Autism a spiritual problem?

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I cannot deal with NT people; I feel I am always being judged as not spiritual enough. Because treatment has helped so much and I appear normal, people have higher expectations of me than I can fulfill. I get angry (?) and retreat into myself. I recently retook the 50 question AQ test and scored 46. I used to take the high score as strong confirmation of AS, but now I see that it speaks to the degree of severity of my AS. I am alone. I have my daughter and an ex-girlfriend 2500 miles away. The only people I have been able to relate to are flawed people like myself.

Speaking of depressing stuff, is really hard for me to make friends like i did not have met with friends since i was in high school. Even in high school i seated alone in the breaks wondering and suffering was what wrong with me. Only when i was 30 after reading a lot about autism i realised i may have it.
I sort of enjoy the loneliness now.

i score 37 in the aq test.
and have all these symptons for example: