A struggling Gurl

[Tawnymarie]

I had a tragic experience lately that I havent told anyone about yet. Not my family, friends...no one. I recently found the pain to horrible to deal with and ODed on some pain pills...all that got me was a trip to the hospital and no relief from me pain...
I NEED HELP

 

[Battle Maiden]

I had a tragic experience lately that I havent told anyone about yet. Not my family, friends...no one. I recently found the pain to horrible to deal with and ODed on some pain pills...all that got me was a trip to the hospital and no relief from me pain...
I NEED HELP

I am so sorry that you are hurting so much. Maybe you could go to your doctor and he could refer you to see a councillor. There are some good councillors who might be able to help you to work through the pain.

I will pray for you.

Battle Maiden

 

[Tawnymarie]

I am so sorry that you are hurting so much. Maybe you could go to your doctor and he could refer you to see a councillor. There are some good councillors who might be able to help you to work through the pain.

I will pray for you.

Battle Maiden

i saw a therapist once...but he just made things even harder for me....

 

[c1ners]

i saw a therapist once...but he just made things even harder for me....

Do you have a Pastor or someone you can talk to about it? Maybe a Youth Leader?

 

[Tawnymarie]

Do you have a Pastor or someone you can talk to about it? Maybe a Youth Leader?

i was thinking of going to my youth leader because he and i are very close...but im not sure if i can tell anyone exactly what happend yet...

 

[c1ners]

i was thinking of going to my youth leader because he and i are very close...but im not sure if i can tell anyone exactly what happend yet...

It might make you feel better to tell someone.

 

[bumblebee62331]

I had a tragic experience lately that I havent told anyone about yet. Not my family, friends...no one. I recently found the pain to horrible to deal with and ODed on some pain pills...all that got me was a trip to the hospital and no relief from me pain...
I NEED HELP

Tawnymarie,

I know how you feel. I overdosed on pain pills last year and I nearly died. I have done irreversable damage to my liver. I didn't go to the hospital. I panicked and made myself be sick in the hope of bringing the tablets up. They had a natural thing in them that makes you throw them up rather than them hurting you, so a few hours later, I was throwing up every half hour. It was painful, horrible, disgusting and I was sick for a number of days.

But the scary thing was the feeling I had when I crawled into bed with my boyfriend. I had gotten on a train and went 50 minutes to see him at about 10:30pm at night and I slept in the same bed as him because I was terrified that I wouldn't wake up. I don't know what I was expecting to do if I had died and it would have been horrible for my boyfriend. He still doesn't know I overdosed. Anyway the horrible feeling was there - that I was slowly slipping away and I realised that I didn't want to die. That was the worst feeling in the world.

Do you feel like that? Are you glad that you didn't succeed in your attempt? Or do you still feel like you need to take those steps? Becuase how you feel about it all affects what you should do. It's wonderful you want help, but you need to make sure you follow through and get some help. You need to talk to someone like a psychiatrist for professional, mental help and you need to talk to someone like a priest for spiritual help.

I will be praying for you and for you to keep this courage to talk to somebody. You need to tell someone about what happened to you, no matter how horrible it was, it needs to be out to at least one person who cares about you or it will just fester away inside of you and destroy your life. Suicide is not the answer. Taking lots of pills to dull the pain is not the answer. You need to get down to the deep truth of what is hurting you and you need to forgive yourself, or another person, or people, or whatever happened to you.

 

[Arkanin]

i saw a therapist once...but he just made things even harder for me....

My suggestion is that you try therapy with someone else. Maybe another woman? Not everyone is perfect for you, but a good therapist can make a difference.