The moon landings are not a matter of belief, but of fact.
i. Over the years, 12 astronauts have walked on the moon - several more, from different countries, have flown to it, or round it.
That is a matter of history - their names, and the information and details, is out there. Millions of people saw the moon landing on tv in 1969. If you don't believe all the scientific records, testimonies, accounts from families, accounts from engineers who worked on the rockets (and you once quoted from a book by one of them); what evidence have you got for saying that they are ALL lying/colluding with each other? And I don't mean YouTube clips which, quite frankly, anyone could make - I mean real evidence?
ii. You CAN believe it. You did so a few months ago after you heard a Christian testimony that changed your life. Sadly, you allowed YouTube to change it back again.
iii. Saying "they want you to believe it for sinister reasons" is nonsense and the stuff of the conspiracy theories that you are addicted to.
iv. I suppose God could guide you on this matter, but it's nothing to do with the Bible, faith or salvation and, quite frankly, I don't think God really minds what you think about it. Except when it comes to you opposing and calling his children "liars". Before all the "fairy tale" stuff, you were denouncing them as "deluded Freemasons". He cares about that.
Don't forget that you have already mistaken YouTube for God.