrow I will pray that scripture for you. I believe that there is an element of spiritual warfare at work in the life of every Christian. With mental illness at work as well... the battle is harder because you don't know what's chemical and what's spiritual. Even if we should stress out to the nth degree tomorrow... God has got our backs.

LC

 

[alaurie]

Hi Allye,

The "group" I found was CF. I'm not one for group counseling... but this online community has been a blessing and a half. People like you and other women that I have connected with have really provided that support at times when I wouldn't call a friend. Being able to come online here in the middle of the night or several times a day... I don't feel like I'm being a burden here. Not that my friends would make me feel like a burden.... I would make myself feel like one.

I've been writing and journaling for years... so this forum allows me to express myself in the manner I best express myself. I think I've grown more in the last month that I've been reaching out on CF than I've grown in the last two years.

I'm going back to work tomorrow... so I'd appreciate your prayers.

LC

 

[alaurie]

Hi Allye,

The "group" I found was CF. I'm not one for group counseling... but this online community has been a blessing and a half. People like you and other women that I have connected with have really provided that support at times when I wouldn't call a friend. Being able to come online here in the middle of the night or several times a day... I don't feel like I'm being a burden here. Not that my friends would make me feel like a burden.... I would make myself feel like one.

I've been writing and journaling for years... so this forum allows me to express myself in the manner I best express myself. I think I've grown more in the last month that I've been reaching out on CF than I've grown in the last two years.

I'm going back to work tomorrow... so I'd appreciate your prayers.

LC

Amen LC about CF! You have an incredible gift of expression! Have you read Touched with Fire: Manic Depressive Illness and the Artistic Temperament? I haven't but intend to when I'm feeling better.

I will pray about work.
Allye

ps- I meant the medical group- doctors, NP etc. I'm not much on support groups either.

 

[Laurel Crowned]

Hey Allye,

No, I haven't read the book... but like you, when I feel better I will look it up. Right now, I'm exhausted. I am going to work because I don't feel as fragile as I did... but I am just so exhausted.

My medical group is Kaiser Permanente. I've been a Kaiser member since I was a kid. I just switched from on facility to another closer to my home.

 

[InHim23]

TO GOD BE THE GLORY

I am new here, but I was set free just about 2 years ago. I will explain how.
After about a month of accepting Jesus as my LORD and SAVIOR, I went to a revival that God told me to go to. And I went and I was Healed.
I heard for the first time EVER that I was already healed. I was like, this makes no sense to me... But I kept hearing the word and faith grew inside of me. I head how Jesus healed us 2000 years ago by HIS stripes. That HE took our sins and sickness opon the cross. And passages in the bible where peoples faith made them whole. So I knew that, if their faith made them whole, then mine could as well. I was taught how the importance of confessing, so I started believing with my heart, and confessing with my mouth! I started thanking God for healing me!!! Praising God and thanking him for taking all my sins and sickness upon the cross, and by His Stripes, I AM HEALED!!! Saying, "I think you God that you did not give me a spirit of fear, but of love power and a SOUND MIND." "Thank you for Healing me" "Thank you Lord" "BY HIS STRIPES I AM EALED" I then felt the Power of GOD descend upon me, and the severe depression and thoughts of suicide leave. It litterally lifted right out of my body... I cried for probably 30 minutes, then I was filled with the wonder presence of GOD. I was totally healed. Freed!!! With a sound mind!!! and filled with a spirit of LOVE!!!
He can do the same for you, keeping hearing the word of God. Read Romans 10:17
If none has told you before, let me tell you. "You are Healed!!!" 1 Peter 2:24
He wishes above ALL THINGS that yoe be in good health and prosper.
I am free today, now for 2 years, with no symptoms to retern after I was healded and off meds, because whom the son sets free, is free indeed!
God Bless you all!!!
InHim23

 

[Staind]

I wish I would have one of these experiences but sadly I haven't...yet.


Congratulations on your recovery !

 

[PetraFan007]

Why is it works for some people and not others (you know, the word-of-faith stuff?) I tried it but I guess I don't have enough faith. Blah. Congrats though.

 

[alaurie]

I WAS DIAGNOSSED WITH BIPOLAR/MANIC DEPRESSION. I was set free just about 2 years ago. I will explain how.
After about a month of accepting Jesus as my LORD and SAVIOR, I went to a revival that God told me to go to. And I went and I was Healed.
I heard for the first time EVER that I was already healed. I was like, this makes no sense to me... But I kept hearing the word and faith grew inside of me. I head how Jesus healed us 2000 years ago by HIS stripes. That HE took our sins and sickness opon the cross. And passages in the bible where peoples faith made them whole. So I knew that, if their faith made them whole, then mine could as well. I was taught how the importance of confessing, so I started believing with my heart, and confessing with my mouth! I started thanking God for healing me!!! Praising God and thanking him for taking all my sins and sickness upon the cross, and by His Stripes, I AM HEALED!!! Saying, "I think you God that you did not give me a spirit of fear, but of love power and a SOUND MIND." "Thank you for Healing me" "Thank you Lord" "BY HIS STRIPES I AM EALED" I then felt the Power of GOD descend upon me, and the severe depression and thoughts of suicide leave. It litterally lifted right out of my body... I cried for probably 30 minutes, then I was filled with the wonder presence of GOD. I was totally healed. Freed!!! With a sound mind!!! and filled with a spirit of LOVE!!!
He can do the same for you, keeping hearing the word of God. Read Romans 10:17
If none has told you before, let me tell you. "You are Healed!!!" 1 Peter 2:24
He wishes above ALL THINGS that yoe be in good health and prosper.
I am free today, now for 2 years, with no symptoms to retern after I was healded and off meds, because whom the son sets free, is free indeed!
God Bless you all!!! Let me know how I can help...
InHim23

Please show more sensitivity with your posts in the edification thread. While God does certainly heal, there are those of us posting here who have prayed for it and God hasn't chosen to do this for us. We can identify with Paul who in 2nd Corinthinans states "...there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." vs 7-9 NIV

This is great for the praise report forum.

Also heed Proverbs 25:20.

Thanks,
Allye

 

[InHim23]

There is no where in the bible that reads that pauls thorn in the flesh was a sickness. Lets go back to the Old testament where God said to Isreal, "If you don't kill those Canaanites when you possess the land, they will be thorns in your side. They will torment you." Numbers 33:55, Joshua 23:13, Judges 2:3
Paul told us exactly what that torn was in 2 cor 12:7 "And less I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of his revelations, there was given to me a torn in the flesh, the messenger of satan to buffet me, lest I should be exhalted above measure." You can't draw a line between sickness and satan... Sickness is of the devil Sickness came with the fall of man. Romas 5:17, "For if by one man's offence death reigned by one; much more they which receive abundance of grace and of the gift of righteousness shall reign in life by one, Jesus Christ.)
18 Therefore as by the offence of one judgment came upon all men to condemnation; even so by the righteousness of one the free gift came upon all men unto justification of life.
19 For as by one man's disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous.
God Bless,
InHim23

 

[InHim23]

Matthew 8 erse 16-17 says, "When the even was come, they brought unto him many that were possesed with devils: and he cast out the spirits with his word, and he healded all that were sick:
17 That it might be fulfilled by Esaias the prohpet, saying, HIMSELF TOOK OUR INFIRMITIES, AND BARE OUR SICKNESSES."
Jesus Christ took all of our sicknesses, and by whose tripes we are healed. isaiah 53;4, 1 peter 2;24
God Bless,
InHim23

 

[InHim23]

Hey guys, it can and will work for you. God is not a respector of persons... I am nobody special, I simply took God at his word. It says in Matthew 17 that ".. Himself took our infirmites, and bare our sicknesses." Jesus took everyone of our sickess and deseaes by whose stripes we ARE healed...
Please let me knowhow I can help... I can recomend some good books to read... Keep standing on Gods word... Doctors told me that I would have to live with this disease and chemical imbalance the rest of my life... But I got ahold of Gods word, and didn't not let go... If the devil can keep you in the realm of reason, he will defeat you evertime,BUT if you can kepp GOD in the realm of faith, you will defeat the devil everytime!
God Bless,
In Him

 

[alaurie]

Hi again In Him,

I can only speak for myself, but suspect some other posters in this thread and in the "struggles, depression, and recovery" section of this forum agree with me that it is a wonderful place for us to be able as Christians with acknowledged problems to support and encourage each other in a spirit of acceptance. Some people are where they are, sometimes that is not a pleasant place even though we love the Lord deeply.

Please carefully read my answer above and several other's answers in the depression thread and realize that you have wounded some people- either made them defensive or discouraged that their "faith isn't strong enough" to be healed. I know this wasn't your intention and I sincerely believe that you want to help. Again, I can only speak for myself in asking that you pray for me and also leave this as a place where fellow sufferers can find mutual support and encouragement. He doesn't heal everyone instantanously and some of us are getting great benefit by God's working this way - comfort, support, and friendship in the body of Christ.

If you ever need us we're here for you.

Thanks and God bless,
Allye

 

[Laurel Crowned]

Why is it works for some people and not others (you know, the word-of-faith stuff?) I tried it but I guess I don't have enough faith. Blah. Congrats though.

PetraFann007,

PLEASE don't fall into that pit of believing you don't have enough faith. If having "enough faith" was enough to heal people... there wouldn't be any sick people. They'd be lining up to get more faith. We're told to bear each other's burdens and to support people with the comfort we have received. I haven't been healed of my bipolar disorder. I also felt the condemnation of people who said I didn't have enough faith. People would not say that to somebody with cancer or diabetes... nor would they tell those people to go off meds or ignore medical advice.

For what it's worth... I believe by faith that our God is with me as I live with my bipolar disoder. He has seen each and every tear that has fallen from my eyes. He has put people in my life to give me the love and support that I need. He lead me from the mission field to the Bay Area where I was able to hook up with a clinic and get diagnosed. My life is not prefect-- far from it... but God has given the doctors who treat me wisdom and I have a degree of peace that was impossible for me years ago.

Do not beat yourself up. Do not let anybody put you up under condemnation. I praise God for people who have been immediately healed of depression, addiction, and anything else. I used to wonder "why not me, Lord?" Now I stop comparing myself to other people and I just thank God for the periods of mental clarity and peace that I have. He said that troubles would come to us in this world. My Bipolar is mine... but out of the comfort I have received from God I have sought to comfort others. Please check out my journal: The Adventure of Bipolar Girl. Because I'm weak... God has had to be my strength and I NEVER lose sight of that fact. My prayers are with you.

Peace,
LC

 

[alaurie]

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Just wanted to touch base with you all. How are you? Rosa M, I'm praying.

Allye

 

[alaurie]

I'm asking for updates, so I should probably give one as well. I started on Depakote extended release at the beginning of last week and am feeling better. Not well, but better. Sleep and productivity at work are both much improved.

LC- I read you're journel about the scripture of Paul's thorn in the flesh. I agree it doesn't have to mean prophecies as was debated in a post above. Gifts can certainly cause a need for something to keep us humble and oddly, people with bipolar are often extremely gifted.

Love,
Allye

 

[Laurel Crowned]

I'm asking for updates, so I should probably give one as well. I started on Depakote extended release at the beginning of last week and am feeling better. Not well, but better. Sleep and productivity at work are both much improved.

I'm glad you are feeling better. I understand the distinction you make between "better" and "well." While I feel better since my meds were upped... I'm sleeping and I'm atleast able to go back to work... I'm far from well. The depression is lurking... the prayers and support are definitely making a difference... as is having somewhere to come and express my thoughts and needs.

I hope your sleep continues and I hope that you get well really soon.

Peace,
LC

 

[servant4ever]

I know this may be answered in the thread, but what is bipolar?

servant4ever