Advice

[pockleberry]

I have someone already that I see once a fortnight she doesn't know about this but she will next time i see her. Stop hating myself, I'm not sure that's something I can do. I am trying that's one of the reasons I have councelling. Things were being ok but I guess I'm having a bit of a relapse cause Last night I felt so bad. I've not cut this bad in a long time...

 

[blessedmomof5]

Hey susanna, ya know i hate myself also, its not an easy thing to change espically if your not sure why?see i have no clue, if you do its a start..which i pray to the Lord that you do, maybe its my age but it's buried so dep who knows if we will ever find out wwhy i hate myself so, bit this is about you. just wanted to orove something i gues
now this is were the country thing comes in a forthnight is once a week? i have no clue?lol once a mth? whatever it is i hope its soon.

ok about the cutting,i was doing that for a while it is a thing that is calming soothing a relieving all at the same time, i know when i did it i did it almost like punishing myslef for something i had no control over. glad i stopped went to the doctor the other day they insisted on giving me the flu shot in that arm i was nervous all was healed except a few scars,,,,, please take care of yourself, maybe instead you can read the bible?there and idea. and if you did not want to you would not be on a site like this..... remeber now there are people here who love and are concerned about you...there i go again off on a roll....... denise

 

[pockleberry]

lol sorry i didn't realise fortnight was an english word it means once every two weeks. I have tried doing other things instead of cutting and for a while I was getting better but now all of a sudden it's got bad again. I feel guilty that I cut so bad but it did kinda make me feel better...anyway gotta go before my sister kills me to use the comp

 

[bumblebee62331]

lol sorry i didn't realise fortnight was an english word it means once every two weeks. I have tried doing other things instead of cutting and for a while I was getting better but now all of a sudden it's got bad again. I feel guilty that I cut so bad but it did kinda make me feel better...anyway gotta go before my sister kills me to use the comp

Fortnight means once every two weeks here too. I'm glad you are trying to distract yourself from cutting - when you are feeling worse, try so hard to not let it get to you. Think of all the times you prevented yourself cutting and think about how awesome it would be if you could prevent cutting when things are so so tough!

Think about the problem - what is making you so upset that you want to hurt yourself? Then, if you aren't strong enough to try to sort out the problem yet, write down on a piece of paper everything you could do to make the problem go away, or at least be better (note - cutting is not an option! ) Then, if you can, do some of those things on the list. If you can't, put the list in a box or a book or something and keep it for when the next tough time comes along, when you can re-read the list, then make another one to try to get to the bottom of the problems that are making you hurt yourself.

Hopefully you can see that there are other options rather than cutting and soon, hopefully, you can use those lists to eliminate the problem, without cutting yourself being involved.

I will continue to pray for you...

 

[pockleberry]

I was talking to someone at church today and they asked me if i had lost weight. They said it looked like i had lost weight and something wasn't right that scared me...how can ppl notice something like that when i'm not even underweight?

 

[bumblebee62331]

I was talking to someone at church today and they asked me if i had lost weight. They said it looked like i had lost weight and something wasn't right that scared me...how can ppl notice something like that when i'm not even underweight?

You don't see the weight loss as much as an outsider does. They see you one day, then see you again say, a week later, and the weight loss is more profound to them.

If they say you have lost weight, it means you have lost a fair bit, enough for someone to recognise.

Are you still seeking help?

 

[pockleberry]

Im seeing my councellor today i sent her a copy of this thread a week or so ago so she will have read some of it that means i cant back out of talking to her. I have lost weight but I've also gained some of it back so the amount that I have lost shouldn't be noticable that's why it freeked me out I think she might have been making it up...I mean she knows that I have things going on and shes a trained councellor so she works with ppl like me alot...maybe she just guessed something was wrong and said what she did to scare me