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Hello brother and sisters in Christ, I hope you are all well.
I was wondering if anyone can relate to what I’m going through.
I lost my grandpa in 2015 and it hurts the same as the day he died, I’m still in shock, he lived with my family and I, he was a second day to me not a grandparent whom u rarely see. A week later my dog ,who I had since she was a puppy , started having very strong seizures and started forgetting who I was I’d watch her pace back and forth for hours, 2 months later she died. Then in 2016 my uncle whom I saw all the time got diagnosed with cancer, it was hard seeing him like that and then a couple days after my bday in feb 2017 my uncle died of a heart attack suddenly in my grandmas house , we rushed over and I spent that night and 2 weeks at my granndmas house to make sure she would be okay, she was suicidal one night and I had to run and block the door she had her keys and kept yelling for me to move she didn’t care anymore, my grandma is very young, 62. She was always a best friend to me and I’d do anything for her, I would protect her from everything I could.
Well the thing that breaks my heart is she doesn’t appreciate me and she puts me through verbal abuse, her sister who is my aunt gets very upset that she treats me like that. My grandma says very harsh things and a day after my uncle died she described to me in detail how he looked and what he was doing when he died( I was only 15 at the time) well years later, actually yesterday I told her how it hurt me and she yelled at me saying oh who cares what she’s been through , that I’m too sensitive and that she won’t talk to me ever again then. One time she asked me if I even miss my grandpa because I don’t talk about him, the reason I don’t talk about him is because I will break down if I do. There are soooo many more countless times she has treated me like this ever since 2015 it’s been nonstop. I’m worried about what all of this is doing to my mental health. I just can’t fathom how she can treat me like this after everything I’ve done for her out of love. She’s even said to me “ ha ya right what have u ever done”
I think I may have ptsd because whenever she talks about going to visit the funeral I just shut down and am quiet and can’t talk or I;l cry.
Some days I sleep in so late because of terrible nightmares where, my grandpa and uncle will be alive then they will get ill and start to die, or ill know the whole dream that they are going to die. I’m 18 years old and so sad , some days I’m happy but my heart is heavy
I am praying for u all May Jesus Christ keep you all safe, healthy, and joyful much love to u all
I was wondering if anyone can relate to what I’m going through.
I lost my grandpa in 2015 and it hurts the same as the day he died, I’m still in shock, he lived with my family and I, he was a second day to me not a grandparent whom u rarely see. A week later my dog ,who I had since she was a puppy , started having very strong seizures and started forgetting who I was I’d watch her pace back and forth for hours, 2 months later she died. Then in 2016 my uncle whom I saw all the time got diagnosed with cancer, it was hard seeing him like that and then a couple days after my bday in feb 2017 my uncle died of a heart attack suddenly in my grandmas house , we rushed over and I spent that night and 2 weeks at my granndmas house to make sure she would be okay, she was suicidal one night and I had to run and block the door she had her keys and kept yelling for me to move she didn’t care anymore, my grandma is very young, 62. She was always a best friend to me and I’d do anything for her, I would protect her from everything I could.
Well the thing that breaks my heart is she doesn’t appreciate me and she puts me through verbal abuse, her sister who is my aunt gets very upset that she treats me like that. My grandma says very harsh things and a day after my uncle died she described to me in detail how he looked and what he was doing when he died( I was only 15 at the time) well years later, actually yesterday I told her how it hurt me and she yelled at me saying oh who cares what she’s been through , that I’m too sensitive and that she won’t talk to me ever again then. One time she asked me if I even miss my grandpa because I don’t talk about him, the reason I don’t talk about him is because I will break down if I do. There are soooo many more countless times she has treated me like this ever since 2015 it’s been nonstop. I’m worried about what all of this is doing to my mental health. I just can’t fathom how she can treat me like this after everything I’ve done for her out of love. She’s even said to me “ ha ya right what have u ever done”
I think I may have ptsd because whenever she talks about going to visit the funeral I just shut down and am quiet and can’t talk or I;l cry.
Some days I sleep in so late because of terrible nightmares where, my grandpa and uncle will be alive then they will get ill and start to die, or ill know the whole dream that they are going to die. I’m 18 years old and so sad , some days I’m happy but my heart is heavy
I am praying for u all May Jesus Christ keep you all safe, healthy, and joyful much love to u all