There's a very specific reason for that. I DON'T THINK ON THIS LEVEL. I DON'T THINK OR OPERATE ON YOUR LEVEL. I don't even know what it feels like honestly.
To elaborate on these words, I honestly dont even know what it feels like to utter half the things that were expressed in this thread and elsewhere on these boards. I mean I just dont get it. Im like a deer caught in headlights FOR REAL!!! But my mentor did warn me about all these things, so I sorta kinda understand it now I guess *shrugs*.
When I was a baby in Christ, around 19-20 years old (at an age lacking in maturity, morality and wisdom), I was not adorned with ANY elaborate speeches or explanations. I wish. Didnt even get the purpose of investing my time or energy in studying scripture. I honestly didnt think I would gain an ounce of wisdom from reading the Bible. Thats how I secretly and truly felt. Then one day my mentor issued a directive: Read the New Testament.
In that moment it NEVER crossed my mind to respond with protests and defiance. I didnt retort with egregious statements such as Reading the Bible has nothing to do with it! or I rebuke you Satan! You are just trying to oppress me with a spirit of legalism! or The Grace of God will carry me through all things so scriptures not important!
I mean really .... WOW .... just WOW. By the grace of God I cant even fathom what that reaction even feels like. THANK GOODNESS!!! No, I didnt rebel/rebuke or fuss or fight or chastise my mentor in any manner. Instead, I replied with a modest one-worded answer: Okay. Then I earnestly followed through on the commitment I just made.
I nodded off at times; I zoned out at times; I was skeptical of some of the text at times; I thought NONE of it could be real at times; and I certainly thought there were MORE pressing things I could do with my time MOST times. But I was truly ecstatic when I saw this task through to completion. Yes sir!!! Couldnt wait to tell my mentor the good news!!!
I finished reading the New Testament! I beamed. All smiles.
What did you learn from it?
Hun?
That cant be right. Read it again.
My smile disintegrated in a flash; however, I followed orders without grumbling or complaining. So I am truly not accustomed to the wave of rebellion and resistance being expressed against the things of God and the Holy Spirit b/c all of the above is what MY LEVEL AND TESTIMONY truly look like.
Stay blessed all
Poddie
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