Peace DeerGlow, if you're still worried about this, the unpardonable sin, is simply Final Impenitence a refusal to repent, even unto death. Final Impenitence manifests itself in six forms:
-Despair
-Obstinacy in sin
-Knowingly resisting the truth
-Spiritual envy
-General impenitence
-Presumption
I'm considering doing a blog entry on the unforgivable sin, for you and anyone who is interested in this, for now, I'll continue to pray for you.
Here's a few passages to consider from the same chapter in Matthew's Gospel, that refers to the unforgivable sin:
"Behold my servant whom I have chosen, my beloved in whom my soul hath been well pleased. I will put my spirit upon him, and he shall shew judgement to the Gentiles.
He shall not contend, nor cry out, neither shall any man hear his voice in the streets.
The bruised reed he shall not break: and the smoking flax he shall not extinguish: till he send forth judgement unto victory.
And in his name the Gentiles shall hope." - Matthew 12:18-20 DRV quoting Isaiah 42:1
"And when an unclean spirit is gone out of a man he walketh through dry places seeking rest, and findeth none.
Then he saith: I will return into my house from whence I came out. And coming he findeth it swept and garnished.
Then he goeth, and taketh with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is made worse than the first." - Matthew 12:43-45 DRV Let this encourage you, not discourage you DeerGlow! Don't let Satan win, keep fighting! Listen to God, and let Him guide you to where you need to be!
In the name of, the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit,
Amen.
O my God, relying on your almighty power and infinite mercy and promises, I hope to obtain pardon of my sins, the help of your grace, and life everlasting through the merits of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Redeemer.
Amen.
In the name of, the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit,
Amen.