I know, I went to church and prayed last night that God would have a message for me. Then at church, it was exactly what I asked for! I feel very encouraged. But the devil keeps bringing stuff up in my life. For instance, one day I was rebuking the devil out and I accidentally said the Holy S****. I was so scared after that happened. I was scared God was done with me for continuously sinning even though I knew it was wrong. I had so much anxiety I wasn't eating, I lost about 10 pounds in a week. Ever since that I've been truly seeking the Lord, because I realized I didn't know Him. I get scared thinking about it, cause Jesus said even the careless words he judges....but I'm trying to put that behind me right now. I'm also going on a women's conference and I'm so excited, my Pastor made away for me to go Thank God for this amazing opportunity! I know God has not given up on me. So I won't give up on Him. Even though, the devil tries to fill my mind with bad thoughts a lot,I got prayer today, and it was so amazing, I love feeling the Holy Spirit, but the devil was slowly creeping up in my thoughts its horrible. I'm trying not to entertain him, cause I know, resist the devil and he shall flee. I pray God will never take His spirit from me. I love God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Then again, I'm just (like literally just) starting to get to know them. I'm excited