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I could talk extensively of why I feel that I am called to marriage...and I have.
I could think about the girls around me, and how well a relationship with one of them might work...and I have.
I could cry out to God, beg from the depths of my periods of loneliness, request from the peaks of my contentment, come up with any prayer & any devotional & any amount of time studying Scripture & Jason Evert talks & all the ways I feel I could spiritually grow from a Godly relationship...and I have, and have grown considerably in my faith from much of what I just listed.
So I 'm turning to God's mercy. I've read the Diary of St Faustina, I've seen God's promises of His eternal love in the midst of the destruction He orders in the Old Testament, I've contemplated the crucified Christ more times than I can count. I know how mercy is so fundamental to Christianity, so vital to how God works in our lives. Looking back, I'm very thankful for how much God has worked in my single life, in ways that were so much more powerful, due to my prolonged dependence on Him.
I just want to show up to God empty-handed now. I just want to tell Him, "All my reasons, all my emotions, all my hope & love & despair I've left with Your Son. I know you like humility, and You know I'm bad at that; here I am.". Then I want to ask Him softly , no, I want to thank Him first, and then ask Him softly if I can have a girlfriend next semester. I have an Intro to Drawing class next semester that should give me plenty of time to get to know somebody in the midst of my busy schedule; I have a seat reserved for the March for Life that would be so much more meaningful if I could give it to her as a gift, before we even date; and I think most importantly, I have a very good chance of going on a university -sponsored spring break trip to Assisi & Rome. That would be my first time going out of the US, and those are 2 cities very important in my faith; this is an experience that I would dearly love to share with her.
So, God...You've done some awesome work inside of me during this long period of singleness. I feel that this is a prayer you want me to share with others, that all of Your beloved children gathered here can ask with me. All I have, want, and do is already presented to you...give me the grace to leave it all to You.
I could think about the girls around me, and how well a relationship with one of them might work...and I have.
I could cry out to God, beg from the depths of my periods of loneliness, request from the peaks of my contentment, come up with any prayer & any devotional & any amount of time studying Scripture & Jason Evert talks & all the ways I feel I could spiritually grow from a Godly relationship...and I have, and have grown considerably in my faith from much of what I just listed.
So I 'm turning to God's mercy. I've read the Diary of St Faustina, I've seen God's promises of His eternal love in the midst of the destruction He orders in the Old Testament, I've contemplated the crucified Christ more times than I can count. I know how mercy is so fundamental to Christianity, so vital to how God works in our lives. Looking back, I'm very thankful for how much God has worked in my single life, in ways that were so much more powerful, due to my prolonged dependence on Him.
I just want to show up to God empty-handed now. I just want to tell Him, "All my reasons, all my emotions, all my hope & love & despair I've left with Your Son. I know you like humility, and You know I'm bad at that; here I am.". Then I want to ask Him softly , no, I want to thank Him first, and then ask Him softly if I can have a girlfriend next semester. I have an Intro to Drawing class next semester that should give me plenty of time to get to know somebody in the midst of my busy schedule; I have a seat reserved for the March for Life that would be so much more meaningful if I could give it to her as a gift, before we even date; and I think most importantly, I have a very good chance of going on a university -sponsored spring break trip to Assisi & Rome. That would be my first time going out of the US, and those are 2 cities very important in my faith; this is an experience that I would dearly love to share with her.
So, God...You've done some awesome work inside of me during this long period of singleness. I feel that this is a prayer you want me to share with others, that all of Your beloved children gathered here can ask with me. All I have, want, and do is already presented to you...give me the grace to leave it all to You.
