Active in my eating disorder

[kurayami]

Hi Everyone,

I'm so conflicted right now. I want to lose weight. I want to lose approximately 45 pounds to get down to my goal weight of 100. That's a weight that isn't underweight for my size (I'm 155 cms -- 5' 1"), but I guess I'm going about it a bit drastically. I've cut myself down from a max of 1500 calories a day to between 650 and 1000 depending on how much I exercise. Either way, I get some exercise done, even if it's just 45 minutes of incidental exercise. I need to do some activity.

But at the same time, I know it's not right to be treating myself this way. It's not exactly in line with Scripture. I've been suffering with an eating disorder for about ten years. I feel guilty because I know that I treat my eating disorder like an idol and put it before God. So I feel like I'm sinning. Yet, I know it's not as easy as just choosing to stop.

Does anyone else struggle with these sorts of issues? How do you deal with it? Any advice?

 

[RuthD]

I used to have bulimia. The way I dealt with it was to ask myself why I was doing it. I answered to please others and be like the models in the magazines and to attract men. Now I don't want to please anyone but myself and Jesus. I knew the truth about myself for quite awhile before I stopped purging but it slowed down and then I stopped. This may not be the answer that you have but this helped me a lot. Best wishes to you and Happy New Year!

 

[bookofjade]

Hi Everyone,

I'm so conflicted right now. I want to lose weight. I want to lose approximately 45 pounds to get down to my goal weight of 100. That's a weight that isn't underweight for my size (I'm 155 cms -- 5' 1"), but I guess I'm going about it a bit drastically. I've cut myself down from a max of 1500 calories a day to between 650 and 1000 depending on how much I exercise. Either way, I get some exercise done, even if it's just 45 minutes of incidental exercise. I need to do some activity.

But at the same time, I know it's not right to be treating myself this way. It's not exactly in line with Scripture. I've been suffering with an eating disorder for about ten years. I feel guilty because I know that I treat my eating disorder like an idol and put it before God. So I feel like I'm sinning. Yet, I know it's not as easy as just choosing to stop.

Does anyone else struggle with these sorts of issues? How do you deal with it? Any advice?

Here are some steps to losing weight.
0. Eat healthy.
1. Exercise.
2. Eat one small fredo frog a day (And no other sugar)
3. Reduce preservatives.
4. Drink coke zero for digestive problems.

 

[kurayami]

This was quite a necropost, but that said , I appreciate your advice Jade. It's been 2.5 years since I posted this, and actually because of psychiatric medications, I've put on another 20 lbs, and I'm trying to lose it, but just won't budge. The only good thing has been that my psychiatrist also put me on a diabetes drug that has stopped the cravings for carbohydrates and lots of them.

I started back at the gym in April, and though I've only lost 10 lbs, I'm feeling fitter, and maybe I'll lose some more weight over time. Especially since I've doubled my workouts from 3 to 6 a week. I'm no longer bingeing and purging, which has been a great gift from God. And the medication (despite the weight gain) has been a blessing too. Because it's really curbed a lot of my PTSD symptoms.

I'm on medication to manage my sever acid reflux as well, which is helping, and it enables me to have a coffee during the day or a bit of chocolate without paying for it for the rest of the day.

I'm conscious of the fact that I'll always feel the need to restrict calories and exercise them off, but I'm so busy with my degree that I can only commit to a max of 60 minutes exercise per day, and I have to eat well in order to have the energy to study and complete assignments.

 

[bookofjade]

This was quite a necropost, but that said , I appreciate your advice Jade. It's been 2.5 years since I posted this, and actually because of psychiatric medications, I've put on another 20 lbs, and I'm trying to lose it, but just won't budge. The only good thing has been that my psychiatrist also put me on a diabetes drug that has stopped the cravings for carbohydrates and lots of them.

I started back at the gym in April, and though I've only lost 10 lbs, I'm feeling fitter, and maybe I'll lose some more weight over time. Especially since I've doubled my workouts from 3 to 6 a week. I'm no longer bingeing and purging, which has been a great gift from God. And the medication (despite the weight gain) has been a blessing too. Because it's really curbed a lot of my PTSD symptoms.

I'm on medication to manage my sever acid reflux as well, which is helping, and it enables me to have a coffee during the day or a bit of chocolate without paying for it for the rest of the day.

I'm conscious of the fact that I'll always feel the need to restrict calories and exercise them off, but I'm so busy with my degree that I can only commit to a max of 60 minutes exercise per day, and I have to eat well in order to have the energy to study and complete assignments.

Ok cool.