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I'm afraid that I'm currently not being obedient enough to Christ. I don't obey everything that Jesus commanded in the gospels. I think that when I do my Good works that I do them for God and not to be seen by other men and that I "Let my light shine" like Christ says in Matthew 5:16. I believe that I am following Jesus and the things that he's been telling me to do. I try not to lust after women other than my wife. It's a hard commandment to keep because there are so many different ways one could be lusting. I've been loyal to my wife and have not divorced her or even thought of divorcing her. I love her so much. I generally, don't make oaths unless I'm going to keep them. I generally, love and pray for the people who come into my life. I generally, treat people the way that I would want to be treated in Kindness and in love. I believe I am entering heaven through the narrow gate as I interpret that verse to mean "Accept Christ and come to the Lord for salvation". I mean, I could list all of the ones that I obey and that I don't but it would be a really long post and you generally get the idea.
I mean, Jesus says in Matthew 22:36-40 that all of the law and the prophets hang on the two greatest commandments. And I think that I've kept those. I am generally a kind and loving person and I do love God. When Jesus said all of the law did he mean his commandments too?
I mean, I know that salvation is not dependent on our obedience and I see the fruit of the spirit in my life. Since coming to Christ I have learned to love and forgive others, I have Joy in my life as I rejoice in being saved, I have good works in my life, and I am generally kind to others. I know I have the Holy Spirit living inside of me for more reasons than one. I know I am saved. When I was washed and renewed by the Holy Spirit I was sealed and Jesus said that he will lose none of those that come to him for salvation and do the will of the Father which, is to accept Christ and believe in him. I guess what I'm trying to ask is, is what I've been doing obedient enough to Christ? And is being a Christian and obeying the commandments of Christ a lifelong process?
Am I doing God's will instead of Satan's will? Am I on the right path? I know that we don't need perfect obedience to be saved because, without the regenerated bodies that God has promised us, we aren't perfect. Not yet. But, obedience is one of the fruits of the Spirit. And, I'm afraid that I currently am not obeying God enough and that I am listening to the devil sometimes instead of God. After all Jesus says in Luke 6:46 "Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" and James says in James 1:22 "Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says..."
After all, I (Like all Christians) want to be told "Well done good and faithful servant" instead of having Christ chastising me. Or being disappointed in me because I didn't obey all that the Holy Spirit told me to do. I guess I'm afraid of being Judged by Christ least in the kingdom of heaven. I want to be great in the kingdom of heaven. I want every single reward and praise that God wants to give me. I want to learn to accept the rewards that I end up getting. I honestly don't know what this fear is.
I mean, Jesus says in Matthew 22:36-40 that all of the law and the prophets hang on the two greatest commandments. And I think that I've kept those. I am generally a kind and loving person and I do love God. When Jesus said all of the law did he mean his commandments too?
I mean, I know that salvation is not dependent on our obedience and I see the fruit of the spirit in my life. Since coming to Christ I have learned to love and forgive others, I have Joy in my life as I rejoice in being saved, I have good works in my life, and I am generally kind to others. I know I have the Holy Spirit living inside of me for more reasons than one. I know I am saved. When I was washed and renewed by the Holy Spirit I was sealed and Jesus said that he will lose none of those that come to him for salvation and do the will of the Father which, is to accept Christ and believe in him. I guess what I'm trying to ask is, is what I've been doing obedient enough to Christ? And is being a Christian and obeying the commandments of Christ a lifelong process?
Am I doing God's will instead of Satan's will? Am I on the right path? I know that we don't need perfect obedience to be saved because, without the regenerated bodies that God has promised us, we aren't perfect. Not yet. But, obedience is one of the fruits of the Spirit. And, I'm afraid that I currently am not obeying God enough and that I am listening to the devil sometimes instead of God. After all Jesus says in Luke 6:46 "Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" and James says in James 1:22 "Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says..."
After all, I (Like all Christians) want to be told "Well done good and faithful servant" instead of having Christ chastising me. Or being disappointed in me because I didn't obey all that the Holy Spirit told me to do. I guess I'm afraid of being Judged by Christ least in the kingdom of heaven. I want to be great in the kingdom of heaven. I want every single reward and praise that God wants to give me. I want to learn to accept the rewards that I end up getting. I honestly don't know what this fear is.