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[pockleberry]

I don't know whether this is the beginnings of an eating disorder or just my over active imagination so I thought that maybe someone on here would be able to help me out.

I've never liked the way I look but recently it's become more of an issuse. I started out just skipping meals when I was away from home at youth things cause it was easy to do and no one really noticed. Now when I go away I try not to eat at all sometimes its only a weekend so its no big deal but When I'm away for a week ppl start to notice and ask why I do it. I always used to eat when I was at home cause my mum is the sort of person who notices but now I skip meals when I can so I won't eat lunch at school and stuff like that. I've lost about a stone recently and ppl have been saying that i'm getting thiner but i'm still overweight. I know i'm not massivly fat but I still want to lose more weight. I know the way I'm going about it isn't good but I don't think it is an eating disorder cause im so aware of whats happening. I guess what i'm saying is that i'm confused and I don't really know what i'm doing. If anybody can make sence of this any replys would help me alot I'm sure.

 

[PureGrace]

To me, that sounds like the start of anorexia. I would really encourage you to talk with a trusted adult (preferably a parent) about what you are dealing with, and maybe even checking out some counseling. This is a habit that you dont want to continue.

I will be praying for you. Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk

Best of Luck
Kate

 

[bumblebee62331]

I don't know whether this is the beginnings of an eating disorder or just my over active imagination so I thought that maybe someone on here would be able to help me out.

You know, you have just taken the first step to ensure you are healthy and not hurting yourself. You don't know if you are doing something unhealthy but you want to find out. That is really hard.

I've never liked the way I look but recently it's become more of an issuse. I started out just skipping meals when I was away from home at youth things cause it was easy to do and no one really noticed. Now when I go away I try not to eat at all sometimes its only a weekend so its no big deal but When I'm away for a week ppl start to notice and ask why I do it. I always used to eat when I was at home cause my mum is the sort of person who notices but now I skip meals when I can so I won't eat lunch at school and stuff like that. I've lost about a stone recently and ppl have been saying that i'm getting thiner but i'm still overweight. I know i'm not massivly fat but I still want to lose more weight.

I don't know how much you weigh or how tall you are, so I can't say anything about your weight, but I am sure that if you stop and think now, "Am I at a healthy weight?" you can decide whether or not you skipping meals and trying not to eat is good for you. It is never healthy to skip meals. It slows your metabolism and makes your diet very unbalanced. If you truly are a little overweight, then you should try to lose weight healthily, with a healthy diet and exercise. But if you aren't overweight, you need to talk to someone - anyone - before this thing gets out of control.

Trust me. You think you can handle it but before you know, you just can't stop. And that's terrifying.

I know the way I'm going about it isn't good but I don't think it is an eating disorder cause im so aware of whats happening. I guess what i'm saying is that i'm confused and I don't really know what i'm doing. If anybody can make sence of this any replys would help me alot I'm sure.

If you are confused and don't know what you are doing, you need to stop. You don't have total control and it will only get worse. You know it's not healthy, you know it sounds like the beginnings of an eating disorder.

You truly need to get some help from someone - anyone - before this gets out of control and you get sucked into the vicious cycle of an eating disorder. Please talk to someone.

I am praying for you, if you ever want to talk, please PM me. I can try to help and perhaps save you from years and years of struggling.

<3 Kate

 

[madison1101]

Ask your mom or dad to take you to the doctor for a physical. In private, tell the doctor what you shared here, write it down if you are afraid to say it out loud. Doctor can advise you concerning your weight and refer you to treatment.

 

[pockleberry]

I've lost more weight since I posted before not much just a couple of pounds but I don't know. It's like I know that skipping meals isn't good but I still keep doing it. This is a way of losing weight that works for me I don't remember the last time I weighed anything near this! Is it bad that I don't wanna stop even if it might make me ill?

 

[Music4Hym777]

Hi! I would definately start seeking counseling! You might be at an earlier stage of it where you can nip it now! You dont want this thing for the rest of your life so please, take care of it now!

 

[bumblebee62331]

I've lost more weight since I posted before not much just a couple of pounds but I don't know. It's like I know that skipping meals isn't good but I still keep doing it. This is a way of losing weight that works for me I don't remember the last time I weighed anything near this! Is it bad that I don't wanna stop even if it might make me ill?

Aww sweetie

Please be careful. You are at the stage where everything seems to be working, you're happy and you're in control.

... or so you think.

Please, if you continue with this, you will suddenly wake up one day and realise that you have no control anymore. You won't be healthy, you will be withdrawn and angry, you will be scared. I wish I had had someone to tell me what a real eating disorder was like before I got into it.

I even remember being at the same stage as you are in. I was thrilled - weight was coming off quickly, I was dealing with the hunger pains, trying not to eat - but very soon, it all flips up the other way and you can't get away, no matter how much you thought you could.

Please get some help. I would hate for you to go through what I - and most of the other girls in this forum - have been through. Some of us are still going through it. This is about my 9th year. If it were as simple as I thought it was, and that you think it is, wouldn't I have been able to stop by now?

An Eating Disorder destroys you and it takes so long to fully recover. In fact, I don't think you ever do. Sorry I'm going all depressing and rambling, but I am scared for you. Please get some help.

I will pray for you. You need to go see somebody or start eating properly. Please. There are healthy ways to lose weight and keep it off.

 

[pockleberry]

Ok so maybe i should have said this before but it has been going on for a while and i'm starting to get scared. i know it's stupid but sometmes it feels like i don't have a choice. If i eat properly i start feeling guilty that i've eaten too much i don't want to be overweight again. I've had problems with being overweight for as long as i can remember it never affected my health so i guess it can't have been that bad but it made me feel bad about myself. For once in my life I'm not overweight and i'm not so fat but if I start eating again what's to say that i won't become fat again. I feel really bad that it's this big an issue for me at the moment and the truth is that some ppl have already accused me of being anorexic and i denied it. I know i'm not making much sence but it's not making much sence in my head. I'm not completly in control of it anymore...I'm scared and i don't know what to do...am i being pathetic?

 

[bumblebee62331]

Ok so maybe i should have said this before but it has been going on for a while and i'm starting to get scared. i know it's stupid but sometmes it feels like i don't have a choice. If i eat properly i start feeling guilty that i've eaten too much i don't want to be overweight again. I've had problems with being overweight for as long as i can remember it never affected my health so i guess it can't have been that bad but it made me feel bad about myself. For once in my life I'm not overweight and i'm not so fat but if I start eating again what's to say that i won't become fat again. I feel really bad that it's this big an issue for me at the moment and the truth is that some ppl have already accused me of being anorexic and i denied it. I know i'm not making much sence but it's not making much sence in my head. I'm not completly in control of it anymore...I'm scared and i don't know what to do...am i being pathetic?

You are not being pathetic. You should not feel guilty about eating. You sound like you are scared of gaining weight because of being overweight in the past. I think you definitely need to talk to someone who can help you work out your feelings. A therapist - someone who can work through these issues with you.

Please tell someone and get the help you need. You're not in control anymore, but you are still in control enough to talk to us about it and realise that something is wrong. Please, whatever you do, don't know that something is wrong but not do anything about it! That's worse than not knowing! Please take this as a sign from God that you are supposed to seek help - he is keeping you from this ED as hard as he can, to give you the opportunity to seek help and get out of this before it really becomes very very hard!

Praying for you.

 

[pockleberry]

I ate to much yesterday...it made me feel sick and fat i promised myself that i wldnt eat anything today but i've already broken that...so now i'm hiding out here where there isn't any food or anything to tempt me to eat. I've gained weight a couple of pounds....I don't really know why but when I saw that I had gained weight it scared me that's why i can't eat today or tomorrow if I can get away with it.

 

[bumblebee62331]

I ate to much yesterday...it made me feel sick and fat i promised myself that i wldnt eat anything today but i've already broken that...so now i'm hiding out here where there isn't any food or anything to tempt me to eat. I've gained weight a couple of pounds....I don't really know why but when I saw that I had gained weight it scared me that's why i can't eat today or tomorrow if I can get away with it.

Eating like this will actually not help you keep weight off. Eating for a few days, then starving for two - it slows down your metabolism which means you don't break down food quickly and more food is stored as fat.

The best way is to eat healthily but regularly. I know this is hypocritical of me, but this is so frustrating to see how far you have fallen into the cycle since your first post, despite our warnings and suggestions that you talk to someone who can help you. It frustrates me because I know what I have been through - I can't speak for others - but someone willingly getting themselves into it? Why? How can you?

You need to talk to someone or in nine years' time you will be me, talking to another newbie like you, warning them to not get into it and feeling the same frustration.

Sorry if this is harsh, but harsh helped me start recovery - hopefully it will help you get some help.

 

[PureGrace]

I ate to much yesterday...it made me feel sick and fat i promised myself that i wldnt eat anything today but i've already broken that...so now i'm hiding out here where there isn't any food or anything to tempt me to eat. I've gained weight a couple of pounds....I don't really know why but when I saw that I had gained weight it scared me that's why i can't eat today or tomorrow if I can get away with it.

oh darling We're in very similar places. Dont let this take over your life. PLEASE speak with someone and go get some help. You can still nip this now.

PM me if you need to talk, really.

Kate

 

[blessedmomof5]

missed yet another one... ok i can tel you why you are eating but i won't.

what i will tell u is this. you need to get help now. not tomorrow but today, you need to ralk to your parents, if they have not already said something about your weight then you do. mine would say gee you better put on some weight. ya know at 42 they still do...lol blinders on i geuss...... anyway. you get help, the futher you go the harder it is to come back, or you might never, this is not meant to sound mean, and quite honestly i should be the one to talk, or maybe i should do you want to be me? 43 yrs old almost gave myself a heart attack, and IP treatment with them threating me with a tube down my thoat? they know me so well here at the local hospita, that they always say oh come on in? sad huh?look, pleas just go get the help you sound like you want....you are reaching out and we are grabbing so go and seek.........please and let us know what happens today ok?
Denise

opps big blunder i am 42..should really put my glasses on thats another thing your eyes go oh and u lose your hair, thats always a nice loook i had to cut off my long beautiful culy hair to this short thing that makes me look like someone that was losing there hair from ana....

 

[pockleberry]

"It frustrates me because I know what I have been through - I can't speak for others - but someone willingly getting themselves into it? Why? How can you?"

I'm sorry I frustrated you...in answer to your question I've had depression for 3 years I've self harmed for 2 of those. Not eating is just another form of self harm. Part of me knows it's not good but I also don't know what to do about it.

You guys have all said it yourself it's not something that you can just stop...I can't just decide that i'm gonna eat normally again and stop caring about the way i look and how much i weigh. You say talk to someone but how could I? I didn't know if this was just weird eating habbits or an eating disorder I still don't. I don't live with my dad and if i told my mum she would respond the same way she did to the self harm she would tell me just to stop doing it because she wouldn't understand. My youth leader would be the same. Maybe i do want to change but how can I? You said tell someone today the only thing I can do is print off this thread and send it to my councellor she won't get today but I know that she will read it and talk it through with me next time I see her.

 

[blessedmomof5]

odd how i thought that would work... but i never said just eat, bc i know that does not work, what i do know is that when YOU have to eat there no choice you eat then the quilt the anger, sets in and you feel like you have disappointed yourself...but the ONE thing you do have going for you is it is NEW and since it is new and with all the resaerch out the the sooner u catch it the easier it is to fix.....ok now me...

42. was a dug addict for yrs.....i consider that self hatm would you? had to go through rehab took me 6 yrs before i was finally ablt to leave the program
was ana at the age of 17, was ok at the age 20-21 drugs? fuzzy..... then i was ok for yrs i was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fine.....but i guess what i have done was just buried everything.......and it has all come back and back BIG, so you see I so do not want you to be anything like me, ireally feel the lord sends poeple to certain people and i am here for you if you want to talk, you can pm me im me, anything you little heart desires......
Denise

 

[pockleberry]

Just thought I should let you know that I showed this thread to my youth leader I'm not sure whats gonna happen but i guess i'm gonna find out pretty soon...i'm seeing her 2morrow and she said she wants to talk about it. I tend to say things wrong when I talk to ppl face to face...I get nervous and I know that the temptation will be for me to just say that I'm fine and everything is sorted even though it's not. Thanx for all the advice you guys have given me and sorry it took so long for me to actually do anything I needed someone to tell me that this was an eating disorder and not just my imagination. No-one has actually told me that but the responses i've had tell me that I need to get help.

 

[blessedmomof5]

Just so you Know you are doing the right thing and i am proud of you!

************HUG************



Denise

ps. and no its not fine remember not to say that....

 

[bumblebee62331]

Just thought I should let you know that I showed this thread to my youth leader I'm not sure whats gonna happen but i guess i'm gonna find out pretty soon...i'm seeing her 2morrow and she said she wants to talk about it. I tend to say things wrong when I talk to ppl face to face...I get nervous and I know that the temptation will be for me to just say that I'm fine and everything is sorted even though it's not. Thanx for all the advice you guys have given me and sorry it took so long for me to actually do anything I needed someone to tell me that this was an eating disorder and not just my imagination. No-one has actually told me that but the responses i've had tell me that I need to get help.

Good on you Pockleberry, that takes a lot of strength to do that!

You can have some help now, so hopefully it will be easier on you and you can start recovering from these issues.

 

[pockleberry]

I talked to her and it went ok. She said she kinda knew that it had been going on before now but she waits for me to admit stuff myself. I nearly threw up yesterday and I hadn't even eaten that much I just felt so fat. I'm not doing good today I can't get the thoughts of suicide out of my head. I muck up so much and so many things in my life I feel like such a failure a horrible overweight fat failure.

 

[blessedmomof5]

susanna,

do you think you can get yourself some therapy? I really think you need to honey...for yourself , you need to fix this, and the sooner you stop hating yourself the sooner this will all stop....... I love you, God loves you, and we do not want to see you suffer, so please please look in the phone boook if you have to , but find some one.......keep me posted.....
i care what happens...
Denise