Trigger Warning Almost killed myself today

[kurayami]

I'm weaning off seroquel, I'm down to 0mg. I am being treated for post traumatic stress disorder but I wanted off the seroquel because I have stopped losing weight. I am replacing the seroquel with Minipress, but that isn't up to a therapeutic dose for PTSD yet.

So this afternoon, I made up my mind to eat all of my leftover seroquel, pristiq and minipress. But in a moment of sanity as I prayed to God, I threw all of my medication in a bag and instead of walking to Aldi to buy alcohol, I walked the 500 metres to my Pastor's house and gave him the pills. I cried, we read the bible and we prayed. He was super helpful and God was kind and I felt better after. My pastor asked me to stay and watch a movie with him and his kids.

I felt much better when I came home, though I still didn't eat. I've stopped eating because I don't deserve food. But one thing at a time.

 

[Larniavc]

I'm weaning off seroquel, I'm down to 0mg. I am being treated for post traumatic stress disorder but I wanted off the seroquel because I have stopped losing weight. I am replacing the seroquel with Minipress, but that isn't up to a therapeutic dose for PTSD yet.

So this afternoon, I made up my mind to eat all of my leftover seroquel, pristiq and minipress. But in a moment of sanity as I prayed to God, I threw all of my medication in a bag and instead of walking to Aldi to buy alcohol, I walked the 500 metres to my Pastor's house and gave him the pills. I cried, we read the bible and we prayed. He was super helpful and God was kind and I felt better after. My pastor asked me to stay and watch a movie with him and his kids.

I felt much better when I came home, though I still didn't eat. I've stopped eating because I don't deserve food. But one thing at a time.

I'm glad that you got through your difficult experience but I would seriously consider accessing some cognitive behavioural therapy or eye movement desensitisation reprocessing for you PTSD symptoms as soon as is practicable.

 

[Dave-W]

Praying.

 

[gym_class_hero]

God bless you.

 

[*Cher]

Praying for you.

 

[The Barbarian]

May God bless you and watch over you. My prayers are with you. Let us know how you're doing, from time to time.

 

[CrystalDragon]

I'm weaning off seroquel, I'm down to 0mg. I am being treated for post traumatic stress disorder but I wanted off the seroquel because I have stopped losing weight. I am replacing the seroquel with Minipress, but that isn't up to a therapeutic dose for PTSD yet.

So this afternoon, I made up my mind to eat all of my leftover seroquel, pristiq and minipress. But in a moment of sanity as I prayed to God, I threw all of my medication in a bag and instead of walking to Aldi to buy alcohol, I walked the 500 metres to my Pastor's house and gave him the pills. I cried, we read the bible and we prayed. He was super helpful and God was kind and I felt better after. My pastor asked me to stay and watch a movie with him and his kids.

I felt much better when I came home, though I still didn't eat. I've stopped eating because I don't deserve food. But one thing at a time.

I'm glad that you got through your difficult experience but I would seriously consider accessing some cognitive behavioural therapy or eye movement desensitisation reprocessing for you PTSD symptoms as soon as is practicable.

I agree with Larnievc. So glad you got out of it okay, though I'd recommend counseling as well to help.

 

[Poppyseed78]

I'm glad you went to see your pastor. Be gentle with yourself. I'm praying for healing and peace for you.

 

[Bluerose31]

I'm weaning off seroquel, I'm down to 0mg. I am being treated for post traumatic stress disorder but I wanted off the seroquel because I have stopped losing weight. I am replacing the seroquel with Minipress, but that isn't up to a therapeutic dose for PTSD yet.

So this afternoon, I made up my mind to eat all of my leftover seroquel, pristiq and minipress. But in a moment of sanity as I prayed to God, I threw all of my medication in a bag and instead of walking to Aldi to buy alcohol, I walked the 500 metres to my Pastor's house and gave him the pills. I cried, we read the bible and we prayed. He was super helpful and God was kind and I felt better after. My pastor asked me to stay and watch a movie with him and his kids.

I felt much better when I came home, though I still didn't eat. I've stopped eating because I don't deserve food. But one thing at a time.

Praying for you that God brings you comfort and protects and heals you with His love.