- Apr 25, 2019
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I know this might sound really weird and horrible or whatever, but there have been times where I've wondered if I'm the antichrist. Sounds weird, right? But the Bible says that the antichrist could be anyone, and who knows what the future has in store for me? This thought begins to make me really fearful. I don't want it to be true, but I fear that sometime in the future I'm going to do something or end up being totally against Christ or whatever for whatever reason, and that I'll end up being revealed as the antichrist. Sometimes, I fear that maybe deep down I do (or will in the future) want to take over the world or be the antichrist, even though I don't. I'll keep having images in my head of me in that position of power and stuff, I don't know what to do. I know this sounds dumb, but it's really worrying me. Y'all are probably going to say this is OCD, but it just seems like such a weird, unnatural, and specific fear/obsession. Do other people experience this? Sorry for posting again so soon, just wanted to get this out there, as weird and horrible as it sounds. I hope I'm not doing something wrong in having these thoughts.
Another thing; before starting this thread, I was trying to reassure myself and I said something like this in my mind: "You know how many people there are/will be in the world? What makes you think you'll be so lucky?" I don't know why that thought came out, but me using the word "lucky" in that thought makes it sound like I somehow want to be the antichrist. Of course I don't want to be the antichrist, which is why I'm posting this, but just the way I worded that thought in my head also kind of scared me. Like why would being the antichrist be "lucky"? What is wrong with me? Why is this happening?
Another thing; before starting this thread, I was trying to reassure myself and I said something like this in my mind: "You know how many people there are/will be in the world? What makes you think you'll be so lucky?" I don't know why that thought came out, but me using the word "lucky" in that thought makes it sound like I somehow want to be the antichrist. Of course I don't want to be the antichrist, which is why I'm posting this, but just the way I worded that thought in my head also kind of scared me. Like why would being the antichrist be "lucky"? What is wrong with me? Why is this happening?