About to reveal my struggle

[JThomas]

For the last 6 years of my life, I have struggled with my sexuality. It has taken me through suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety attacks, even debated killing some else who tried to take advantage of me after I told them in confidence. Basically I've dealt with everything in the book. It's been hard, but so far I have been able, through God's grace, have been able to resist acting on these urges. It's been harder going off to college with these thoughts, but I made the decision a few weeks ago to finally tell my youth minister from my hometown what I have been dealing with. I have really never told anyone face to face what I have been through out of shame, and fear of being judged. I have tried three times before to tell him, but each time I have chickened out, and was never able to tell him. I am afraid of chickening out again, and I don't want to. Any thoughts on the situation, or how I can gather the courage to tell him? My parents don't, and hopefully will never know, so I don't really have anyone for advice on this.

 

[Criada]

I'm sorry you are struggling with this - but praise God for the grace he has given you to resist temptation
Telling someone is always a daunting thing to do - but you will feel so much lighter afterwards!! One thing I'd suggest is to write down what you want to say before you go - that way if you freeze or can't find the right words you can let your pastor read it first.
Praying for you, brother

 

[Chaplain David]

For the last 6 years of my life, I have struggled with my sexuality. It has taken me through suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety attacks, even debated killing some else who tried to take advantage of me after I told them in confidence. Basically I've dealt with everything in the book. It's been hard, but so far I have been able, through God's grace, have been able to resist acting on these urges. It's been harder going off to college with these thoughts, but I made the decision a few weeks ago to finally tell my youth minister from my hometown what I have been dealing with. I have really never told anyone face to face what I have been through out of shame, and fear of being judged. I have tried three times before to tell him, but each time I have chickened out, and was never able to tell him. I am afraid of chickening out again, and I don't want to. Any thoughts on the situation, or how I can gather the courage to tell him? My parents don't, and hopefully will never know, so I don't really have anyone for advice on this.

Hello,

I think it is good that you are going to confide in your Youth Pastor and am praying for you. God bless you.

Faithfully,

 

[Johnnz]

Am I right in thinking the issue is your sexual orientation?

John
NZ