Well, for starters I never said I did. I don't run to get blood tests every time I think I have a subjective experience. That said, there
are increasingly sophisticated scientific ways of testing whether I actually experience the emotion I say I'm experiencing - or at least whether my body is doing the same things other human bodies do when their owners claim a certain emotion.
Your subjective experience is an
internal feeling, not an external entity. Bear that in mind for later...
A prof should have read the job description before applying.
Of course. And given what you just said, you have no reason to expect anyone to believe you
You'll note that we were talking about the existence of
God(s), while you kept referring to
relationships. These are two different issues.
Remember, the "relationship" you speak of is made up of your subjective experiences. You experience emotions, you do not necessarily experience God. We could theoretically hook you up to an ECG or some manner of brain imaging machine and make some inferences about your emotional state. That is only evidence of your feelings, though.
I have an anxiety disorder. I
know that
experiencing a feeling doesn't necessarily mean that there's an objectively real, external cause for it. You may
feel safe or happy or awed or feel a mysterious presence, and you may
attribute those experiences to God, but it's no more evidence of God's existence than my permanent fight-or-flight response is evidence that I'm in danger.