I may be posting this in the wrong section. Please excuse me if I am. This may reach, epic, novel length and bare with my dry sense of humor. I'm one of those people who says they believe in Jesus but doesn't consider themselves a Christian. For one thing, I don't FEEL what I hear Christians saying they feel. I'm somewhat indifferent when it comes to feelings of religion. Coming from a family where my grandfather was a Baptist minister in the 60's to myself being in and out of heavy metal bands. One problem, I am now 30, married and have two children. My wife was raised a Catholic but now goes to a Baptist church, with our children. I don't go. I feel like I would be lying to God if I went. I'm sure I could go in and play plastic inside and lie just to be accepted but I think that is worse than not going at all. Some of my problems lie in acts of hypocrisy that I have went through with my family. In one case, a cousin had a son by a man of a different race. Her, her son and her husband were not allowed to come to family reunions. Another one, myself, I am around 75% Italian and 25% Irish, I married a Puerto-Rican woman. I was not pushed out like my cousin was because I am the last man in our family to carry on the family name. I've kind of become the man of the entire family, yeah, at 30. Which also makes me the youngest of the family except for the kids. My wife does not pressure me to go to church with her and the kids but our kids have been asking why daddy doesn't go. That is a hard pill to swallow. I have never been a saint or even near one. Playing in numerous heavy metal bands, extreme to more normal metal. Ok, I have rambled enough, here is one of my problems. When reading the Bible, have read it numerous times to try and understand. I have this one question everytime I read it. If God is all-forgiven, if we are all his children then why would there be a hell? Maybe I have read too many Philosophical books and am thinking too much but it would seem to me that God would take that last moment as a person dies to show himself to them and to allow them to enter Heaven, where then the person would have felt his power to cleanse them and heal them. I also have trouble with the ideal that Muslims, Buddhist, etc.. who live life right, don't hurt others, raise families and live productive would be sent to hell for saying Allah or Buddha when they pray. It seems almost childish to me to believe that a word means more than living life right. Even with a Baptist family and a close friend who is an ordained minister, I still have never been baptized or saved. I'm told by my wife, my friend who is a minister that I have complicated things way too much. It's strange, everyone who meets me in person, who comes to visit my wife, myself and our kids talk about how spiritual I am but I am not trying to be. I do try to be as kind, as understanding, no matter what religion a person is and I try as my grandfather would tell me, "Sow good seeds". I have always been this way but still do not FEEL the way Christians say they feel. I will stop here. Thanks to anyone who answers or helps with this. I want to say this to anyone who posts behind me. Please understand that I understand why the Bible says there is a hell, lake of fire, I do understand that. I just cannot seem to accept that God would send any of us there. Thank you