- Apr 19, 2017
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Hello, I am a recent convert into Catholicism, in fact I was baptized and confirmed on Easter! Definitely a highlight of my life thus far. For years I've looked at pornography off and on, and then as I started to take RCIA I took significant steps into blocking it on all my devices. I had occasional slip ups of course. I had been good for nearly two weeks until today when I out of some urge, as I was not fully even conscious of what I was doing, looked to see if a popular internet board (Reddit) would pass through my filter. Without being fully aware of what I was doing, I stumbled into a pornographic thread on the site out of habit. I immediately backed out, but one cannot unsee it. I then checked again with a different type to see if that too passed the filter, and it did, which I backed out and manually put it into my filter on my phone. I then logged onto my pc to see if the same exploit was possible against my filter, and it was. The looking at images had to have been no longer than 5-10 seconds cumulative, and the later parts were trying to ensure my filter would prevent longer term slip ups in the future. So I did see the same page several times for a half second or so as I ensured my filter was doing its job. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure they say.
So my question is have I committed a mortal sin? I attend daily mass in the mornings, but confession is not until Saturdays at my parish. Do I need to confess this before I can receive the Eucharist again? I understand that viewing pornography is indeed grave matter, but I did not do it consciously, and the other times were focused in my peripheral vision as I was trying to stop myself from doing so again in the future. I hope to get past this so I don't ever have to make a post like this again.
Any opinions from my Catholic brothers and sisters would be greatly appreciated.
Hello, I am a recent convert into Catholicism, in fact I was baptized and confirmed on Easter! Definitely a highlight of my life thus far. For years I've looked at pornography off and on, and then as I started to take RCIA I took significant steps into blocking it on all my devices. I had occasional slip ups of course. I had been good for nearly two weeks until today when I out of some urge, as I was not fully even conscious of what I was doing, looked to see if a popular internet board (Reddit) would pass through my filter. Without being fully aware of what I was doing, I stumbled into a pornographic thread on the site out of habit. I immediately backed out, but one cannot unsee it. I then checked again with a different type to see if that too passed the filter, and it did, which I backed out and manually put it into my filter on my phone. I then logged onto my pc to see if the same exploit was possible against my filter, and it was. The looking at images had to have been no longer than 5-10 seconds cumulative, and the later parts were trying to ensure my filter would prevent longer term slip ups in the future. So I did see the same page several times for a half second or so as I ensured my filter was doing its job. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure they say.
So my question is have I committed a mortal sin? I attend daily mass in the mornings, but confession is not until Saturdays at my parish. Do I need to confess this before I can receive the Eucharist again? I understand that viewing pornography is indeed grave matter, but I did not do it consciously, and the other times were focused in my peripheral vision as I was trying to stop myself from doing so again in the future. I hope to get past this so I don't ever have to make a post like this again.
Any opinions from my Catholic brothers and sisters would be greatly appreciated.