My mother has a daughter who is schizophrenic and a couple of weeks ago the Lord used their situation to confirm what I learned during the peak of intrusive thoughts and I just wanted to share with you guys and I hope that it really encourages you all and allows light to shine through the dark trial.
When I suffered horribly from the thoughts about a year ago I used to be so upset because I worried about how God would see me. I foolishly thought that He was angry with me and that everytime I had a bad thought against Him, the farther He was away from me. But in actually, He was closer than I could ever imagine. And He is closer to you too.
I would get so worried for mother because her daughter would always shout out vile things at her and everytime I heard what she said about mother I'd get so worried for mother. I wondered how she could take it? Hearing those things. But all she had to say was that her daughter had a good heart. And it didnt add up because she would say those things, yet she would kiss mother, and lean in her, and love her through her actions. And I didnt understand it then when I was suffering, but God showed me through them. Mother knows her daughter loves her and that it is not her, but her sickness that is talking. It was amazing to see her daughter rub on her leg and kiss her mother, after all was said and done. MOther sees her daughter's actions, and allows them to speak, not her words from her sickness. And God does the same for us. Yes our mind sometimes shoots crazy offensive things at Him, but He sees our heart, He sees our desire to pray instead, to praise instead, to not give up, to follow Him even when it hurts. Those are the things that speak, thoughts come and go, but our love for Him shine. Even when we cant move, we cant pray, we cant sing, God sees the burning desire in our heart to love HIm. Sure, sometimes we may consciously say forget it, sometimes we may say consciously say we're done, but at the end of the day God knows that it is our frustration and pain, and not our true heart that speaks.
Mother knows her child before the sickness befell on her. ANd even though her daughter says those things, mother knows what type of child her daughter is. Before we were formed, God knew us. And He knew our heart. And just because you may struggle now, doesn't mean He has forgot. We must continue to draw near to Him, and He will draw near to us.
I speak as one who has suffered tremendously and, even though the thoughts come but not in that harsh magnitude it has gotten way better, still remember. It feels so distant though, but I always pray for you all. I may not be on here everyday, but I thank God for this site because it lets us know we're not alone and I thank Him for His Holy Spirit, that teaches and leads us into all truth. God will not forsake you, stick to His word, and not how things "seem". The physical can be very misleading, but trust in His word and press, rest in Him and you will find peace.
My brothers and sisters, I pray for you
And may God bless you. There is deliverance in
Jesus.
we're in this together
When I suffered horribly from the thoughts about a year ago I used to be so upset because I worried about how God would see me. I foolishly thought that He was angry with me and that everytime I had a bad thought against Him, the farther He was away from me. But in actually, He was closer than I could ever imagine. And He is closer to you too.
I would get so worried for mother because her daughter would always shout out vile things at her and everytime I heard what she said about mother I'd get so worried for mother. I wondered how she could take it? Hearing those things. But all she had to say was that her daughter had a good heart. And it didnt add up because she would say those things, yet she would kiss mother, and lean in her, and love her through her actions. And I didnt understand it then when I was suffering, but God showed me through them. Mother knows her daughter loves her and that it is not her, but her sickness that is talking. It was amazing to see her daughter rub on her leg and kiss her mother, after all was said and done. MOther sees her daughter's actions, and allows them to speak, not her words from her sickness. And God does the same for us. Yes our mind sometimes shoots crazy offensive things at Him, but He sees our heart, He sees our desire to pray instead, to praise instead, to not give up, to follow Him even when it hurts. Those are the things that speak, thoughts come and go, but our love for Him shine. Even when we cant move, we cant pray, we cant sing, God sees the burning desire in our heart to love HIm. Sure, sometimes we may consciously say forget it, sometimes we may say consciously say we're done, but at the end of the day God knows that it is our frustration and pain, and not our true heart that speaks.
Mother knows her child before the sickness befell on her. ANd even though her daughter says those things, mother knows what type of child her daughter is. Before we were formed, God knew us. And He knew our heart. And just because you may struggle now, doesn't mean He has forgot. We must continue to draw near to Him, and He will draw near to us.
I speak as one who has suffered tremendously and, even though the thoughts come but not in that harsh magnitude it has gotten way better, still remember. It feels so distant though, but I always pray for you all. I may not be on here everyday, but I thank God for this site because it lets us know we're not alone and I thank Him for His Holy Spirit, that teaches and leads us into all truth. God will not forsake you, stick to His word, and not how things "seem". The physical can be very misleading, but trust in His word and press, rest in Him and you will find peace.
My brothers and sisters, I pray for you
And may God bless you. There is deliverance in
Jesus.
we're in this together
